Becky, We have been away from Emma for a weekend, but this will be a little over a week. YIKES. She is so sweet, I just don't want her to wonder where we are and why we aren't with her! Hope she isn't mad when we get home. I am going to have so much fun buying things for her while we are gone. She will get most of the souveniers.!!

sighhhhhhhhh

Kierie: I LOVE Nutella. I have a jar of it in my cabinet right now. I got hooked when I lived in Germany. My friend's mom used to give it us for lunch with hot brotchen (rolls). Yum, yum. I don't eat it all that much, because it's dangerous. I shouldn't even mention this, but dipping pretzels in it is REALLY yummy. Now, to make you lose your appetite, I also used it last year to catch mice when I had a problem in my apartment. I didn't have any peanut butter, so I put a dab in those humane mouse traps. I suspect that's why they kept coming back!

KT: I think you and I must be on the same b/f wavelength. Mine has done the same thing: When I start talking about wanting to get married, and how he's never going to marry me, he'll say, 'Fine. Will you marry me?' He's said that about a dozen times over the past years. But I'm like you, I want the real proposal, the ring, the romance. He's been telling me for more than a year that he has the ring, so I don't get it.

Does anyone ever find it hard not to be envious of other people? I know no one's life is perfect, but I have this good friend who started dating her now-husband a few weeks after me and my b/f starting dating, except he proposed a long time ago. They've been married two years now (both b/f and I were in the wedding party), and she told me on the phone the other night that they just started trying to have a baby. They recently bought a house ... and it's everything I want. I know she doesn't like her job and is thinking of leaving journalism, so that's one thing I have on her, but isn't that sad? I have a wonderful job ... but none of what else I want. Whoo-hoo, isn't it swell that I have a career.

I know I have self-esteem issues, but I also get frustrated with myself that I can't seem to give myself the life I want.

OK, enough feeling sorry for myself. Thanks for listening.

Yum! I also love Nutella! It is really good with sliced apples or bananas (nad that way you are being healthy at the same time!)

Hi Girlees!

Wow you miss a few days and it takes a freakin hour to read up on everything! Glad to hear everyone's doing well. Sorry to hear there's some self-esteem stuff happening though. Just remember you have to have positive self-talk because if you talk down to yourself then your leaving the door open for you to start to believe the crap you hear.

I have been incredibly busy this week. Its good because the week has just flown by. One of my best friends got engaged this week! That was exciting. Now this summer we have at least five weddings to go to besides ours! Crazy! She asked me to be her maid of honor so that's very cool. We're both sad though cuz she lives in Edmonton (6 hours from here) so we have to do all the planning stuff over email. We had our own little online party the other night to celebrate. Not the same as in person but better than nothing. Guess what I just realized?? For the two weddings this summer that I am going to be the Maid of Honor I will actually be the Matorn of Honor by then! Cool b/c its means I'm amrried but yucky cuz the word matron makes me think of an ugly fat old lady with forty cats and no life. Sorry! Just the visual that pops into my head.


I don't have time to reply to everyone's posts right now cuz I get to go receive massage today from one of my school buds so I should run. Tomorrow I will be on in the morning for sure. Tomorrow the other girl who I'm being maid of honor for & I are going to try on wedding and bm dresses. Should be fun Oh yeah another thing I wanted to quickly comment on isthe rice conversation from a few days back-last night DF made a rice sald where he had to cook the rice in 1c of pineapple juice and then the rest of the amount of liquid as water. It was soooo yummy! I've never thought of trying it with fruit juice. Makes me want to get creative-maybe one of these days when I have time.

Anywa I'm really going now. Take care everyone and have a super day!

-Rina

YES I feel this way too - my friend just started dating this guy one month ago, she is freshly separated mind you, and this guy said I love you and asked her parents if he could marry her already.

My b/f , on the other hand, took 13 months to say I love you and is still struggling with moving in together and even sometimes, dating long term!

I thought it would be easier, adn not that I'd trade him, b/c I do really love him,and I think in his own way, he loves me too,but I mean, this guy my friend is dating, he buys her flowers, makes her feel super secure and special....my b/f has done nothing but make me INSECURE in fact so much so that now that he said I love you adn wants me to feel more secure, I can't. he knows its b/c of what he's done to me, but nonetheless, I can't make it any different, its how I feel.

For those of you who remember the past "break" b/f wanted in August before he admitted to beign in love with me, well, that has really screwed my trust. B/c it came without warning, whenever we are apart and we talk on teh phone, I get wary and I think if he doesn't sound enthusiastic he is going to do the same thing again. The effects are bad. LIke this happened on Tuesday, I went out, he was grumpy, I went to my apt and he was moody on the phone. I got all insecurea dn worried, saw him for about an hour yesterday and I caught myself distancing from him, and i know why - b/c once bitten, twice shy.

ANYWAY, there is my b/f grumblings for the day, thanks for listening back!!

Kim, you are not alone....

Belle

Belle, I wished you lived next door. Heck, I wish all of you lived next door!