Thankies everyone for your comments on my obese now thread lol ... Im telling everyone Im obese .. and so few understand how exciting it is rofl .. thank goodness for you lot
Its been a mixed few days emotion wise .., still awaiting news on my nephew .. still I figure the longer it takes the better the news could be right?
Sunday one of our lambs (Sooty the girl) got her hoof caught in a tree while we were out (she tries to climb the fruit trees cos she likes those leaves more than the grass and other food we have for her lol) and by the time we realised she was still in the same position it was about 8 hours later!!!! I felt so guilty my poor lamb stuck in a tree .. gawd that sounds weird lol .. can laugh about it now fortunately ... but on Sunday I was so afraid we would have to put her to sleep because of her leg not being anything but a floppy appendage. Fortunately the farmer out the back came to our place and had a good look at her .. it was badly bruised and strained.. but not broken. So she is now starting to put her hoof down a little more .. I had to tell Sweep off because he was lining up our neighbour to bunt him when he was bent over examining Sooty rofl.
I have finally reached my first hump in my journey .. would say bump .. but really it feels bigger than that lol. I keep thinking about my 35th birthday coming up .. Im one of those people that evaluate my life at certain times ... 30 was the last one .. now its 35 and I have been pondering what I have been doing the last 5 years .. as well as what I want to do for the next 5 .. The past 5 .. I havent done too bad really .. I have owned a business and made it successful. I have met and fallen in love with a wonderful guy. We have bought a lovely home together, as well as another property (even tho that one has been giving us headaches lol). I have so far lost over 60 pounds. I have built a closer relationship with my dad, and attempted to build bridges with my mother. So all in all .. I think I have had a successful 5 years ... my problem is ... I like to plan .. I like to know what Im doing in the next 5 years .. as a general guideline anyway. But other than losing weight .. I have no real plans .. well .. somewhere in there a marriage may happen lol .. havent decided yet tho.
Today on the phone I admitted to my honey I think I have lost my motivation. I am so proud of how well I have done so far not being a specific plan and other than on here, doing it on my own. I am happy when I have actually done a workout .. but I just cant seem to get myself to do it. I know I need to eat 3 meals a day (at least) .. and yet Im again back to skipping breakfast and lunch. Its a case of I know what Im doing wrong .. and yet I cant seem to get myself to stop it.
So ... tonight I got Richard out and danced with him .. then while still feeling fine I added in a 1 mile WATP! BUT ... Im not happy about doing it. To me that isnt what Im supposed to be feeling. I think this is why I havent really been on here much .. its more a case of I have been battling this feeling the last couple of weeks but I wanted to work it out on my own (as I do lol) ... only I just thought that as we are supposed to be accountability partners that I should be true and honest about how things are going instead of making out that everything is a breeze ... hehehe .. to think I said to someone recently that I was feeling guilty for putting on all this weight cos it is seeming really easy to get it off .. DOH! Should have shut up!
Tomorrow I am getting on my scooter and going to the gym in town with a pool. They have a special offer on at the moment to have new members so Im going to go and look it over and talk to them .. They have water aerobics there too and the only time it isnt on is over Xmas/New Year! If it looks good .. then Im going to sign up and hope that this will give me motivation .. to exercise if nothing else.
Anyway .. just thought I would let you know where my head is at at this moment.
Right .. just a couple of personals.
Zelma hunny .. I do know exactly where you are coming from with the questioning of yourself with visiting more etc .. I did exactly that when grandad (the dad of my life growing up) died. I just couldnt face seeing him as someone that was so unlike who he really was I think .. and it was harder still when my grandmother wouldnt let any of us speak at his funeral. I went home that night and looked out at the sky and picked out the brightest one with my daughter and named it grandad .. here we are 7 years later and I still miss him so much .. a lot of times I go to ring him .. or think Grandad would laugh at this .. then it hits me he is gone again. Its not that I dont remember he died .. just that he was the sort of person that was so alive and lived life instead of existing in it .. that its hard to think of him not still being there. Im babbling again .. HUGS and LOVE hunny.
I cant remember who it was that asked about alternative treats than food for rewards?? How about a manicure .. a massage .. a day flying a kite! New clothes are a common thing too. I get myself a new figurine or bear for my collection. Maybe you could treat yourself to a new movie/dvd/video for your home. Have a home movie night (great for a family). Go for a walk where you can pick some flowers for your home .. its exercise and a lovely gift to your senses. Have a lovely bubble bath with some soft music and a soppy book to read. Im not sure what it is that you do usually or what your interests are or if you collect anything .. but if you collect something then treat yourself to a new addition to your collection, if you have an interest in something then treat yourself to a day spent involved in the interest. Good luck!
Okee .. well ... humm .. right .. 5 positives for Wednesday/Thursday
1 - My little girl isnt gonna have to get put down and she is walking better every day!
2 - My dad got back from his holiday down south safe and sound and we will be seeing him in the next week some time.
3 - I have decided to join a gym at last!
4 - I got to have a Caramel Sundae ... lol... oh boy is that a positive hehehe
5 - Im still on my journey .... even if I dont know the ultimate destination
Love, Light and Laughter everyone!!