Im new here but I can definitely relate to what you are going through.....I am so sorry to hear what happened but at the same time, look at it as time to focus on you and your "little ones". I am sure your birdie is in great hands with your vet.
I know what its like to go through this, after being with my ex "douchebag" husband for 15 years.....except I took the step to leave him after years of abuse....I finally figured out that it had to do with my appearance and thats why he did what he did. I have now been single for 8 years (technically, we legally separated in 2005, I left in 2007 after I got my money). I am sure you will meet someone when the time is right....thats what I tell myself. So concentrate on you and your babies and things will get better