Hey everyone. So I missed out yesterday but I'm all caught up now. See below. Monday's fast went okay and yesterday was foodier than I would have liked but nothing horrible or off plan just more lean meat than I initially intended. TOM is imminent so I'm as munchy as all get out but I'm trying really hard to stay reasonable. I'm enabling my brother who's trying to lose weight to eat more and I feel bad because I keep eating half of things and pushing the other half on him (a protein bar, a kiwi, a date, a breakfast sausage, a doughnut)- obviously not all in the same day, but over the past few days, that has just been some of the halfsies madness. I'm not a good sister right now. Anyway, now that I've reported myself to you guys, I'll stop and throw stuff away instead, even though that seems incredibly wasteful and thoughtless when one considers the "starving children in Africa" (yeah I said it!

). I got on the scale today and it WASN'T at all encouraging (183!!!). I know it's probably TOM-related but still, it wasn't the best start to the day... but still I keep going. I hope all of you guys are doing well and have an awesome day.
Slashni: I'm glad you're feeling better and are back to your workouts. Hopefully, you get back in the groove of things easily and aren't too sore from Body Pump.
Laurie: I think that from your analysis, obviously there are better and more advantages to being on plan- now if only it was easy to do the "logical" thing and commit to a life perfectly on plan. But then at the same time, that wouldn't be real life. It's the imperfections and the conflicts that make our real life novels so interesting... fraught, yes, but at least not boring. Maybe you could reconcile to being on plan 75% of the time or something and planning your off-plan periods... ah the irony of planning how to be OFF-plan- let it be said, weight loss journeys are not for people without a sense of self-irony. Anyway, I know you were just organizing your thoughts but I just wanted to say your "crazy" here, is totally sane. We get it. And we don't think you're (too

) crazy. We're all crazy here anyway, and I'm thinking maybe we are the sane ones and the rest of the world who's not obsessing about this journey like we are are the crazy ones... Who's to say, eh? (Well except science and psychiatrists and millions of years of history that includes very little about trying to LOSE weight... But still, who's to say! We'll take them down!). Yay on feeling better and doing a less than intense/non-weighloss-focused workout with a friend. Sometimes the best we can do is just little simple doable actions to stay in the game somewhat, so yay! I'm thinking of you!
SkinnyGirl: WELCOME! This group is great and I look forward to getting to know you. I think it's awesome that you have both a weight and a fitness goal. Running is great. I used to be a regular treadmill 5k runner (from late 2010 till about early September this year) but I haven't run in nearly 3 months and so I can't even begin to imagine what my running fitness is like. My current schedule means that if I'm going to get back into running, it's going to be outside which is wayyy harder than the treadmill especially in a humid tropical climate BUT if you want to do like a running challenge/support thing for December, I'm definitely in. Are you doing C25K or something of your own design. ALSO, go you being so proactive. I only recently started taking a packed lunch to the office and it's usually pretty uninspired so I'm always looking for ideas. What's in your packed lunch?
MissLoud: NOOOO!!! Say it isn't so!!! There was wedding dress dancing like no one was watching (because no one was actually watching)!!!!! I mean forget pics, I would have expected video! LOLOLOL.

I'm so pleased for you! When I was a kid, my brother and I used to pretend we were in BMX Bandits (you know the movie right?) and cycling was to us all that, the bag of chips and the soda on the side! I think the velodrome sounds fun! Plus think of the indoor cyclists in olympics, they always seem super lean, so it's probably a great workout too!
Mandy: 
Sorry you're feeling the grind right now. I know the feeling and it's no bueno! I think sometimes it's easy to overlook our achievements and how far we've come sometimes. Now, I complain about the 180s and feel like I'm as big as ever BUT if I pause, I REALLY remember how FAR I've come even in the months since I've been back on here working on the regain. Sure it's only like 16 pounds after 4 whole months BUT 180 is better than 196 and it's been worth the hard work and obsession and frustration even though right now, stalling it doesn't feel like it. And even though you're stalling right now, as an objective observer, I think all the effort, obsession and frustration has been totally worth it. I mean hard, yes! But worth it! Look at you knocking out upwards of 5 miles any day you choose like it's nothing, and decades of pounds closer to goal and inspiring so many of us on here AND doing it in the middle of the life upheaval of a big move and life change! I mean, you're an ABSOLUTE rockstar and you've been on tour so long, I think you deserve a little down time. So basically, your hooker needs to get of your back and take several seats! #PIPEDOWNHOOKER Anyway, you asked for none of that preamble, you were only seeking input about a scale, but you know me by now, I've never liked 3 words when I could use 27. So, re: shaking things up with a new tool (i.e. the elliptical), I think it can't hurt PLUS it IS something you've mentioned for a while. Obviously, it probably won't fix the megrims, plan fatigue, and general out-of-sorts-and-over-it-all-ness BUT it is a good tool to at least give you an alternative to Leslie this winter. Re: the financial outlay, my mother always says "you can't take it with you" so whilst I agree that saving is good and should be a priority, good health is just as good and if you think about it, investing in your health IS kind of saving in a sense. #EnablerAtWork I think if you can afford it and believe you can assemble it and will use it, I think you should get it.