Oh, Sum -- I am so sorry...

Of course we are here for you... sometimes the "smaller" threads and boards feel safer and more personal... I am so sorry this is happening to you...
Here, I was sick all last week AND it was my birthday AND it was my DS' birthday AND there was some self-sabotage thrown in there. It is frightening to me how quickly the numbers can go up. I was a happy 156 on Friday and a sad 161 on Monday. Ugh.
I upped my workout a notch today. And I decided that I need a new goal to work towards. So... by the time I'm 49 (ie, in a year) I want to be able to do an unassisted pullup and dip. I have no idea if I'm giving myself way too much time or way too little. I just want to do it!
On the assisted pullup / dip machine, I'm currently offsetting my weight by 90 pounds, so there's a long way to go. Today I did a full set at offset-90. Then I cam back later in my workout and did offset-80 to failure (which was 3 pullups and 5 dips). It's a start.
My morning coffee date with a friend canceled for tomorrow, so I will try to come back and do personals then.