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Originally Posted by ALO22
So, I had another epiphany today (and counting...): IE is about control and self-trust! I may not be losing weight, but I feel much more in control when around food
On the flip side: IE is about accepting that there is little control in life. Maybe too much control is what leads us to eating disorders. The illusion of control. Maybe when we accept that life if unexpected, we will be better prepare to enjoy the ride... I think I'm onto something here...
Ladies, at what age did you have your first child? This is something I've been thinking about seriously for a year now, but we don't have health insurance yet. I know deep down in my heart that the moment I get HI, there won't be any rational force on earth to stop me, not even my husband :LOL:
I used to get very concerned about not being in the perfect situation to have a baby. You know: a phd, $200000 a year, the big SUV and $2000 monthly mortgage. Gosh, I would be 45 before I get that! IF I ever get that.
Now, don't get me wrong, I have plans: I want to sign up for grad school and I'd love a better job. DH has no college degree (*gasp*), he is still a bit lost. But he is super smart and really hard working. I know we will make it. I think we are adults now
Baby fever may sound cute, but it's one of the strongest feeling a woman will ever experience. People who haven't had it cannot understand it, and I know DH finds it cute, funny and a bit scary. Sometimes I feel I am going crazy, sometimes I walk down the baby isle in the grocery store and just stare. I've taken pregnancy test knowing that I wasn't pregnant.
I am glad I haven't had a baby yet. It's been painful, but I've learnt so much. Mainly to be patient and to understand that life can't be rushed. I think I'm a bit wiser.
It will happen when it has to happen and I will just hope for the best with the certainty that I will do my best and I will decide what I think is the best. I can't do much more than that.
Because life doesn't work in order. It seems like we all try to convince ourselves that life (and weight control, for that matter) is a straight line. All we are gonna do is hit the wall so hard. And then, we'll have to rebuild from scratch, without pressure, just enjoying being here and alive
