
I'm down another pound. I can't believe I've lost 15 pounds since starting the challenge. All of y'all are so motivating!
Have a great day & weekend.

You all know I took like a week and a half to just relax and not worry about anything, came back feeling destressed and started my Dr. Oz program. Well, the scale was saying 220 after the week off
but Dr. Oz had me feeling so good after just a couple days it was back down to 216...and then last night hubby left out and he will be gone this weekend
and soon as he walked out the door I said "okay kids, who wants taco bell?" I was screaming at myself inside NOT TO DO IT the whole way, but did it anyway. Today was to be my official WI and I was going to be back to 216, maybe even 215 and it was pure self destruction, and a lot to do with emotions as well. I ate horribly, close to 2,000 calories, and now today the scale is saying 219
I know it is all the sodium in taco bell and some will come off, and I have been back on plan today and feel somewhat better already. It's like my head was in the wrong place last night, and I woke up today clear headed, but ready to choke myself to death. 
Also my dad has been home sick for a few days, seriously ill with fever and pain in his legs. They are not sure what it is yet, kidney stone or some other infection...test results come back Monday. Anyway, I've been thinking about him too, making food for my mom and him, and letting my dad's health sort of be a wake up call to me to GET HEALTHY and stay healthy!
to you all!
that is incredibly hard, esp. with the children. I am glad they will be left with a good father, but it will change their lives forever. You are so right, it seems like it should be darned easy, but it's so complicated when you look at food in the wrong way...we need to just look at it as nourishment for the body, PERIOD, but very few people can do that anymore. It's been like a friend to me, and is so hard to let go of...but I realize at the same time it's not worth it, esp. when it can put your life at risk. Dr. Oz explains how cancers develop in his book YOU: staying young and it was eye opening. I thought it was something that just gets in there like a virus and hangs on, but it's actually the way your cells multiply and make mistakes...anyway, it's interesting if you want to read up on it I recommend his book.
hang in there, we're going to get through this somehow, someway, someday.
That poor family. 
and the thought of food only for "fuel"...well...hm. Yet I have been slowly but surely addressing the stuff that sends me to the food in times of stress, tiredness, celebration, sadness, anger, la,la,la...yeah, I join the ranks of the emotional eaters.
Also keeping the weight OFF was kind of scary I guess...as I gained mine BACK. It was over some years...but still....ugh. My father has done the same thing over the years, lose, gain, lose, gain, maintain...the yo-yo is simply NOT healthy. Thanks for the recommendation, I will check out the books!

I am off to pump some iron!
We were at the end of a movie. Guess it will have to wait. 