Dana thank you so much flr lettingme vent. I feel sorry for the heater guy that was late today. I must have had daggers in my eyes when he was here to get an estimate on a heating system. I got the book today Dana! OMG I love it! I can not wait to look through it slowly this time. My friend will be so jealous of it! It made my day Dana so I can not thank you enough for that wonderful gift.
I did write Miss Bonnie and question here about last Sunday. I also had a few other things to address with her. I am not one that when she gets steamed to be quiet. I have a rather sharp tongue when I really am upset! Maybe i will havwe to find another Church now! I might be lynched out of that one now.
Daphne

Real Quick from work!

Daphne...I am so sorry for you. I hope things are better for you today. It sounded like Jason didn't want to take the job anyway. And as for Ms. Bonnie...why do they have that ignorant cow teaching impressionable little kids? I hate to tell everyone, this but the 7th day is actually Saturday! Just look at your calendar we actually start our week on Sunday. Most Christian religions use Sunday as a day of rest, but the jewish religion has it on Saturday and the old testiment is originates from Jewish religion. My church believe in Sunday being sacrite and dedicated to the Lord. So if Robert want to not do his homework, then maybe he should spend the time on his knees praying for hours on end...lol See how he like that one.. I am really sorry that Jason didn't get the job, he really needs to be closer to home and help you more. Do you want to move more north? Have you guys ever thought about moving to Cali?

Dana...I am so glad you like your new camera. How was Bretts field trip? How is everything else going? Darcie's team has now won 5 out of 6 games!!!!

As for me, I am still working like a dog. Not getting enough done. And wishing I didn't have to come to work anymore. I long to be at home with my kids. I am also going through a bought of depression. I am getting down on myself, because we are 3 months into the new year and I haven't lost weight, my house is not clean and my children are still bratty and I am a raving b!tch. I want peace in my life. I don't want to come home to a dirty house everyday after working 9 hours straight. I want to be thin, not have to squish into my clothes. I know that I am incharge of making all these changes...and that is why I am so PO at myself, because...THEY HAVEN'T HAPPENED. Well, even though I am complaining I am really trying not to beat myself up to much...It is just hard.

I think the spiral down happen because of work! I think that the stress I am under here has made me feel bad about all the rest of the areas of my life. I am not giving up...there is still plenty of 2004 left for me to turn my life around. I am just treading water right now until I can figure out how to do it!!!

Well, got to get back to work...I miss you all, but there just isn't any time for me to get on line. I also need to complete an online traffic school within the next month or I will get introuble so if I am logging on at home it will be to work on that.

Love to all!!!
Deborah

Logan brought home a letter from the principal yesterday. He had to go for touching a girl on the breast. The real bad news is that girls mom cuts my hair and i have an app't on monday. I don't know how she will take it but logan has known heather (girl at school) since before they ever got in school and he sees her as a pal or buddy and not a girl if that makes sense. Heather has a 12 yr old sister so I can see how she felt bothered by it. Logan doesn't know better. He has a twin sister and he's seen her chest before and they aren't developed so they look just like he does. Anyway, if it happens again they will file a sexual harassment report and he could be suspended from school or worse. It's rediculous to me cause he's only 8 and really doesn't see what is so bad about it. Kevin was furious about it. He got all over logan for doing that and what was sad is Logan didn't know he touched anything. They were aparrently playing some kind of contact sport or game in PE. I'm just dreading monday cause I don't know what the mom will say. My mom has a hair app't on friday so maybe if I talk to her before then, they can have a talk on friday and she can tell me what the mood will be.

I had logan to write the girl an apology. He preceeded to draw hearts at the bottom of it. I told him to erase that cause that is what is getting him in trouble with the principal. It's just so innocent and I hate it that I failed somewhere along the line with telling him that you can't touch girls. He sees us wrestle around with laken all the time and i"m sure he's really confused. I emailed the teacher yesterday who didn't see it anyway but she was who Heather told while at lunch. I also grew up with this teacher and we have a fairly "friendly" relationship when it comes to our kids and school. I just told her that Logan isn't this kid that the principal has made up in that letter and that he didn't know any better and I dont think it is how the letter explained. I haven't heard from her yet but I know she's read it cause she sent my email confirmation. I wouldn't doubt if she doesn't send a letter or someone doesn't send one after school today. The principal gave us his "eye" while we were dropping them off this morning.

BTW Deb, brett's trip went fine and we're getting even closer to the out of state trip. It's 3 weeks away and I haven't heard if my record is clean yet or not. I have a chaperone meeting on monday at 6 p.m. to discuss the trip and when we leave and so forth.

Deb I agree with you about your thinking. I find it hard to believe we're already 3 months into 2004 but there is still 3/4 of it left so we can't give up yet. I had gained a pound back yesterday and weighed again this morning and lost 1/2 pound overnight. Its crazy how it flucutates so easy but it doesn't take much to lose or gain 8 ounces.

Daphne I'm glad you like that catalog. It's got so many ideas in it whether you're interested in their products or not. That's what I really like about it. I've kinda experimented around with it already.

Well I hate to post and run but I need to finish dishes and need to leave for school in less than 10 minutes.

Gayle & Ann, post soon girls. I miss you.

OK I wrote a long post yesterday and then it went poof. So I will try again.

Deborah I am so sorry about all the stuff that you are going thru. I really wish that I was there to help you. I hope that the job is better for now. I found that if I am real pissed I can get a lot of cleaning done!
Dana when will you find out about if you get to go or not? I hope so much that you do. Who will watch Laken and Logan at that time? How excited are you about going? I jope that you have extra money saved for it! Oh I have a friend that is interested in knowing how much that book is for them to order? She is the one that I took the stepping up class from. She loved my book. I said that I would ask you about it.
Gayle I think that dinner you had last night sounded great to me! I am proud of you for doing the exercising class. I had great plans for yesterday with diet and walking...etc..... I had to get a damn cold and start my period then. I just can not do it with both that going on! Ha ha ha ha ha on me.
Jason is in CA right now. I was crying so hard at 4AM yesterday when he left. He has told me the night before that he was signing 2 checks to both acounts incase something happens. I was OK but what can happen? I have money and the bills are all paid. Then he said *I mean if I die or get hurt you will have access to my accounts otherwise they can get tied up in probate, that you never know what can happen I can have a heart attack or anything* That just killed me then. Whnen he is in Seattle he is just 2 hours away or so. CA is almost 16 hours away. Ihad a hard time last night not packing the kids up and heading down to him. Crazy I know.
Daphne

I am so glad to see all of these posts. Gayle yes we have all been there. I haven't been doing to bad on eating but I was hungry just a bit ago and had some peanut M&M's. You are exercising some though so you can't beat up on yourself. I haven't done my pilates today and the sad thing is I can do it without even watching the dvd. I know the "moves" by now. I have to do something before bed whether it's some situp type things or something. I'm amazed at my flexibility that I've acheived and my muscles don't hurt when I work them either. I will comment on logan after I address you all so stay tuned.. BTW I saw that decoration you still have up!!

Daphne, jason only meant that you needed to be added to his stuff so in the event something happened, you had access to it. I wouldn't take it negatively but I do sympathize with you with him leaving you and going that far away. (maybe deb can keep an eye on him in cali.) I do hope I can go on that trip because if they don't let me, that's $480 that they will pay me (the school district) and I will make them do that. No one told me I had to pass a background until the money was paid. It's only been a week since I mailed in all that stuff so I'm trying to wait at least 14 days before inquiring cause it costs me $25 everytime I have a background check done. I will check on the price of those books. I still have about 7 of them left. I still haven't ordered anything out of it myself but I will. It may just be after the trip so someone will be here to get the package.

Kevin will be here to watch the others while brett goes on that trip. He only has to work one of the 3 days and he is taking it off.

Deb I'm glad you're getting a shorter day at work today. The deal with logan is a little more clearer. They were playing tag in PE and chasing kids around and he was "it". He "tagged" heather and she was it. She didn't think nothing of it evidently until later on in the day when she got around the teacher. I will see the mom on monday and I'm sure I can hear the girls story then. My mom saw her today but she didn't say thing to her. In fact mama said that she probably didn't think nothing of it and heather did. I will definately post what I hear but my 8 year old son certainly wasn't "copping a feel". You have to really be proud of darcie to help someone out when they aren't the most popular kid in school. My boys are that way but then again, they may be the "least popular in school". Who knows? At least they do have friends though and evidently we've raised them right or no one would want anything to do with them. (thank goodness my boys act more like me and not their dad)

Brett told me earlier that he had a "low" blood sugar today at school. It was only 70 but that's low enough for school. He told me that he ran a 70 yard dash or something earlier in the day and that was what caused it. I told him he needs to tell me when he will be running and such on PE days so we can cut back on insulin some that morning. he's fine now though but having lows really scare him cause he's heard of a lot of people going into coma's and he doesn't want to be that bad again.

Well my internet had hung up so I am going to have to copy this before dialing back up to post. The joys of dial-up!

OK dana he was playing tag and tagged her and hit a breast? OMG it is funny what they consider sexual harassment now days isn't it? I mean it isn't funny but it is so damn stupid that it really is. My friends kids was expelled for chasing the girls on the play ground and when they were caught he had to kiss them. I played that game in grade school as well. The school didn't like it and gave him a formal warning the next week he was joking around and asked a girl if she wanted to be his gf. Boom sexual harassment! He was expelled for that. He was 11 at the time it was going on. The girls were playing the game with him but they were not called sexualy predators they were victims.
Deborah I want that Mexican food now! I am amazed that there is nothing that you can do with that degree that will pay you better and treat you better. I really hope that you find something better soon for you.
I can't post to much being as i don't want to lose my connection. Love dial up I agree! NOT!!!!!!! Oh yeah I feel better today then I did last night and yesterday about Jason. I had just started my period and had a bad cold and was way short on sleep. I also got to talk to him and I know that he is there safe and sound!
Daphne

Gayle I can't believe you guys had snow. It's so pretty here and warm at that but I know you're a little more "elevated" up there than we are. (get those decorations down or it will be time to be them back up). You're not lighting up the trees and such are you??

There's not much to report here really but one exciting thing, I checked my arrest record just a few minutes ago and where it was 3 pages long about 10 days ago, it's all cleared now. I filled out the paper and gave it to brett and told him to turn it in to the teacher in the morning to make it official. We have meeting tomorrow evening about the field trip so hopefully we can have all details down pat. Maybe they can even give us some brochures about where all we're going or something. I have to get my hair cut in the morning but looking foward to getting it cut again cause the top is getting to long for me. I'm not sure if I'm looking foward to talking to the mom who does my hair or not. Well I'm going back to watch the race, my guy is doing much better this week. He's on the prowl and he was in 4th place last I looked.

Dana, I'm thrilled at your news! That must be such a weight off your shoulders! Now you can go where you please and do what you want.

No, I'm not lighting my decorations anymore at least! Today I'm going to the storage to get my boxes and stuff.

As for the snow, we're supposed to get up to 6 inches tomorrow! This is not unusual for OH in March. The good thing is that when it snows now, it doesn't stay for a month like in Dec thru Feb! We always say we'll get a St. Patrick's Day storm. It happens very often. But that's March in Ohio!

I'm doing some shopping for mom and me today and fixing dinner. With that and going to the storage, I'll be pooped by tonight!

Love,

It's not that unusual for us to get snow in march either and we've had our biggest snow storms in april too but it's unsual for us to get snow anytime of year for that matter. I just thought it sounded funny that our weather was so pretty and warm and to read that you had snow. Now being that you're in OH, that's not as far from here as say, alaska or even the west coast so it just seemed strange to lose sight that while we're warm, not everyone is!

We have the meeting this evening at school to discuss all of the field trip details and the trip is only 2 weeks from wednesday. I did get my hair done this morning. About the same as usual, she took about an inch off all over and maybe a tad more in areas that needed it. I like to be able to tell when my hair has been cut!

We talked about the "sexual harrassment" issue and she was shocked that it seemed to have been blown up on my end. She didn't know that I got a letter or that the principal used the words sexual harrassment with logan or even used the word "breast". What happened actually was they were playing tag in PE and when he tagged her it was "on her boob" as the girl said but she was giggling about it with another child while they were eating lunch. It's nothing unusual for these 2 girls to chase logan around and evidently one was jealous of the attention and it was the other child (sarah) who told on logan. Heather didn't know anything was wrong with that. Laura (childs mothers) said that when heather got in the car that day she was about in tears and told her that sarah got logan in trouble today and she didn't mean for it to happen. It's all ok now and laura said she didn't think anything of that with them being in 3rd grade and she told heather, "why didn't you tell miss know it all to mind her business?" Anyway, i'm real close to writing to the school board about it to be sure it's cleaned up and no one thinks badly of logan. I'm also considering going above the heads of the people here and telling the state board how I feel. They are down in columbia (state capital). I'm really fed up with the arrogant principal that we have.

Hi there everyone sorry for not posting sooner. I am in a serious depression over Jason being gone so long. I cry thru out the day and then cry myself to sleep and cry when I am sleeping. He wont be back now until April 3rd he thinks. He will be home on a Saturday but that will be like 8PM unless he gets home Friday. He will sleep alot the next day and then Monday he heads to Seattle and is busy all month. The kids have Spring Break the first full week of April. It is just to much right now for me to do. I will do it but I am just so exhausted it is crazy.
Dana I am so glad that your record is cleared now! I am so excited to hear how much fun the trip is!
Gayle we love ya! It is fun to think of having Christmas decorations up still. I think it is cool to havesnow this late. Not really but it is my attempt at humor.
Deborah how was the weekend? I hope that you relaxed and had some fun!
Ann I miss hearing from you darling.
I will post later I am just to outta it to think.
Daphne

Dana, I agree that I would consider writing the school board. That was so totally blown out of proportion! Logan does deserve an appology. I'm glad you got to talk to the girl's mom.

Daphne, I'm so sorry that you are so depressed. I can certainly understand that. Good luck to you and I hope you get some good "Jason" time before he takes off again!

Deborah, that 'diet' they have you on sounds very drastic. Good luck with that! I know you will lose tons of weight on so few cals. When I was losing my best I was aiming for 1400 cal a day, but rarely made it to 1000. I was having lots of 900 cal days. But, I was eating everything. I hope this doesn't burn you out! I'll be praying for you and rooting for a big loss by next meeting!

We're having a snow storm today. We're supposed to get up to 10 inches! It won't last too awfully long, though, cause it's supposed to get into the 40's by the end of the week.

Deb called last night and said that Kim wants to get together Fri night...HERE! I told her that that would be fine...I'll just shovel off a couple of chairs!

Gotta go and get out the shovel!

Love,