Laura,
So sorry to hear of your family's loss. Our sympathies and prayers are with you all during this difficult time.

Suzette

i hadn't been to the gym to wi in quite a while, so last night i was surprised to see i am down seven pounds from last time. yay! that means i have already met my novemeber goal, which i didn't think would happen. woohoo!

YAY! Candace Way to go - 7 lbs !!that is so great!
Theresa -glad you enjoyed your trip

I am in a Blah mood- I just can't seem to focus and it's irritating me to no end - seems i have a zillion things to do and can't finish any of them so i get bummed and give up.
I need to "dig in" like Theresa says and be a food nerd and be ever diligent. My 2 pounds up shows i haven't been focused. I also need to exercise- it/s so easy to put it off and say i just don't have time- what i need ot do is be "selfish" again and make me time to exercise- hubby's vacation days messes up my schedule and then my oldest broke up with her B/F so she'll need a ride to work - and that cuts my available time down. I really think I am sorta making excuses and need to stop and just take care of it instead of whining. Hubby says to tell DD to get her own ride and I guess i need to do that.
I am trying to get everything done today so i can start on Monday and pay attention to food and exercise- these past 4 days have not been good- too much snacking and not keeping track of my food- no exercise etc.. I even ate a tootsie roll (mini) yesterday..
Give me a good ladies and a few and i'll get back on track- need to stop feeling sorry for myself :
Have a good day all !

*whack* *whack* *whack* How's that Sandi?

I got to the grocery store today, though we don't have much $ left until Thursday payday. Had to pay high price for chicken, and I am hoping it goes on sale again SOON so i can stock up again.

I got some motivation in a bad way while in Ohio. I saw my sister at her highest weight ever and she just doesn't look like herself. She's close to 400 lbs. now I think, since she was 350 when I saw her a year ago and she's much bigger now. Her 5 year old son is also very chunky now and he doesn't look healthy to me. He's wearing the same size clothes as our 9 year old nephew! They eat out about every night of the week, plus she eats out for lunch every day, and just has no desire to lose weight. Sometimes, they will eat out twice in one night, dinner and then after the kids go to bed they get Taco Bell or McDs as a snack, ICK.

She has all kinds of health issues and the doctor has just told her she has to lose weight or it is just going to keep getting worse. Still, she won't do it I tried to give her my workout dvds and she wouldn't even look at them, said she'll just wait until summer and start taking walks. I told her walking is good, but she needs to start NOW, and she said that they were walking in the summer....walking to Dairy Queen for ice cream and back. WHAT??? Walking a short distance and eating ice cream in the middle does nothing, she's cancelling it out, but she won't listen and I didn't want to ruin Thanksgiving so I didn't say a word. Mom took the dvds, she has lost some weight and looks good.

I am just SO SAD for my sister, I feel like she's killing herself and setting her kids up for the same and she doesn't seem to care.

I also saw my friend who I told you all about before, the one who lost over 100 lbs. through prescription pills and then her doctor took her off the pills. She has gained it all back, plus more I think. She was baking a freezer full of buckeyes when I visited her and just watching her was enough for me to refuse them. I was so sad for my friend and my sister I felt sick when we left. But, there is nothing i can do but use it as motivation to keep going about this the right way, for me and my kids.

Theresa

I am with you Sandi. Get back on track! Move it! Move it! I have just been so undone because I have to go to court again. I hate court and I just don't want to hear all the icky things. On top of that it looks like my ex is a no show for his visit and now Josh is all undone about it which I can't blame him for. I have gained 5 pounds over the last almost month but I am finally feeling like I am getting into a routine here and getting a handle on it all. This next week is so busy between court, dr. appointment, monthly errends, wic, and pictures being done so today I need to get the house as put together as I can so I don't have a huge deal by the end of the week. I really want to be under 200 by christmas time so like Theresa, I too need to dig in and get this ball rolling!
Melissa

Thanks Melissa and Theresa- I needed the fussing- I have no idea whats wrong I just seem to be all the time these past few days. Hubby says maybe it's because i ate so MANY unrefined carbs these past 4 days that my body has had a turn around and is saying OOOO feed me white bread and cookies and candy. So I go thru NOT eating the unrefined carbs again. and - I feel as if I have to start all over again
We went shopping today and grabbed some lean pork and chicken was on sale so that was good. I also got some canned fruit in it's own juice- a can of those at wallworld is only 50 cents compared to 97 cents a can at publix..makes no sense?? and i got some REAL oatmeal and some other things that really weren't expensive( like SF/FF jello) but will help me thru some rough spots.
Melissa- when you hit ONEderland there is gonna be a party! I know how you feel I just wanna hit in the 150's by Christmas!
Well i have had a better afternoon - got shopping done the tree is up and 50% decorated , Dishes are done and laundry is being whipped into shape.
I am going to do a week of menus tonight and plan for lunches and dinners. this way I can DIG IN - ( i like that phrase) and get going-
have a good night all-WE CAN DO THIS!
Sandi

You are doing better than I am. It seems all I can do lately just to keep the clutter down. I have done good eating today but I have had to stop myself and turn around so many times today that I lost count. Josh hit me today in the head and I just lost it. Yes he is still living but man I came close to just letting him totally have it. He has got to learn to deal bettter with frustration and thus far I just haven't found the key for him yet. That is the first time in a really long time that he has hit me. Used to happen daily and I got really good at duck and weave like you wouldn't believe. I know part of my problem is that I have been stuck in the house with a bunch of sick cranky kids for two weeks now. Josh finally called dennis about 1130 just to find out that dennis said he was sick and wouldn't be there. I felt so bad for him. Funny I can let him know when Josh is sick but he just doesn't show up if it is him. Can ya'll see why I want to hit the fridge really bad????? Plus I had my daughter instant message me every day now for the last 3 days. I printed them out to give to the caseworker. I just keep wondering what part of no contact she isn't getting. So needless to say I am stressed out and trying really hard not to go eat myself silly. I know it won't change anything and will only make me feel yicky and the things that are bugging me will still be there.
melissa

What is she saying in the messages? Is she trying to ask how Logan is, or just trying to get at you? She is actually working in your favor though, she's showing she can't go by the rules or listen to court orders. She's just stacking the deck against herself,so keep printing them out and not responding. She'll get it one day...hopefully.

Theresa

First one she wanted to come see the girls on thanksgiving-she hasn't seen or asked after them for 6 months. Told her she couldn't because Logan was here and she was arguing with me and then said this was all my fault because I keep butting in. I didn't go there with her. Second one she was trying to give me a fish and a tank and I think it was just so she could come over and she said she is marrying David. I can't believe she would even consider that after what he pulled. So it is going to show that she is just as irresponsible as ever, going to stay with loser boy and not following directions. Third one I have no idea what she was trying to type to me and I just closed the window and ignored her. I always have yahoo on invisible because of her and that way if I don't want to deal with her, she is never the wiser whether I am there or not. I wish it was bedtime for josh-I am really on the edge with him and he doesn't get it still.
melissa

Sounds like she is just trying to get to see him one way or another. It is sad she can't see her own son, but really it seems best she stay away at least until there is a court order to guide the visits. This is much better than her beating on your door though, you can ignore her easier this way.

I am sorry about the kids as well. Make sure you tell Josh's daddy how it makes Josh feel and how he acts out when he is stood up. He probably won't care, but at least he should know that his behavior affects his son to this extent.

I am having to re-train Ty to sleep on his own tonight, after sleeping with me and Allie while in Ohio. He keeps screaming to get out of his room and saying "I sleep with mama!" when I ask him what is the matter. I'm getting a headache.

Yeah she is just bending the rules is all thinking she can get away with it. She forgets that she isn't that slick.

Dennis has been told repeatedly about so many things where Josh is concerned and he ignores it all. It would truly be easier on us all if he just went away and I could keep the stability and routine that josh needs so bad in order to function.

Feel for you for the retraining. I went through that with josh several times now and it isn't any easier even though he is older now. He has been back again now for about 7 months and I am hoping that is the last time I ever have to do that again. I feel deprived because I am sharing my room with Logan right now. I can't move him in with the girls until he sleeps all night and that won't start until I can get him to quit going to bed at like 630-7 every night. He actually went to bed like at 415 today. Good thing they all eat flippin early here. He basically ate his food at 4p and then went right to sleep. Hope Ty falls asleep soon for you.
melissa

hmmm have you tried feeding him later? It may be the full belly putting him out right after.

It feels so good to be back on the exercise program. Got my 30 min. strength in this AM and can't wait to do the strip workout again this afternoon. The damage for the holiday is 4 lbs. which I hope will come right back off. Some of it is TOM and I am holding water because my ankles are a bit swollen, so I am also back on the water today to get rid of that. Hopefully I can get back to 242 by the end of this week.

Where is everyone? Wake up people, time to get moving!

I have just 2 weeks until hubby's work Christmas party, so i want to be under 240 by then.

Theresa

I am here-LOL. They didn't have an aide to ride with josh this morning so that kind of put us off schedule since his bus was pretty late but he did pretty good about it. Logan is down for his nap and I really need to get in there and clean up the kitchen. I am gettin mad at myself because I can't seem to get back on track. Part of it is because the larder is lean and I just don't want to use my credit card to buy groceries-especially when I am still owed child support for this month. He once again has sent nothing-shock shock. I am going to have to kind of just try to do the best I can for the time being although it is hard when it is pancakes or grilled cheese sandwiches and the like. Ok I am going to get busy here now that I got the listings for ebay done.
Melissa

I'm here too Just a bit late- It has been CRAZY today
tis the season lalalalala- (no, it's not only retail that is crazy this time of year)

Had a bit of excitement this morning- I got to co sign a check for
50 THOUSAND dollars That was kinda fun...

Hubby has fixed the truck and all it needs is a transmission thingy and it'll be all ok. I panic over the cost of a part and then found out it's 16.00 - hubby had me going for a while.. there are times he teases too much.

Food is very good today i hope to keep it up. I even drank my water today!!!! I am doing good counting points and hope to get in some exercise today. at least i'd better get some exercise in or i may get whacked again Menus for the week are all made out and it seemed to make things easier for me today. Now i need to write down an exercise plan for the week-

Living room is a mess and I need to get it all picked up, finish decorating the tree ( at least try to get more done) and maybe do a load of laundry... I hate housework! I work from only 8:30 to 2:30 or 8 to 3 and then i have to come home and clean and cook etc.. something is not fair here

well off to clean i go- at least it is burning some calories !