Diane..omg! I can't believe you caught him! I feel so badly for you, but I'm also so happy that you found out now that he is cheat, selfish and has zero respect for you!
Listen, it's ok to turn to food and alcohol for a bit...but then turn to gym! Take all of your anger out there, and watch your body transform! The best revenge is to ignore his pleas to come back to him (and he will ask many times) and move on. It won't be easy, but no trust=no relationship!

Check-in: Had an awesome, fun week last week. Celebrated one of my best friend's birthday with him and his wife on Wednesday night--we went out to tea at our favorite tea house. On Friday, had a girl's night out with my bestie. We went to zumba, then to dinner at a cajun/creole restaurant, then to the movie "Side Effects."

Nothing new to report on the fitness side of things. 110.2 lbs this morning, been doing full body lifting and spin as usual. Cooked up over 3lbs of chicken yesterday and a bunch of broccoli as well. Been eating pumpkin pie spiced mashed sweet potato with almonds in the morning. Yum.

The weather is finally getting warmer. It was 15F when I walked to work this morning but it's supposed to get up to 38F and sunny today! I cannot wait to run and bike outside again. Spring can't get here any sooner.

Well, my weight keeps going up. I think I'm the only person in the history of the world that gains weight after running 5 miles, haha. I have good humor about it because now I'm on plan and I think that "click" has finally happened. This is it, folks, I'm going to do this. I can't believe my weight was up to like 149 this morning, wut??? Yeah, I managed to gain about 5 pounds in a week. Granted, I know some of it is sodium. I've been eating a LOT of sodium-ish stuff in the last few days. Not huge amounts of things, but yeah. And drinking way too much wine. I'm going to take this 1 day at a time. At the end of each day if i"ve stayed on plan, I am going to feel triumphant. I CAN do this. I've done it before, it's just that I've been so weak willed the last few years.

Today's plan - my eggs and veggies for breakfast, my big salad with protein in it for lunch plus an orange for dessert, for snack almonds, for dinner my spicy shrimp stir fry that I already made last night that should last about 3 days. This will be challenging because I have class today and tomorrow and my meal schedule is off and getting running in this week will be challenging due to weather and obligations!

@Dianne - how awful!!! Wow, I can understand why you went off track. What a horrible thing to discover. *hugs*

@MaddieBPhoto - Well, originally I give myself a little leeway on weekends because I tend to have more dinners I'm invited to (hard to stay on track in a strict way when you're eating at someone else's house, ugh, still don't know how to navigate that). Also if I don't give myself some leeway, I'm afraid I will give up in frustration the first time the scale goes up when I'm being "perfect" (and it will) and go on a big binge or something. It's like I have to give myself something to look forward to in the short term to stay on track. But I admit there is much room for improvement. I need to stop listening to my inner toddler so much. That's how I got to where I am (not happy) so I definitely DO need to change things up. I've had a rough year, and I'm hoping that the click has finally happened to change my life and body. Anyway, when I was doing this in December the trend was mostly going down, but then things got "off" the minute I got sick and then there were more dinners and social events to navigate because of the holidays and I just gave up. Whew, that was a lot of information, sorry! That is an adorable thing you're making for your daughter! I knit, but I'm not very good at it and have no time right now.

@Turbo - wow, your snow is so pretty! It's so ugly where I am, half melted and then iced over and muddy because it's half melted...

Good morning, all!

@olehcat; You're probably retaining water... I saw a 1 lb jump in the scale after a tough full body lift on Saturday. Back down to normal today. Sometimes heard exercise can cause the body to retain a lot of water after you re-hydrate. I'm not sure why, I've just learned this from experience. I wouldn't worry too much about it. Just stick to the same plan for 3-4 months and you will lose weight. Also, that spicy shrimp stir fry sounds awesome! I wish I could cook, haha.

Friggin Monday... blah.

Sorry for being so absent over the weekend, but I was pretty busy and also just didn't feel like thinking about my diet/workouts more than I had to. This program has taken over my life and I have to separate myself from it a bit if I'm going to avoid going crazy. I still have a few more days to get through before I'm even at the halfway point.

Aidan - Glad you had a fun weekend! I went to a baby shower yesterday and actually DIDN'T hate it for once. The woman we were having it for is one of my favorite people ever and so many of my girlfriends were there it was a lot of fun. Hanging out with the girls is definitely nice.

Olehcat - I'm wishing you luck sticking to your plan! I too am taking things one day at a time right now. It's definitely hard but you CAN do it. If I can do my program, you can clean up your diet. I'm sorry that you got that shock this morning but maybe facing up to the numbers is what you need.

As far as gaining weight after working out, it actually happens all the time. I stuck to my diet perfectly yesterday and did a long run and today I weighed 1.2 pounds more than I did yesterday. I know those fluctuations are frustrating as heck, but it's a NORMAL fluctuation and if you know you worked out and your calories were reasonable you know it's not a fat gain.

Dianne - First, I know that nothing I can say will make what happened to you hurt any less, but just know that we're here to read and reply should you need to feel like venting ANYTHING. Second, actually catching your BF in the act like that had to be incredibly traumatic, and I don't think ANYONE would look down on you for comforting yourself with food and alcohol. I certainly would! Be gentle with yourself right now... you don't need any self-inflicted pain on top of the pain you're already in.
It's easy to say "go workout and get super amazingly hot and show that jerk what he gave up!" but I know it's not that easy. You're going to go through a whole range of emotions and all you can do is your best and take them as they come. Working out, chatting with us or your girlfriends IRL, getting into a new hobby, treating yourself without food, etc. are all great ways to try and help yourself feel better, but sometimes they aren't as convenient as food and a drink! I get it! I went from about 120 pounds to 180 pounds after my ex and I divorced. It was sudden and even though it wasn't anything as shocking as what happened to you this weekend, it effected me more than I would have thought. I started binge eating, drinking excessively, and it just spiraled out of control.
Like my program now, Olehcat's struggles getting back on track, and everyone else here just dealing with their own things; take it a day at a time.



Oh, and I vote you still take that trip and enjoy it! Take a girlfriend and go play in the snow!

As for your question, I am just a few days shy of the halfway point of this program; so 6 weeks and 3 days to go. Or, 39 days... one at a time.

Maddie - Welcome into the chat! It moves pretty fast in here. What part of Colorado are you in? My husband lives in Colorado Springs and I am moving out there this summer... finally! We have family in Grand Junction, Boulder and Denver as well.

Turbo - I LOOOOVE fresh homemade popcorn with the right mix of seasonings, but I never have it! I don't have a popcorn popper because I know I'd hardly ever use it and I don't know how to make it on the stove. I guess I could look it up, but of the bazillion things to eat it's not one of those things high on my list of priorities.

Congrats on sticking at 139! Awesome!

I love the picture of the show, especially sitting on the fence. It looks like a Bob Ross painting! haha

Bayzee - Are you feeling better today?

TheBunneh - Thats great that you found a strategy to help keep you on track! I say if it works, go with it!

Krampus - I will use a spin bike for a few minutes at the gym, but spin classes aren't really my thing. On my own I stand the whole time, but during class you do what they tell you and I get the same thing too! It hurts my lady-junk, and I'm not really into group workouts anyway.

How did your hair turn out? I bet it looks great! Are you feeling better or did you get full-blown sick?

Thanks for all the encouraging pictures! LOL those were too cute! I have to admit, I have wanted to fall off plan so many times in the past few days (especially yesterday at the baby shower; fried chicken, mac n' cheese, mini pizza crostini (all homemade) and an array of chocolates, cakes, chips, dip, crudites, cheeses and fruits PLUS raspberry muddled mimosas) but I DIDN'T, and part of it is because I'd feel like a jackass coming in here and telling you all that I caved.
There are a lot of reasons I don't go off plan though; Fear of disappointing my coach, my own guilty feelings, my fear of not getting back on the plan if I deviate, my fear of NOT making my goal after all this hard work, and yes... you ladies.



I hope I didn't miss anyone, and I'm sorry for glossing over personals! I'm a bad Feather lately.

Big Monday hugs to Alexistrophic, Kakers, Dorian and anyone else out there today!

Krampus ~ I took an intro spinning class back when I worked at the Y and I felt like it whopped my whole body. I didn't understand the appeal myself, but some people are FANATICS. Feel like you can rock any kind of hair, so post pics when you do get it cut!

Turbo ~ vege-pate sounds delicious! What is a seashells pizza? Hurray for your return to running. The "couple run" with the bf sounds like a sweet way to get in together time, even if he is a few steps ahead of you...

Thebunneh ~ Expensive treats are a good motivation!

bayzee ~ Feel better soon! Hope that you get a chance to catch your breath with everything going on around you.

olehcat ~ Join you in the "gaining weight after running hard" club. Strange, but true. And it always freaks me out. Do you think you might be a mesomorph body type? http://www.livestrong.com/article/35...h-female-diet/ I tend to build muscle at the drop of a hat and ANY type of activity usually makes me hold water at first.

Maddie ~ Wowzas that is some snow! And that project is adorable. How old is your daughter?

Dianne ~ You just let us know that jerk's address and we'll be over there with a "present" for him. *******. And to second bayzee's comment that it's perfectly natural to turn to food at first... but then throw all of that anger right into the gym.

aidan ~ How cool that you can walk to work! Are you in a big city or do you just happen to be by your workplace?


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Had a crap weekend. A job I had been planning on turned out to be ...not right for me, so that took some adjustment. I spent most of Saturday moping, but then pulled it together and did some cleaning, which made me feel better. Sunday I got up and out and went for a run, which was also positive. I can feel myself start to slip back into negative patterns (sleeping too much/not enough, eating crap, not exercising...) and I'm hoping to pull myself out of a tailspin before too long. I feel crappy coming in here and feeling all crappy, but it's just important for me to just show up and vent, rather than having a pity party all by myself.

In to work early because I have to leave early for an appt with my tax lady. Fun fun I filed a bunch of back returns last year (from working abroad) but my accountant was crap and I never got my refund. This year I have a new accountant and the return is super simple, so I'm hoping to get it all straightened out sooner rather than later. Also hoping that she can help me figure out what happened to my refund from last year...

Looking forward to a better week!

((((joss))))) Happy Monday mornin' to ya! Hugs and hurray for staying on plan over the weekend, despite all the landmines.

Aidanqm - I'd love to try Spin sometime! Do you like it??

Ole - Glad you're ready to make some changes! That's what it takes to push you over to the losing side!

Joss - We're in Northern Colorado! We just got hit with 10 inches or so of snow :/ But we are digging out today come **** or high water because I need OUT! lol Is your hubby at the Air Force base??

Alex - She's 2 1/2! Darling baby girl with a huge personality + the terrible twos. It's a rollercoaster! LOL! And at least you are still staying accountable here. Eventually, you'll start to get sick of not having victory stories & that'll be the push to get you motivated again. It happens to all of us! Hang in there!

I'm ready to throw my scale out into the snow! Back up to 136.7 today. The only thing that is different right now is O time, but I just don't know if it's that or if my body is resisting because I'm within 4lbs of my goal weight. Ugh! It just F's with your mind every morning. My husband was getting on my case last night that I need to be a little more proud because I started this month at 141.5 & I'm down to 136...he's usually right...he may be right now...but this is irritating.

Herroooooooooooo

I feel MANIC today. Decent WI after the gym - 124.2. I started a new lifting routine minus all the supplements and still eating the way I have been. I felt like I was getting really undisciplined and needed a regimented schedule. It feels weird going lighter on some lifts but it is making me more conscious of form which isn't always good. This morning I did my first Lower Body A workout and JEEZ I'm sore already. I hate to admit that I've been calling myself "a chick who weight trains" since March 2012 yet I deadlifted for the first time today - and was too chicken to do it with a barbell so I used two 35# kettlebells. I love it. It's so satisfying to pick stuff up and put it down. Why didn't I do this a year ago?!

Eating has been EVERYWHERE, Friday night we went out and I drank a lot (for me) - two beers and a bourbon and maybe half another beer. I had the hangover from Satan all day Saturday and wasn't really functional until 8 PM - I went to the gym anyway and sat trying not to puke during rest periods between bench presses. Most of my day's food was from a turkey Reuben and cheese and peanut butter. My dad and I went to see "Beautiful Creatures" Saturday night and it was so awesome - good acting and a nice simple love story with a really cool Southern US setting.

Yesterday I got my hair cut and she took way more off the bottom than I wanted, so I'm mourning the loss of my hair and remembering THIS IS WHY I DON'T GET HAIRCUTS. I'll post a picture once my face debloats - my roommate and I went to our buddy's house for band practice and he made us two whole pizzas (his pizza is GREASY and not that good and definitely 500% saltier than pizza needs to be) so we each had a courtesy slice. My parents took me to the Outback for dinner and they got a Bloomin' Onion and I had more of that and bread than I planned on, wahhh. My BF came back from his weekend away skiing and the munchies hit harder than usual...I ended up eating a Key Lime Greek yogurt, a Key Lime coconut patty and a quesadilla - oops!

MaddieBPhoto Sorry you're dealing with scale annoyance. It's hard to stay patient with fluctuations that don't make sense when you are so close to goal! Do you have any exercise or fitness goals you are working toward? Sometimes focusing on those can make the impatience of scale watching a little easier. I'd be going crazy with all the snow you have - NY is getting less and less snow, darn global warming.

Alexis Uuuugh I'm sorry to hear your weekend was not a good one. Tax season stresses me out too - I do mine on my own and have my mom go over it with me (she used to be a tax accountant) but that is stressful in itself because she is short-fused when it comes to our different paces (I gobble everything up, she eats slowly and chews a lot, applies to a lot of things). Stress cleaning and running are very good ways to deal with hard times though - hope this week is better than your weekend was. Maybe we can both spin.

JossFit You have a steel will. Who cares what motivates people to stay on plan (vanity, health, bribery, or in your case being embarrassed to admit failure to your cool internet friends) as long as it gets done? I would have probably had a meltdown and excused myself from that baby shower crying about all the fried chicken I can't eat, LOL. You are TOTALLY not a bad Feather - I don't post on weekends either, we are more than our diet and fitness regimes! Hair is OK, too short, but it'll grow and I admit it looks a lot healthier.

olehcat You would know if you were eating thousands of extra calories every day. If you aren't used to 5 mile runs it makes sense you'd retain water. I am very sensitive to sodium bloat but not to exercise particularly, but I know that when I go on long (6+ mile) runs I retain a lot.

Aidangm Where in the US do you live? You must be in a pretty decent sized city...I'm totally jealous. I am also pacing back and forth feeling like a bird in a cage...the world of exercise is so much bigger when you can go outside!

Dianne A million gazillion bajillion hugs to you...I'm so sorry your BF is such a dickhead. Is this the same guy who called you chunky?! You're such a caring and sweet person and I know you wouldn't do anything like that to him - how DARE he. I hope she gave him gonorrhea or something. Be kind to yourself and don't add guilt over eating/drinking to the already-high pile of emotions - we are all here for you!

All I'm gonna say about snow is that the grass is greener on the other side. We all come down to your area to escape the awful cold and relentless dribble winter dumps on us.

TurboMammoth YUCK I'm glad I'm further south. Congrats on getting your weight the lowest it's been in a while and being on a roll with workouts! How was the Oscars party?

TheBunneh Woohoo for being back on track! Froyo bribery is an interesting system - I might try it with these newfangled Chobani Key Lime Crumble things - graham crackers and white chocolate chunks, ULTIMATE DESSERT

Maddie ~ Just clicked through your blog and what an adorable family you have!!! Such cutie pie kids and you+your hubby = smokin' hot couple! Inspirational!

And on the "victory story" front, I feel like everyone has them in some form or another. The thing is my victories have lately been along the lines of: "Hurray I made it to work on time!" or "Hurray, I made it to the end of the day without hitting anyone/thing!" Very much on the basic level of the Maslow hierarchy pyramid.

Krampus ~ lol - your mom sounds like a very good tax professional. I could probably do my taxes this year, but I wanted to have professional back up in light of the past three years. *nom nom nom* on that key lime greek yogurt. Deeeelishus. And girl, I bet you look great no matter what your haircut.

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So revised goal for what's left of this month: walk/run or yoga every day. Baby steps, here. Baby steps.

Dianne : OMG Dianne I am so sorry to read about all this Poor thing! I was probably some horrible freeeacking situation, going through the wedding and all... But please, don't put even more pressure on you about the weight right now. It is normal that people turn to food and alcohol in those situations.. don't beat up yourself

I'm with Joss on the Colorado thing ; why don't you go there with a friend? A little change might do you some good, just changing air sometimes helps *hugs*

To answer your question, yes I do allow some treats/cheats from time to time. They are usually all planned out, but I am still feeling a bit guilty AFTER I had them, because I know they will show up whatsoever on the scale. For the lunches, I usually have some salad or a wrap at home, I guess they turn around 400 calories!

Aidan : Reading your post remembered me I had some chicken standing in my freezer... might follow your lead and cook a bunch of it sometimes this week!

Olehcat : The 5 pounds will go away, if you ate salty stuff, it's probably all water! But I do get that it must be frustrating.

Oh and don't worry too much about my nice fluffy snow, today it was above freezing point and it's all brownish/melting too :P

Joss : I cooked the popcorn on the stove and it worked really well Next step is to get one of popcorn flavoring thing!

Sorry to hear you were feeling overwhelmed by the program/diet/everything :S Are you feeling a bit better today?

Alexis : The Seashells pizza is, well.. it's kinda a literal translation of what we call it in french LOL It's a pizza using a white sauce, and the boyfriend and I throw shrimps and scallops on it pretty tasty! Ahh jesus, tax papers .. we need to get all those things together to get this done too (ewwww)

Maddie : the thing you are crocheting to your daughter is ADORABLE!!!! I need to learn how to crochet!

krampus : Oh, I feel so bad *** when I deadlift! (I do NOT like the guys checking my butt when I bend down though :/). Beautiful Creatures looks nice, I love Jeremy Irons, he is so badass.

Oscar party was fun! I love the Oscar, princess dresses and GUYS IN SUIT. yesss :P

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Hello ladies. I did not WI this morning being at my cousin's place. My weight will probably be all over the place tomorrow... I ate a bit more than usual, but most of all I ate some chips, so HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO SALT-WATER-WEIGHT. But it was a really fun night, I got to spend time with my goddaugther and I needed a rest day/workout free day today. I'm planning to hit the gym tomorrow, I'm planning being a bit more intense on the legs.

I am deaaad tired, see you tomorrow!

way running behind this morning, so no personals yet, but I am down 2.2 pounds this morning at least, whew! I had to get up to pee like twice in the middle of the night, so that was definitely telling...

I'm still outrageously high for me, but way better than almost hitting 150!

Well, big news Feathers...

On Sunday I did another set of progress pictures, and I was really pleased with them! I'm starting to lean out, I've lost some weight (started at 137.2 and am around 125.5 now -- thats in 5.5 weeks) and I think I've even added some muscle to my shoulders and upper back. Good stuff right?

I spoke with my coach yesterday, and he didn't even mention the photos. Instead, he immediately referenced my email I sent him last week asking whether or not I could take a rest day. The conversation went a little something like this;

Him: "If you really think you NEED a rest day you can take one, but just know that it probably means that your weight will just keep staying around where it is. You've only lost like 3 pounds (Um, WTF?!) but if you're okay looking like you do now..."
Me: "Uh, okay... well I can just keep pushing through it I suppose..."
Him: "Well since it's too difficult, here's what we'll do; lets just add 5 minutes to your morning cardio (Note we're now at 65 minutes of cardio plus weights and NO rest day yet, nor any sort of refeed) but we'll make some changes to your diet."
Me: "Ok"
Him: "Lets take out the peanut butter with your afternoon shake, replace your evening shake and flax seeds with 4 egg whites and one cup green veggies, and lets bring your morning oatmeal down to 1/4 cup".
Me: "Ok"
Him: "We can talk about a rest day at some point later, but that is based on your effort and results"

Is he implying I'm not trying?!

So... a bit of a snarky jerk-face right? Well when I got off the phone with him I made the adjustments to the diet and noticed two huge things; first, he cut out just about ALL of my fats in my diet. I need those! Not having fats in my diet will make my hormones nutty, make my hair, skin and nails look like ****, make me ravenous... not good stuff. Second, my overall calories were down to 1100! I'm still 6 weeks out! How can I go another 6 weeks with NO rest days and on 1100 calories? Thats insanity.

I quit. I called him back and told him that he obviously has no concern for my health and that I'll be doing things my own way thankyouverymuch.

I wanted so badly to work with this 'amazing' trainer who gets all these fantastic results because I was hoping to learn from him. I don't even get to really communicate with him and when I do I certainly don't get a chance to learn from him.
What I HAVE learned is that I can get results just as good (if not better) eating a wider variety of foods, doing workouts I enjoy, and RESTING when I need it.

I am planning to keep the diet fairly similar but slowly reintroduce things like fruit, dairy, etc. I just ate a green apple and it was GLORIOUS!
I am also keeping all the supplements and some of the other changes I've been making, but I'll be a lot happier going back to my own routine.

Last night I made some nachos (and yes, I took a picture!), had some ice cream and a few cocktails, and today I'm taking a REST DAY! LOL
I actually feel horrible today from the sugar and the booze and from not working out, but I have a feeling tonight I'll sleep like a baby. I'm right back on a healthy diet, and keeping things fairly similar, except for the apple and caesar salad dressing instead of balsamic vinegar. Oh, and I had creamer in my coffee. Amazeballs.

I'm also going to give my body a few days to adjust before I weigh again, but I haven't decided if I'll continue to weigh daily or if I'll go back to doing it weekly. My goal is still to get to 120 pounds or so, which is only 5-6 pounds away. I'm betting I can do that in the same timeframe that this program would have.

In related and VERY EXCITING news, now that I'm not worried about travel restricting my progress, I booked a trip to see my husband! I'll be out there visiting in just over a week for about 4-5 days.


Now, I'm off to order myself some of those dang Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Quest Bars! hahaha back for personals in a few.

Drive by to say hullo!

Dipped back into the 140's the past few times I've weighed, so I'm happy about that. My lowest weight was 143 (for like a millisecond before the holidays), can't wait to drop past that. I'm going to start daily weighing again in March.

krampus That chobani thing looks delicious! I'll have to look for that next time I get groceries. I bookmarked that lifting page, looks interesting. Good luck! Sorry about your hair.

olehcat Yay for 2.2 pounds down!

Joss I only skimmed your post, but the routine that trainer had you on seems insane and way over the top. I think you did the right thing quitting.

TheBunneh - Thanks for the support! I agree, it's insane, and I know that the cardio would only continue to increase and the calories would continue to decrease. Eff that noise!

Congrats on the drop! Its always encouraging to start seeing things moving your way!

Olehcat - 2.2 pounds down over night is GREAT! Whoot whoot!! Any idea as to why you had the whoosh?

Turbo - haha, well mentally I am feeling better today, but physically I feel like I got hit by a bus. I hope to feel better tomorrow! I'll probably leave work a bit early today so that I can rest up a bit.

Aww, your Goddaughter! How fun! Is she growing like a weed yet or what? I didn't weigh today either after my chips (nachos) last night because I'm sure there is water weight like crazy today. I bet that after a couple of days I'll be right about where I was again, if not lower... there might be a whoosh after a rest day!

What are you doing for your leg workout?

Alex - Nothing at all wrong with baby steps or with revamping your plan of attack. I'm an example of that today!

Any good word about the taxes? Money money money money... MOOONAAAAYYY! (You have to sing it to yourself... you know the one.)

I'm sorry the job situation didn't work out the way you wanted it to. I know general life stuff hasn't been all that exciting for you lately. Do you want to come to Colorado and hang out with my hubby and I? We can get drunk, go for sushi, and complain about our twenty-something existences. It will be very "Gossip Girl"

**** How fun would it be to have a real life Feather's meet up?!

Krampus - Yaaaaay heavy stuff liftin! Whoot! I am SOOO excited to get into the gym tomorrow and do some deadlifts, so I'm right there with ya. I haven't done deadlifts, barbell squats or played with kettlebells in 6 weeks!! I miss MY style of workouts for sure.

I'm sorry your hair didn't turn out the way you wanted it to, but I bet it still looks great even if it's a bit shorter than you'd like. I cut off a bunch of hair in November, and I probably need a trim again, but I just love having long hair so I definitely relate.

LOL I guess we spoke too soon about the iron will huh? In all fairness I didn't like snap and go binge crazy though - I made a conscious decision to take my health back into my control and stop this program before it leaves me with jacked up hormones, a ruined metabolism, and sets me up for a multi-day binge because I've been starved and deprived. I built some amazing chicken bacon nachos for dinner last night, had a few drinks with the roommie, and had some Ben and Jerrys (I had Half Baked, which I've never had before and YUCK! I cannot do sweets like that anymore! I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like I was going to hurl. My stomach is NOT happy today.)
Anyway, I feel good about my choice and I think I can do just fine getting myself back to where I want to be.

Maddie - Well it looks like I'll be out that way next weekend! Whoo hoo! My husband is actually in the Army (10th Spec. Forces Group) so he is stationed out at Fort Carson. I LOVE that area so much and I can't hardly wait to call it home!

I agree with your husband... thats FANTASTIC progress this month! Sometimes it's helpful just to look back at where you came from. I was feeling defeated yesterday when I spoke to my coach but then I thought "You know what @sshole, I have lost like 4 pounds this month!" Thats pretty good progress for women our size, don't you think? Are you feeling any better about it today?

Dianne - I hope you're feeling alright today lovely.