So - I have almost given up posting personals - if I don't catch them quick - I get behind.
But I, too, read them all!
I have to say - you guys are way
way way too hard on yourselves. It makes me sad to see all of your struggles/challenges. Sometimes it even makes me downright angry that you talk about/to yourselves in such a derogatory manner.

But it has made me aware that I do it, too, and I am striving desperately to stop.
I believe there are a few main reasons I have failed to maintain my previous losses are:
#1 I expect different results but continue to do the same thing over and over. When I get to my 'goal weight' I still look soft and flabby. Enter weights.
#2 Not sustainable: I can’t starve myself at 1100-1200 calories a day for long – I am just setting myself up for a major binge episode and then the guilt. And I am done with feeling guilty for eating or proud for starving.
#3 I am an emotional eater. How did I not know that? I put food in my mouth to avoid saying/feeling what I should. So no more eating my words. I am reading a great book that is showing me to recognize my relationship with food and get right with it.
Small confession: Yesterday was my one month mark and I am doing so well I didn't want to post and sound like I was 'bragging' or inadvertently make someone else feel down because they were struggling.
I wanted to share my success in a 'you can do it, too' attitude.
So - I have stayed on plan for one month and lost 14.4lbs scale weight. I lost fat without loss of lean muscle so I can maintain my metabolism. I eat about 1500 calories a day (never go below my BMR), with protein grams being equal to my desired body weight. Carbs are about equal in grams to protein and fiber is upwards of 30g. Fats are the smallest portion at roughly 35g. And- I still keep my sodium under 1500mg. Eventually - I will
add calories (more protein) up to well over 2000 to build even more muscle. I do the NROLS 3x a week and occasionally very light cardio/walk on off days – just to get blood flow through the muscles.
I weigh and log all my foods (and my DH's) in mynetdiary program. Is it easy? Nope, but it's easier than it was 30 days ago. Is it fun? Sometimes, but not always. But it is easier and a heck of a lot more fun than being fat. Even better - I am NEVER hungry. Seriously. Sometimes I feel like I can't possibly eat anymore and I have to
make myself have a snack before bed. And - best of all - this is sustainable. It is something I can continue to do because I'm not starving or punishing myself.
If you are hungry - truly tummy-growling hungry - then your body is telling you something. If you don't feed your body then over time - it will adapt and ramp down to preserve life - that's what it's supposed to do. Your metabolism gets nervous that you are going to stop giving it energy so it sends you a 'polite' little hunger pain to let you know that if you don't eat - it will act. It's like an early detection symptom. "Hey! Feed me - or I'll be forced to save you and operate on less fuel to keep you going." So you ignore the warnings and over time your metabolism becomes more efficient and eventually you have to exercise more and more just to maintain/increase the weight loss or cut food intake down (the dreaded plateau?). That just tells your metabolism - ACK - slow down – become even more efficient!
If anyone thinks they can't do it - look at bodybuilding sites with before/after pics of 40's ladies who lift weights. I expected them to be all bulging and such. Nope - more like the fitness models you see in magazines. Inspiring!