OMG kel. how did you eat all that?

its not really a lot of food
it is just a lot of bad choices
if i had had a proper breakfast i would not had picked all through the "morning" when i wasnt snoozing or ebay ing
but a block of choc, a couple of cookies and some rice and chicken and about 5 wedges is not a lot of food - it is just crap (oh and i had almost forgotten about the pizza for dinner)

tomorrow -
brekky will be cereal and lite milk and a juice
lunch probably a kebab or sushi
water all around town
dinner - spag bol

lets see how we go

picking is not good huh .its very easy to loose track of what your at for the day but hey im glad you getting ready to get going again.. tommorrow will be a better day im sure .. but hey kel at least your day wasn't as bad a julias weekend lol ..planning looke like your best friend.. plan it and try to stick to it..

and ani washer.. omg id be so so mad about that..

Kel, I second Amy's suggestion that you try to write down everything that you eat. It's something I've been doing for months now and honestly, it does stop me from bingeing quite often.

Yesterday was a great day for me. I stuck within my points allowance and had a great workout at the gym.

Unfortunately I'm getting shin splints so will have to lay off the running for a bit which is annoying so rather than go to the gym today I got up early and went for a 50 minute walk.

Goal for today: stick to my points.

okey pokey
today:
cereal (fruity bix i think) with slim milk (aka white water)
and a piece of whole grain toast and vegemite and butter and some tropical juice
then a kebab (could be a good choice but i always have tahini sauce to make the hot chilli sauce and the jalepenos not so over the top and i have cheese and pineapple most times as well - like today) and a energy drink I NEVER HAVE THESE it was called mother and was nothing exciting so i wont bother doing that again
pepsi max on the way to the doctor (went and talked to awesome doctor about meltdown i had in town today apparently i got upset at the lady at the bookshop enough to be asked to leave) (sigh)
then didnt get home for ages and then benji got home and decided he wanted pizza again coz that is what was on his meal plan for today as we were not meant to have it last night, he never REALLY wants anything so i encouraged it but tomorrow DEFINATELY spag bol
and i have had a handful of lollies tonight
and a glass of water

but am planning to go to the gym either friday or monday morning
and planning to walk the dogs in the morning

julia didnt you freeze your arse off on your walk this morning! you go girl!!!!!!

oh and i maybe wont weigh myself in the morning
i wont be able to cope if i am over 90 and i have done NOTHING to encourage maintenance this week......
but maybe i will
will see how i am feeling in the morning....

Weighed in yesterday - still 76.5kg, and for some reason I feel really annoyed with myself about that. In the last six weeks I have dropped less than a kilo and I'm frustrated because I don't feel like I have my head in the right space for losing weight.

I know I can put a positive spin on it and pat myself on the back for being able to maintain, and not put it back on. But I really want to lose weight, and I just feel like I'm treading water.

What am I doing wrong? This is what I'm aware of:

1. I'm not drinking enough water.

2. I'm eating too much - it isn't that I'm bingeing, I'm just eating a little too much every day.

3. I've lost sight of my goals.

4. I don't do any structured exercise because my job is physically demanding, and I have convinced myself that I don't need to do anything extra. It's probably true - but exercise used to give me a focus and remind me of what I was working towards.

5. There is part of me that seems to think I have already done enough. I haven't explained that very well, because that's not entirely true - but when you balance things out I am less motivated to be disciplined now, and I struggle with the 'small choices'.

I really need to work through this, because I am NOT willing to stop now. I'm still a long way from reaching my ultimate goal, and would be very disappointed with myself if I quit now!

Maybe I need to switch the scale back to pounds for a couple of months. Maybe the thought of reaching 75kg is more scary to me than I realise.

I just don't know!

I have to say that some of these weight loss websites are a joke. I was surfing today and came across one that calculates 'normal' body weight. I put all my height/weight/age stats into their calculator, and they came back with the amazing info that I should weigh between 49-58kg to be healthy.

49 kilos? I'd be a bloody STICK!

I emailed them and told them my biceps are probably 49kgs (yes, it's a lie ), and that they are promoting unhealthy, impossible and overwhelmingly stupid advice, and that they were making themselves look like top-shelf d!ckheads.

Yes, I'm still the quiet, shy, retiring woman I've always been

haha Ani you made me laugh at the shy retiring type

My scales are broken. Dunno what happened to them. One day they worked fine, the next I find the battery cover on the floor and when I replaced it they didn't work. And yes I did make sure batteries were in there and the correct way. Nothing zippo zilch.

I am back to mechanical things but I am not touching them for a couple of weeks. Some medication the Dr put me on this week may cause weight gain and I am not to impressed about that.

Everyone else seems to be plodding along ok (with a few hiccups and woes)and also seem to be real chatterboxes lately. good to see.

Cheers
Vonni

I had a fabulous day.. i had a bit of a cold and didnt get a good workout till today.. i got up early and did 30 minutes on the elliptical .. i vaccumed the whole house today (80 minutes i have hard floors and leather couch so fairly quick) and then i got back on the elliptical tonight did 30 minutes again then did 20 minutes weights and 10 on the mini tramp.. i am positivly buzzing.. i feel fantastic.. woohoo.. what a great day

Ani, you're very good at knowing your weaknesses and setting goals to overcome them and I for one am SURE that you'll achieve whatever goals you set your mind to

I had a duvet day yesterday. Slept in until lunchtime then watched rubbish on tv during the afternoon. In the evening I went to a friend's for dinner as it was her 30th birthday celebration. Diet not good and no gym but hey, that's life and I'm back on track today.

Goals for today: 1)stick to my points 2)do weights and at least 20 minutes cardio.

Looking forward to spending this weekend up in Wellington with my sister and her mob. As of this morning, my nephew is able to roll over so that's exciting!

Also, I'm booked in for another new tattoo on Friday next week so am excited about that. It's some lyrics from the song Little Wing by Jimi Hendrix. It's a song that's always reminded me of my sister so it's really quite special.

Did you guys watch the Jamie oliver special on ten last night eat to save your life?

The programme was very confronting. i had no ideas that would be chopping up bits of poeple to show the affects and at times it left me quite queesy but still very interesting..
there amount seems higher then what we aim for fat salt ect.. but all in all.. the recomendations were far better then the diets the group on it were on .. and small steps i suppose..
The mri was an eye opener for me .. i like always presumed skinny poeple were healthy even with apoor diet . i had decided there body must just work better then ours so they can process crap better but its not the case .. The skinny man with the poor diets had more fat in and around his organs then the obese man that lead an active life and played rugby.. they both had poor diets .. the rugby player was a bad Vegaterain ( as Jamie put it) and the only real difference was one exercised one didnt . the skinny guy was worse off the the obese one . since the obese guy had alot of good muscle and only carried fat under the skin.. the skinny guy had it in his liver and around everything else too .. and he was barely even 20 year old .
It was great and it made me feel great .. my diet is 90% home cooked and prepared so it makes me feel like im doing everything right .. i eat loads of fruit and veg and lean protien and a small amount of wholegrain.. and im feeling fantastic.. the show has hit home to me the impotance of exercise and though i do plenty now.. i was gonna skip the early one this morning since i did so much yesterday.. but watched the show got up and did my 30 minutes HIIT again.. im on a roll oh and though its not my weigh in day i had a peak on the scale.. i weighed last week on saturday mroning ( but put it on friday so the check in thing would be happy and i could keep my graph .. lol.. and i was 121.7 then .. i have lost 700g since then and im 121.. straight.. lol
.. ill weigh on saturday again........... i am really hoping next week to be below 120............. come on 119.. i will love to meet you.. i met your friend 118 an few year ago but he didnt stay for long and i got back together with 125 . and then 125 intorduced me to 132.. . so im hoping me and 118 can sort out our differences and he will introduce me to his other friend 117...


Julia i cant believe he is already rolling over he only little . lol.. that was fast ..
Vonni broken scales.. that mysteriosly have a broken battery back.. hmm gee i wonder if there were children involved in thier demise??? hmmmm gee .. mmmm .. lol... wonder how long it will be till one of them confess...

Ani wasnt your original goal 75?? i mean you have a very labour intesive job ad all .. have you thought about get a body fat measured?? you might be at the weight you need to be.. i would say you have alot of muscle doing what you do . maybe your not losing becuase your body doesnt need to? i dont agree for as second your should be that skinny 49-58.. calories king says i should be between 56 and 71.. to be in my healthy range.. but you would have a few kilos of muscle im sure .. so.. 75 sounds very reasonable to me.. and we are almost th same hieght so.. it cant be too wrong can it?

Wow Amy I missed that show. I did see the shorts once and thought wow that'd be good, but neglected to find out when it was on. Is there another one showing? Or was it a one off special program?

Yes I think the 2yr old had something to do with the scales, but the other kids never saw a thing. Hmmm. They were all playing together at the time. Oh well, I have given scales a rest. They are NOT my friend at the moment. I will just see how my clothes go, and maybe then jump on if they feel looser.

My ideal weigh for height should be 46 - 58kg. I am aiming eventually for somewhere in the middle. Which means I have about 20kg to go. Oh boy it looks like a long hard road ahead. How depressing. Maybe I can set a goal for a year? God I hate this sometimes.

The Dr was right, my appetite has increased with the tablets, but I am making ok choices when I want something. I've been eating fruit and yoghurt and small meals. And if I ignore my body saying feed me, I just get nauseous. So I gotta eat. Oh, and since starting them one good thing is I get reflux and heartburn now if I eat crisps. Whoohoo. so thats one thing I know I will be laying off.

Vonni

hey if you like since you missed it .. i actually taped in do if you have a vcr i can make you a cop and send it to you.. .. just send me a pm with your postage details.. and i can dot it easily we ahev 2 vcrs so i can just tape from one tho the other .. if your interested.. that goes for the rest of your guys too if you want a copy send me a pm.. and ill copy and send

Amy I do have a fair bit of muscle, but I also have more fat around my tummy and thighs than I am happy to live with. I really think that 5kg will make a decent difference to me, and I definitely take your point about body fat.

I'm going to keep chipping away until I get to around 70kg, and I just don't care how long it takes - it's just one of the goals I have for my health, and I understand that a lot better these days. Even though I get frustrated, I am surprised by how much muscle I have built in less than four months.

AND

Amy we are all cheering for you to get to 119 .

Hey Vonni - ONE kilo at a time matey, and I don't know that you need to lose another 20kg. That seems vaguely ridiculous to me.

Anyway, best get off the computer. We've got a massive thunderstorm that's coming in, and it's only about 30km away.