Good morning! I love you guys, have missed you.
re crusing, we did royal carrib, seemed good for all, both kids and adults. I would love to go on a cruise again. Ahhh
re mindset - very tough one saef, i also fully understand how you describe beating hunger or waging war with it. and then there's that whole mindfulness thing...

i have been seeing a therapist on and off, as work and life permits. she said something along the lines of awareness and mindfulness are helpful, but not necessarily answers to an issue... if one doesnt change behavior as a result of being aware of mindful... of course, that's the hard part.

im doing ok right now, have put on weight, started binging right after the inauguration, couldn't stop. My kids are old enough to understand quite a bit, so they saw me hand to mouth nonstop, including fried foods, and chocolate and ice cream. My binge added 7 pounds to the scale, i am down 3 of the extras.

xo to all, happy to catch up, at least a little

Welcome back Kitty Cat. Glad you're doing (mostly) well.

Allison-- on the meals-- can you try for a week? Wouldn't hurt if so. On the Freshly meals, did you like them as much as Blue Apron? I did one-- totally drawing a blank on the name right now-- and I liked it but the calories were too high for me.

Dh comes home tomorrow. I'll be curious to see if Charlotte hides from him as well, or just me. I'm hoping we have a peaceful weekend with her. Tentative plans are euthanasia on Monday.

Michele~I'm pretty sure the diabetic diet would allow me to cancel at any time. I may try it. I found that Blue Apron was too high in calories most of the time (often over 800 calories per meal) AND the portions were too big, yet not really big enough to split and take some for the following day's lunch. Freshly are almost perfect in size. I don't think I've seen any over 650 calories and some are below 500. Their chicken items, for the most part, are terrific--very moist for a pre-cooked item (all you do is reheat it). The beef are meh IMO. Seafood quite good. They have several vegetarian items and they are good. I've decided to stay away from the pastas and risottos because they aren't good for diabetes (but they are good).

So sorry about Charlotte. But as a pet owner we have to face this more often than not. Gosh, I now have SIX to take care of. Thankfully most are still quite young but all the cats are close in age. When it's their time, I'll be faced with several at similar times. I don't want to think about it.

KC - hey there! Good to see you. I've also been overeating, self comforting I guess, since the election.

Michele - I'm sorry about Charlotte.

Alison - It is worth a try, especially if you can cancel it.

Birchie - I've seen the term self-care for the last couple of years. I see it as doing things to take care of yourself, with what critical need you have at the moment. Not self indulgence, so much. It was first used to me when I was beating up on myself for something, and the person told me to practice some self care and be kind to myself. Not sure that makes it any more clear though, as I read it.

Michelle So sorry about Charlotte.

Dagmar

Saturday morning at 154.5. My goal is to do one thing that is slightly out of my Saturday routine today, and that thing ought to be something enjoyable, not just a task or errand.

KittyCat, I'm glad to see you & hear your voice again, though sadly, what always brings people back is binges and weight regain. Then again some of us stay here and resume bingeing and regaining. I've heard a lot of stories of weight gain since the election.

Michelle, I'm so sorry. This is an awful decision to make, but I know you are choosing it wisely and compassionately because of your love for your animals.

Sunday morning, up to 155.1.

Up late, rainy-looking, and my neighbor's calling hours to attend. Not much else to say.

Hi all,

Hi to KittyCat! Thank you for sharing your therapist's insight. And good work on getting some of the Orange Menace-induced extra weight off.

I'm fluctuating wildly between not caring at all what I weigh or look like, and being really hard on myself. For a while, I thought I had reached a "permanent" happy place where my weight was managed, I had no urges to overeat, and I was able to turn my focus entirely toward work etc. Too good to last...

I signed up for a grueling 50K race to kick myself out of hating my body and back toward appreciating what it can (or can't) do.

Quick post to say to KC! Always good to see you here.

Lovely weather here today, almost like summer. I've been in the garden for most of the day - always a good day when that happens.

Glorious weather continues. That means slightly fewer clothes. Have just looked at the rear view in the mirror and it's really not looking good at all. I'd planned to be in a different place, clothes-wise, before we got to this point with the weather.

I have a nasty feeling I've gone right off piste. Am just off to collect something from an ancient ex. Think I'd better change my clothes as I don't like feeling this bad.

Monday morning: Fog, rain, crawling traffic, and so a 70-minute drive into Connecticut.

Scale at 156.3, and a great strength session -- even though I felt so tired during my initial warmup, I thought my upper body might fall asleep on the recumbent bike even as my lower body pushed hard on those pedals at high resistance and sweat from the humidity ran down my face.

I know someone in my department is getting laid off today for performance issues. And I went to the funeral home yesterday for my neighbor's calling hours. I am not in a great mood.

I'm watching the WH press briefing currently. I will say, I have been much more politically aware in the last four months than I have been most of my life. Argh.

I got up and exercised this morning. First time since 2/8. I'm already sore, but I do have more energy. Now to do it again tomorrow.

Way to go, Shannon!

Shannon

Dagmar

That's great, Shannon!
One day at a time!