Anagram one step at a time. You have just had a big adjustment in your life. Little changes for yourself will ease you into feeling better soon. Sometimes people don't adjust well if they take too much on at once. Maybe going to the wedding wouldn't be a bad thing. Your hubby wouldn't want you to stand idle. Changing somethings might be a good ideas but do it slowly one room at a time. Just ideas hope it helps a little.
As far as myself I have had that cough flu virus 1 1/2 weeks. Not fun but its on a mend. I have lost 2.5lbs since I started watching my intake more. But haven't gotten into the exercise as I was too sick.

I figured that my hold on my 1 diet soda a day (which sometimes I do not have at all) is not my problem. I have the 'eat and forget' syndrom. I stuff something random in (like say a cream cheese danish) and then forget all about it. I MUST STOP THIS BEHAVIOR.

So I've bought myself some yummy and healthy foods this week. I vow to eat a good well but healthfully (is that a word? )

I'm afraid we are now broke though. (Don't you hate that???) I'm still getting used to being paid twice a month now. We changed all of our bills to be once a month before (since that's when I got paid with my old company) and now we have to change them again! Plus I have to figure out what's a good time to pay what. We get paid on weird dates too. The 7th and the 22nd. Who the heck gets paid on those days? So I miscalculated how and when the bills were due this past month. Oh well, we all have those days

Hope you're feeling better soon, Firefly. The 2.5 sounds great - I braved the scale today and found I was UP about that much. Go figure. I'm feeling like I'm down and I'm up. I'm telling myself it's a temporary gain (like from eating out yesterday - always more salt in restaurant food than I usually eat).

Nope, no big changes. Promised my kids they don't need to worry about that. Every little thing in my life has changed and I'm having all I can do to make all those adjustments. But despite all the grief and the big void, I'm feeling happy too. More for the good life we've had, I guess, and for the good I know there still will be to come.

Considered going to the early pool session this morning but fog so thick I decided to go to usual time. Safer.

I agree that one diet soda a day can be a good reward, Frogger. As soon as i can get hold of some of my Tab again, I'll be back to that. Over the long haul, that's not nearly as much a "vice" as a lot of other things I can get in to when I'm feeling deprived.

Aren't our memories marvelous? Mine gets pretty selective too.

Popping in to say "Hi" I survived the meetings and trip last week. It was a little on the brutal side, though. 7:30 A.M. meetings, full-day presentations, turmoil, etc. Almost missed my connection in Halifax because my earlier flight was late leaving but managed to convince the agent to let me board, although I could clearly see she didn't want to.

I was exhausted after the trip -- classic time to get sick, after all the stress and exposure to unfamiliar bugs and etc. But I took my ginseng and tried to get some extra rest and I feel pretty much healthy today. Feeling somewhat reinvigorated, regime-wise. Thinking, still, of going to a weight-loss consultant.

Anagram, I'm so glad you're feeling the sweetness in the bittersweet! You never know, you might be happy to go to the wedding by March. Sounds like you had a nice lunch w/princesses. Reminds me, must call princeling...

Frogger, know what you mean about the memory thing -- my problem, often, is forgetting how tubby I am.

Firefly (do you mind if I call you that? I can remember how to spell it ), congrats on the 2.5 Good for you! Hope you make a fast recovery from cold/flu!

Love to Queenlies all, but I can't see the previous page and in any case should be working (of course! ). Let's make this a good one!

Welcome home, Wood Nymph!!!! Glad you're feeling reinvigorated for the eternal challenge.

Can I do it? Can I do it? Finally have a good diet day? I worked out in the pool today and so far am somewhat under 1300 calories for the day. That allows me at least 200 for an evening snack. The key is can I stop at 200 or thereabouts. Not enough water yet but small steps, small steps. Don't think I can be this "good" every day but just to do it for one day is a major accomplishment on my stroll after the wagon.

Gearing up for a good February. (I hope.)

Lovely weather today - almost 60 degrees. Unheard of. I think we're heading for one of the warmest Januarys on record. I'll take every minute of it.

I did it! I did it! Of course, I went to bed VERY early.

Hello all....

Scale showed increase for me too....
More proof that journaling lets you know that even too much on program foods can be problematic.....
SO....

*****

Thought of the day:

"Today is the day!"


Question of the day:

"Which song would you choose as your theme song?"

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And I really want TODAY to be the day..... its very hard to describe how it feels to be without that losing motivation when I was on the losing side......
Instead, it only seems like I have that Pacman motivation of eating everything in sight.... guess the Pacman reference is only good if you're of certain age group..... or did they release Pacman again????

Anyway....
I am putting on the Royal Losing Crown and figure this too, is all part of the process......

WoodNymph.... How clever you are to recognize the pattern and get some r &r in to avoid the usual sickness.....

Anagram.... You are my inspiration... Thanks for being so honest... I can appreciate why you are feeling so many emotions....Both of you endured a long, grueling battle.....in true Royal style... you're strength is reminding me that "Love does make you strong"

Empress.....Please send the royal trainers, cooks, scribes etc..... Q Kaylets is ready to START AGAIN....

Ceara.... How goes it?

Eydie??? Shoveling fog at the Homestead?

Firefly? How goes it your way too?

Aria?

Frogger
Wsw>
Who am I forgetting?

Please don't think I am forgetting on purpose......

TODAY IS THE DAY! FRESH START CARDS FOR ALL!!

NO GUILT!

Sorry I was away: computer problems!

Anagram ~ Great job!
I know what you mean when you say you don't feel like being "reminded" of your loss. Not that it compares, but I went through something like that when I got divorced...a long time ago.
I even refused to talk about it. I did talk about it sometimes, but only when I wanted to. Hope that helps.

Kaylets ~ It is nice to see I was missed, lol!

Very much the same idea, Aria. I'm sure there were people you felt comfortable talking to but others that you just didn't know where to start or maybe just didn't figure they needed to "know all" no matter how kindly they may have meant the questioning. I'm getting a little better about braving the outside world because I'm coming up with gentle ways to be more in control of situations.

Doing ok foodwise again today - if I go to bed early enough again. I'm at about 1400 calories so have a little wiggle room left. Not enough water again and not enough exercise either. Lost those pesky extra pounds that had popped up Monday morning - I'm sure it's the salt in restaurant food.

Whoa, wagon, wait up!!!! Kaylets has issued Fresh Start cards and I really want to board. I'm in need of a new theme song. It's always been "All The Way" but I'll be coming up with something a little more quirky for the next phase of my Royal Romp.

Looks like it's soon time for a Rousing Royal Roundup. Too many Queens be hiding out, fighting the bugs, the blues or the busys. Come out, come out, wherever you are. You are missed!!

Hello all!

Anagram-- I love that! Fighting the busy's, the bugs or the blues.....
How many times do I use one of those excuses???
And for me, too often I use that first one as an excuse instead of
"how can I better manage my time ?"

We have interesting weather again this am..... some fog... some not... some rain....
I need to pack lunches and get out the door....

Here we go!!!

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Thought of the day :
"The first step makes us 'On our way!' "

Question of the day :
"What will the title of your biography be?"
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Take care all!

Hello everyone so nice to see so many folks checking in. Sounds like we are all geared up to make some positive changes in our lifes. So lets go queenies! I feel much better though my voice is still off sound like a frog! No offense Frogger! At any rate I my attempt the gym this afternoon after work. I haven't done the scale this week but was a bit naughty once my taste buds returned. The first day it was like I did good til coming home from work. Then it was like I ate healthy but extras. I have been knitting and reading in the evening so less munching when I do those things. So as long as I am busy it goes okay not munching. Gotta stay on track or the couple lbs. will come looking to reatch to my body! Lord only knows I don't want that. Yesterdays down fall was ordering chinese even though I was careful of what I ordered. The sodium levels are high I think etc..... I have a healthy lunch planned and a grilled burger for dinner without bread kind open faced. Preplanning always has helped me. For those of you who need to increase your water try to add some fresh lemon slices or put your bottled water in the freezer for a bit. If I do these things I tend to drink more good luck!
Anagram sounds like your going forward and thats great. Memories you have will be with you forever. Continue that exercising you it will help you feel better all the way around mentally and physically.

Have the drags today big time. Sleep messed up again last night but took a nap this afternoon. Not doing bad on food SO FAR. Just did some light stretching exercises and feel better for that. Feel like I need a diversion from the things I've been doing the past few weeks. Supposed to lunch w/friend tomorrow - maybe that'll do it - and maybe start me on my next, slightly more social phase.

Starting to look gloomy outside w/grayish/wet weather for the next five days or so. And then that candy-centric holiday coming up---might be a good time for me to scale-hop more than usual to keep me motivated. Today I was at 8 lbs up from my lowest and I think I'll use that as my new "starting" point. I'm still about 45 pounds down from my original start but need to gear up for a new round and not rest on my old laurels. i think I've been doing that for quite a while now. Up, then down, up, down. With the exception of having reached onederland (briefly) this past summer and almost through no effort (save good choices, maybe) of my own.

Well, now's the time.....dare I think I'll be in onederland by Springtime?

Hello all!

FRESH STARTCARDS! Get while they're hot!
FRESH START CARDS!!!

Snack day leftovers got to me y esterday.... so I wound up w/ cookies for the majority of my food intake.... and now wonder if that itching I felt last night is related to food coloring or what have you ( Colored for VDAY )....

hmmmm.....

BUT..... when I turn my FRESH START CARD over it reads "NO GUILT" so I just am going to continue on this morning with a FRESH START!!!!

This morning's thought got all the juices flowing for a speech....

Might even be a great "hand out".....

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Thought of the day :

"A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it bearing within him the image of a cathedral."
Antoine de Saint-Exupery


Question of the day :

"Do you remember pet rocks? Did you own one?"

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Here's to a great day all.....

and Anagram, Onewonderland awaits... if not the first of spring, you know mid spring will follow!


KETTLE IS ON!