Geez, Froufie, what a horrible day. I'm sitting here with big old tears popping out of my eyes. How could anyone who once loved so much be so cold and cruel now? He has issues and he is the one who has changed. So sad. Don't let this be about you (except for how it is affecting you). I hope that everything works out for your family.

I agree with everyone here. To me, you seem like a wonderful person that anyone would want to have as a friend. Please, let us know how we can support you.

Thanks so much to all for helping to "lift" me up (glad you've all been exercising cuz there sure is a LOT to lift!).

I am so happy that I can come here and vent, cuz this is not something I can share with many of those around me! I am still feeling a bit sad today, and sorry for myself - which is somewhat atypical I know, but I guess it's true that "love is blind"....and maybe I did not make the best choice many years ago?? But I feel I can't deny my marriage and the love that created my darling youngest child who is the light of our lives - to deny our love and marriage would mean he wouldn't be here and that is SO WRONG! I am so glad I have him! (and he is one of the main reasons I want to save this marriage as I know the trauma this would cause!).

My life just feels rotten right now - between the pain in my hip and legs to my 13 yr old who is quite the challenge to my 18 yr old who is on the edge of adulthood, but still has a long way to go, to my 6 yr old who can be trying at times - to my dh who is probably as depressed as I am. I know he feels he can't do anything right - I am always so critical of him. But I guess I just can't help it - without love to hold us together, it is hard to be "loving and caring", especially when your feelings have been hurt.

Well enuf about me.....Linda and Kathy - hang in there, remember those last 10 lbs have been there the longest - they are so comfortable they don't want to leave - do something wild and crazy to make them pack up and head out of town....for good!

Hope Zuki is home and recuperating well.

Angela - hope you and the kiddies are on the mend.

Good luck Kally - hang in there - just stick to it and see how it goes!

I ended my day last night with a bowl of mac & cheese - so yummy. Took another tylenol w/codeine before bed (around 9:30 pm) and about 1 hr later ended up w/severe stomach pains again. Could not go to bed, went to the kitchen where dd had just cooked up a fresh batch of kraft dinner - so I indulged....sure made the pains go away.

It is 11 am now and I have not eaten anything and I am almost afraid to take a pain pill (even tho I hurt) cuz of what it will do to my tummy. I guess I was not eating enuf??? but of course I don't want to eat too much as I am barely moving and I know I can't burn off the calories!!!!

Have to still call physiotherapy place to set up appt!

Thanks again to everyone for their support and warm vibes. I truly appreciate it!

Froufie

Frouf - you hang in there! Here's a big hug from me. I know what it's like to have a dh who isn't much help. My kids take turns sleeping through the night and in 10 yrs. he has never gotten up in the middle of the night; barely ever changed a diaper; doesn't go to all my dd's activities; although I know he will go to ds's when he has some; used to help me clean and do laundry etc., but since I'm not working I think he thinks I sit home all day and twiddle my thumbs., so he doesn't help around the house,
basically doesn't do anything unless he wants to do it.( although, when I was working, I still did it all, including pick up and drop off from daycare and still come home and make dinner) His brothers wife and I always complain that they are the same; all they think about is "me myself and I" He told me that when I wanted a second child, that he would be no more help than he was with the first one, and he isn't. His dad never did this stuff and he won't either. So.............. here I am feeling a lot like a single parent, sometimes all he is good for is a paycheck and sex I think I have pretty much gotten used to this way of life and do hope that as the kids get older and I go back to work that he will get more involved. It's funny how when I send the kids to grandma's for the weekend, it's just like before kids. I guess we should schedule a date night once a month just to keep connected.

Sorry to ramble on; at least DH has agreed to therapy and I'm sure the therapist will see through him and be able to help you guys.

Lisa

First and foremost..... Froufie....glad to hear we were able lift you, even if it was just a little. You are obviously 'special' here, so please know that in your heart. Even as hurt as you are, you say such kind things....You're something!! God Bless you.
Thanks for the words of encouragment. Love your analagy (sp?) of having the lbs pack up and leave. See there you go again, even in your time of hurt and pain your wittiness shines....
Deborah, thanks...and as we 'speak' I have stuck to the plan...whoohoo that truely is a sticker for me!! A great feat to say the least. 5:00 PM and still holding strong. Got the coffee ready for when I got in and I am now drinking it...instead of picking on crap Although I must be honest the words "the **** with this" came over me, but I did not faulter. Big success for me of late!!
So thank you for the good wishes. I have dinner planned too. WW pasta with Chicken broth and peas and carrots - that is already written down. I might add some cut cup chicken for some protein. And for snack.. cause God KNOWS I have to have my 'beloved' snack..... a WW smoothie or I may FINALLY try Vickie's suggestion with the Frozen mixed fruit and the rest of my milk.
If I do this - it will be my FIRST ALL Core day in weeks and weeks.
I'll let you all know.
Kat- 1,150 is for ONLY 20 points now, so don't go getting . EAT the 1400. I was told that one point is usually around 50 calories or so.
I have such a yearning for MY new favorite Cous Cous, but I WILL not do it, Vickie, I promise Can you imagine Cous Cous is a Red Light food for me. I NEVER ate Cous Cous before in my life before Core....Go figure whodda thunk!! As Froufie would say "STEP AWAY FROM THE COUS COUS!!!" I can hear her now
Kally - good luck to you. I know exactly how you feel. Be strong and learn from my mistakes...don't let yourself get TOO hungry. Hang in there. Eat when your body wants to eat. At least eat that breakfast, eating breakfast gets your metabolism going so make sure you have that first thing. I have learned all of this the hard way. So hang in there.
Angela I hope you and the little ones are Ok by now. The weather doesn't help, that's for sure. Seems one person in the house gets sick, we all do.
Hope all is well. By the way your stats are great!! You're doing sooo well.
Frannie-hope things with you are ok. By the way are you still journalling??
Vickie, hope you are Ok too our little I love that about you. You seem like that same sort of person you said about Froufie.....a person that anyone would want to have a 'friend' Each of you are SO supportive to those of us in WW trouble. God Bless you both. The magic you said you wish you all had is - JUST being here at this board for me to lean on. Thanks!!
Kat-- how did you day go....as you may have read, I have been good all day, and feel I will finish the day successful.
Lisa- you are ABSOULUTLEY right, if I set my goal too high and dont' make it I get discouraged and eat too. Great Point (no pun intended) I will look for 1 lb, which I think IF I am good I can accomplish. I'll let you know.
To everyone else, hope all is well....and a BIG thank you for being the best support group out here.....Lin

According to Fitday, my total is 1258. I've had everything except for the baked potato, and it's cooking now. I can add another glass of milk, or maybe some more strawberries. I had my salad just now but instead of making the deviled egg earlier, I sliced the boiled egg on my salad and had lettuce, egg, chicken strips, and my dressing. I used the Light Done Right dressing to add a few extra calories.

My first "good" day in a very long while. It's not all Core, but I'm well within the calorie range I want to stay in, with no coke -- no beer -- no sweets -- and am now on bottle of water #6. Please don't boot me out of here now that I'm not Core; you're my friends!

Kat- good going today. Me too!! How in the heck do you figure out all the calories for everything. I tried fitday a few weeks ago and got totally confused....but then again it wouldn't take much. You just need to put in what you ate, and it figures it out, right?? I tried the skim milk part and it calculated some outragoues amount, so I said forget that. More than what it really is according to the container....
Boot you out of here.....that won't be happening....I had been the worse offender of Core. Core then points,then God knows what, and look how everyone here just welcomes you back, like you were never gone. Anyway you know that won't be happening. As for me I am trying, trying, trying to stay on the Core-ous Line (my new name for what I am doing :-) for my personal challenge. I'd love 5 lbs OFF by Easter but Lisa made sense when she advised me not to make my goal so big. It's true that I do that and when I don't meet it I get very discouraged and I get in my "I'll show that ~!@#!~@## scale a thing or two....and eat!!! Gee guess who comes out the winner.....not me!!!
So I am hoping for 2 maybe 3 lbs. As much as that hurts to say such a small amount, I think it's more do-able.
It's 7:30 and I have successully stayed ON program ALL day.....whoo hoooo
I will be having my 'beloved' snack in a bit....during the second go round of Law and Order...8'ish. It's either the smoothie (Vickie Style) or FF yogurt with some SF FF instant pudding. I was going to do a WW smoothie, but changed my mind.
I have my breakfast and lunch ready for tomorrow and already know what I will be having for dinner. I must journal though, I am one of those who NEEDS to SEE what I have had.
I hope everyone is well out there, staying warm where the weather isn't.
Had a hectic day at work today, no surprise there so I will sign off. I didn't have any luck with the Chat last week so I won't try again. Maybe some one can direct me how to exactly do what is needed. Till tomorrow have a great evenng every one!!
Lin

Kathy and Linda, we love you no matter what program you are doing. I'll be with Core until I get every drop of this 150 pounds off. Although today I was a bit bored with it. Gotta go make some phone calls. I hope to be off before the chat. I'm VERY tired it has been a long day.

Congratulations to you both. Kathy, especially to you. I know how hard it is for you to forego the coke and the beer. Can you do it for a whole week? How bout two days? I'm convinced that if you just gave up those two things for a week you'd see a big result. What do you think?

Linda - you almost had it right!...It's actually 'BACK AWAY FROM THE COUSCOUS"...and you need to add some waving rolling pins in there for good measure - like this! But sounds like you know your weaknesses and this is a good thing! Thanks so much for the good vibes as well - I do appreciate all the support and friendship I am getting here congrats on what seems to be a great Core day!

Kathy - sounds like you are doing great as well. Good for you!

Pretty quiet day here - still doing research on my "fantasy" trip - finally find something - looking good for my gf when my DARLING daughter (and I say that sarcastically) comes in from school and says she does not want to go to Mexico for 1 week - she will miss her friends too much (and if one reads between the lines something like "I don't want to spend a week with my mom" on the beach ). This is a big bummer as of course you know we need to travel in packs...lol. Well I need at least one companion to make this thing work! So now my 18 yr old and 6 yr old have both volunteered to accompany me - but now gf is upset cuz her 10 yr old daughter had her heart set on hanging out w/my 13 yr old dd (she really looks up to her and adores her like an older sister). So back to square one? I think this trip was just not meant to be? (altho the 10 yr old has played with my youngest before and they did seem to get along pretty well). Of course travelling w/the 6 yr old will be a bit more challenging and require much more vigilance on my part - but he is a hoot - and a great little traveller so I am still pondering on this???

In some pain this evening - too frightened to take the codeine pill because I know it will make my tummy ache! Not eating properly at all: had "brunch" around 11:30 am (omellette w/onions, back bacon, soy cheese), then a bowl of nacho chips around 4 pm....dinner was 1 chicken thigh, some peas and 1/2 sweet potato. Snack was 2 slices of toast w/light cream cheese and tea. I am still feeling hungry but don't want to eat more as the scale is already moving up - how discouraging.

Have a physiotherapy appt tomorrow at 11 am which will probably be pretty painful - not looking forward to this!

At least I have been able to increase my water drinking today - so far up to around 45 ounces which is a huge improvement...about 18 more oz to go!

Will try and check out the chat tonight if my computer is cooperative!

Later,

Frouf

hang in there everyone,
just had a chat with my sister for almost an hour.....her spirits are lifted...a good thing
also had a chat with my friend that i have known since 1975......wow eh? we went to school together AND both moved to canada her in 81 and me in 82. we were featured in the alumni magazine 2 months ago regarding our friendship....anyway, after more then 2 hours on the phone and NO SNACKS i am hungry. will go and have a skinny cow fudgesicle.......lj have not really journalled since saturday.....hope it makes tomorrow night still ok, time will tell

keep up the good work everyone

ONE ENTIRE day ALL Core and to end my day with my 'snack' I had FF yogurt with some SF FF Instant Butterscotch Pudding.....dee-lish!
I am so proud. Even my husband made mention of how proud he was of me
Today again I am all journalled and ready to go. Ok for day 2 of MY Core-ous Line. I am determined to get at least 2-3 lbs off by Easter Sunday, and if not I will take the 1-2 lbs which I think I can do by then. Small steps, right!!
I made the challenge to myself to stick with Core till Easter so I'm in a battle with myself.
Froufie - I just love when you say BACK AWAY FROM......I looked in the frig last night and saw the Cous Cous staring back at me, and thought of you
I actually cracked up because I heard those words. Now I will picture I must admit I will have some this week, but perhaps in a soup with broth, NOT by the BOWL full....I would have never thought that would be a RED light food for me. I hope that you are soon feeling well, both physically and emotionally. I hope too that your plans work out to where everyone is happy, especially YOU!!
Vickie I am sooo proud of me, Core all day...what an accomplisment, and I'll tell you wasn't so bad. I forgot how good it can be!! Even my SNACK I loved it!!
Kat- hope you're well. I might go to fitday today to check it out again.
How did Chat go....I tried, couldn't again...well one of these Wednesday eves.
Frannie - I am glad the call with your sister went well, that is so good. When I read about you talking to your friend it made me home sick. I MISS my REAL friends back home so much. I just may make a call tonight when I get in.
Good luck on w/i. Me I realized I have to journal. Crazy to do on Core, but I have to, anal I guess. On points when I knew I had to journal I hated it, on Core where you really don't have to journal I feel the need to.....go figure.
Well I am about to embark in MY Core-ous Line on Day 2!! I think I will be ok, I feel good about it.
Hope Chat went well....and I hope everyone out there is Ok.....6:00 am almost time to be in the wind.......work....now that IS a nasty 4 letter word....ughhhhh
Have a great day everyone......LJ

Way to go, Linda! You made it through that day and sound all pumped up and ready for Day 2 ... at the rate you're going, you might lose those next 3 or 4 pounds by your next WI! Wouldn't that be great?

Kathy, sounds like you had a good day yesterday also. Hopefully, you are not feeling any ill effects from your lack of soda. I hope Zuki is feeling perkier ... I know the extra loving attention from you and your DH probably was better than any medicine for the little guy.

Frannie, this has been your week to be in touch with everyone from the past. I'm glad you and your sister had a good talk and that you were able to help her through this rough spot in her life. I know you both enjoyed catching up on what's been going on with the other! Hope your WI goes well tonight for you.

Vickie, I have a good feeling that this will be the week that you'll get to change your chick! All fingers and toes crossed for a great WI for you!

Angela, you poor snotty-nosed thing! I know you'll be so glad to be well! I know it's not funny but I had to laugh when I read your post from the other thread ... you sounded so disgusted with your runny nose.

Dear Froufie, I hope your physical therapy goes well today. They can do some marvelous things so you might be surprised by how much it eases your pain and discomfort. Of course, if it's only exercises and such, it might make things hurt worse. Here's hoping for the best though! I sure hope you're able to pull things together for the Mexico trip ... if you're physically back up to snuff, I think it will do you a world of good to get away from DH for a week and relax in the sun.

I've had a pretty good week with my eating ... knock on wood! I still haven't lost all the pounds I picked up from my last eating indiscretion 2 weeks ago but they are slowly dropping off. Stocked up on kiwi fruit at Winn-Dixie last night ... their weekly sales circular has lots of good deals on fruit this week. My goodness, the kiwi was good. I'll have to get a whole crisper full ... 10 for $1.00. Can't beat that!

Here's to a great Core day for everyone. Hope I haven't forgotten anyone ... best of luck to all the Thursday weighers!

Hi Linda! I'm up early but no work for me. Just a lot of crazy errands and running around....and of course my weigh in at 5:00 tonight. I had to get up early so I could get on the treadmill before I go for my Dentist appointment. Talk about 2 icky things in one morning!

You SHOULD be very proud of yourself. I hope you do stick with Core for a month. If you do it every day just like Day 1 you WILL make progress. Just do one day at a time one meal at a time. I'll fill up a page for you of when you finish the month. Actually, I'll give them to you one day at a time. Here's your first.

Frannie, it sounds like you had fun on your conversation with your friend. I have a friend like that too but I'm having a hard time getting her to come and see me. She was very shy but not with me. She lives in Barnes, WI which I guess is near the border of Canada. Too far for me to drive but she comes home all the time to see her Mom. Maybe I'll call her. She even distracted you from your snack! Good Friend!

Frouf, good luck at your appointment today. I'll be thinking about you. I'll just be out and about then. I'll send good vibes out to you. As far as the trip goes, it sounds like the universe isn't cooperating. Maybe in a couple of weeks you can try again?

Deborah, you are SO good at that double posting!!!! Thanks for the good wishes. I hope you are right about the Chick. We'll see soon enough. Sounds like you might be in line for a good weigh in yourself! I love Kiwi too but can't ever get any good ones around here. Now that I think of it, maybe that would be a good thing to buy from Trader Joe's. They have a small fruit department.

Good Luck on your week. When is your weigh in?

Thanks for all the good vibes as I am preparing for my physio appt - do I really have to wear shorts? Are they serious? what a scary sight that will be!

I am still in pain - it is not excruciating by any means but it is THERE - I can feel it in my left hip and knee - a constant slight pain - I do sleep at night but cannot sleep in in the morning as the pain makes it very uncomfortable. Guess I have to eat something to take my painkilling stomach ripper pill! Oh ya and to add to my joy I'm up around 2 lbs now - I just hating losing the same weight over and over again!!

Linda - I am so proud of you too - way to go. Sounds like you are very motivated and prepared to do this one day at a time!

Kathy - hope you are also doing well and had fun watching the game last night!

Angela - if you need more tissues for your snotty nose, let us know!

Vickie - have "fun" at the dentist (as if that is possible?) and good luck at your weigh-in tonight. I too will be looking for a "new" chick!

Deborah - sounds like you are doing well too - enjoy the kiwi (they are very good for you - lots of fibre!).

Frannie - so do you have "pancake ear" from being on the phone so long? Sounds like you had a good time catching up on all the news!

My trip I guess is on hold for the moment? DD is now bribing me to get her a cd player or mp3 - ya right! Might take 6 yr old instead - he is lots of fun. But honestly right now I can't see walking around or hauling suitcases so might wait a few days to see how I'm doing? Of course everything is really selling off now and there might not be anywhere worth going? Will wait and see. Supposed to be up and about by monday? otherwise I have to call dr and go back - my work mates will certainly freak if I"m not back by Monday!!! Hopefully the physio and drugs will help! (Will let you know if they use the "stimulator" on me!!! )

Frouf

I told you Froufie, if you take ME to Mexico, I'll haul all your luggage for you. Heck, I'd even give you a piggy back through the entire airport, hotel, and beach if I could come. Winter in Iowa is starting to wear on me - can you tell?

Good news, I'm feeling a little better this morning. (Knock on wood!) All dd's finally slept through the night, or at least didn't wake ME up, so I got to rest fairly well. Yay!

Good luck on your physio appointment Froufy, and way to go Linda on your all-Core day! Don't those feel great? I know you can keep it up! And good luck Vickie, on your weigh-in tonight. I didn't do so well last night (- .6), but I was expecting it.

Gotta go get girls ready for school now...
Angela