Hello It has been a tough week already and it is only tuesday!!!! Monday on my way to work I dozed off at a light and hit the car in front of me. Thank the Lord no damage was done. Sunday I had trouble sleeping and took a sleeping pill at 12:00 am and it was tough shaking it off then on Monday. And today I was running late because I was out of gas and had to stop and the boss in charge made a big deal of writing me down as late then she must have felt bad (I look pretty sick still) because she ask if I wanted to talk about it and I said I wouldn't talk about it. I seems like everything is falling apart around me I just got a letter telling me I owe more money for my daughters school and I have a week to pay it. So pray hard for me this week at the rate it is going I may not make it to friday!
Sunny-I think we are a lot alike I also have been real sensitive also. I almost cried when one of the bosses wrote me down as late! It has been cold here and I know that effects me alot.
Ez-I could use some of those rocks! I have a lg back yard and it is time to do a lot of planting. I have a very shaded yard and I have to look for shade plants. We also have had clay for soil. I wish I could afford to have several dump truck of good soil and start over.
Mitchypoo-I am glad you are have a good day. I thank God when I wake up like that! When does Charlie come back?
Standingingrace-Remember muscle weights more than fat so you may be gaining muscle and not losing lbs so don't lose faith. We have all been there and are here for you.
Sue-Not much longer until our trip!!! Can't wait! Do you have your computer back I notice you posting more.
enisenj-What time is dinner it sounds great. I had to cook for the 4th day in a row and I am tired so it is a hot pocket and chip day!
Sherry-I hate to hear that things are not getting better. I hope you have a good Dr. to help you with you disability papers because here they always turn you down the first time you apply. My friends son was dying and they turned him down! You almost alway have to have an atty to get disability.
DeenieM_Prayers for your goals. And for your outreach! I am looking forward to getting to know you better. Keep us post on how things are going.
Angel lover-I saw the post where you posted pictures of your house you look Great! I am praying for your Son as his court date comes around. Keep us posted on how you are doing.
Wilma-Do feel bad because you aren't losing as much as you should it is just Satan wanting you to give up. I aways remember if I quit I will be gaining. So even if I do not lose another Lbs at least I not gaining!
Well I know I have miss someone and I promise it is not on purpose. I need to go destress.
May God Bless you!
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I had her check my right ear because I thought I still had fluid behind it from one month ago, and yep she said I did. Last month she gave me a steriod shot which helped greatly. (Remember I was hearing echoing) I asked her if she could give me another shot to totally get rid of it since I had very little hearing in that ear and she refused. Told me it would eventually go away. Of course, it has never gone away on its own before.
Anyway, I had mentioned how going into a smokers home would shut down my breathing so badly and told her that my allergy Dr three years ago had wrote me a note for me not to see smokers at all due to my allergies to smoke and my asthma. I asked her if she would rewrite it again since they have recently started making me see smokers again. She went into this big spill about I would need to go to an allergy Dr and be tested and that she couldn't write me a note without the testing. Fine. Then I asked her if she could write me a note about resting more and only working M-W-F so I can take my Lasix at least every other day and rest. Then she started talking about the allergy testing again, etc.... and I tried to explain it to her and she started telling me I had to have allergy testing done before she could write me a note and that really the allergy DR needed to write it. And I tried again to explain, not the allergy or smoking issue . . . . . . resting and taking Lasix. And she keep saying that I had to be allergy tested to write an excuse for smokers. She is a foreign lady so hince the language problem, but I finally just gave up trying to ask. Then, I asked her about helping me file for disability. She started going on and on about how this was only the 2nd time she has seen me and that she had not made documentation of my problems really in just two visits. But I reminded her she has a chart with nearly an inch of my previous primary's notes for years and my cardiologist's notes for about three years. But she states that she can't do anything to help me now. Maybe sometime in the future after she has seen me a while. What???? Anyway, needless to say when I went to leave, my friend the receptionist asked what day of the week, I wanted to come back in two weeks and I told her never. I explained to my friend the language problem and that really did didn't help me today at all and didn't even seem willing to. I don't need that. There are plenty of Drs out there that would do everything they can to help me. Of course, I don't know of one right now, but plan to find one. Sami~ help!!!!!

will shine through very soon and brighten your world. It can definitely be very depressing. Did you know that most people develop depression in the winter when the weather is bad and they can't get outdoors? Hang in there, it will peep through soon.


to have dessert at every meal and for the first couple I resisted but than started indulging also. They've been gone for 2 days and I just want sugar. It's also PMS week so it doubles in intensity. I am committing to changing today. I need to get this last 20 lbs off and eating dessert isn't going to do it. I am cutting out sugar and also eating less carbs at dinner. I don't do a lot in the evenings because I'm on my feet all day so I don't burn it off.