First post to forum.... My introduction...
This is my first post here and I figured I would post on this particular board as I am currently pregnant...
I've always been grossly overweight... there are times where it has been better then others, times where I can almost stand weighing what I weighed... but this pregnancy has really brought me to my ultimate low... This will be my second child, and the wieght gain as not been kind... Before I got pregnant I weighed a whopping 280 lbs and now at 5'9", nearly at the end with only two weeks to go, I have reached my ultimate high... At my last dr's appt I weighed an incredible 325 lbs...
I wish I could blame a significant amount of that weight gain due to be pregnant but that's simply not the case... yes it's expected to gain some weight, but people have a tendency to rationalize how much I've gained as being okay "because I'm pregnant"... They forget that I was a big girl before, and it's frustrating and tiring to be the only person that sees something wrong with how much I weigh... and let's face it, not just how much I weigh, but how I look and how I feel as well...
My pregnancies where pretty much back to back... I had my son in Oct of 2008 and AFTER he was born weighed 298 lbs... In the following six months progress was very slowly... I suffered from severe depression which didn't help with the eating and was slowly recovering from a c-section. However I managed to drop a little bit of weight and came to rest at 280 lbs when I again found out I was pregnant in june of 09, a mere eight months after having my son...
I fully intend on going weight-loss crazy after the birth of this baby... Despite being pregnant this weight gain has had such a negative impact on me. I feel and look disgusting and simply can not stand to be this large for any longer then I already have... I know it's not going to be easy, and I know the 'smart' ways to do it... It's just very overwhelming and I'm already fearing failure even before I start.
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