Okay, this is getting really old. I just can't seem to get a handle on my eating! I was so proud of myself for staying on the lower end of 180, now I am 190. I am just getting so frustrated and disgusted with myself.
Usually in the morning, I do great. I wake up convinced that today is going to be different. I eat a good breakfast and have the plan to exercise but it rarely happens. Yesterday, I had planned to stay on plan. During church, an announcement was made that the Spanish service welcomed everyone to join in their Christmas meal after the service. Oh my goodness. I did not plan to stay for the meal. I had planned to go home and eat the last piece of panini that DH had left over from the night before. BUT, it smelled sooooo good. I don't even know what half the foods were. There were taquitos and rice with olives, delicious desserts including something with a lot of fruit on yellow cake and whipped cream with coconut, and flan! I walked right past it all to get my two boys from class and the nursery, but seriously we had to walk back through to get to the exit. I could've went through the other exit but it was raining and I didn't want my boys to get sick. (They've already been sick enough the last few months) My older boy wanted to stay and eat so we did. I just got one plate, not overstuffed and shared with my younger one. My older one got a plate with a few things and ate about half of what he got. Smart boy. I got flan and the fruit cake stuff. Grape soda. No seconds. Then a lady from church convinces us to take home cookies and brownies. Oh, BIG mistake. No no no. I wasn't going to do this. BUT I did. I took a pack of 4 pumpkin chocolate chip cookies, a cream filled cookie, a piece of blueberry pie and a 4 pack of reeses pieces brownies. Let's just say, it was all gone within an hour. Shameful. Absolutely shameful.
The rest of the day I ate awful like that. I figured why not? I already screwed myself. I couldn't even weigh myself this morning. So today I am on plan. 100% on plan. I just need to stick to it. My dr has given me specific orders to eat 2000-2200 calories a day. I am to gain only 15-20 lbs this pregnancy. I have already gained it. Today I have eaten 850 calories and it is almost 2 pm. So this is good. I work so I won't really be able to eat much from 4-8:30. Good. Right? I swear I need to go to a support group, but this is as close as I get. I need support. Serious help. I need to stick to my dr's orders. I realize I will gain more than what she has said since I am already there, but I can do better from now on. I just need to do it. Why is it so hard to just do it?
I think it has a lot to do with my history of pregnancy weight gain. My first I gained over 60 lbs. I did better with my 2nd, gaining only about 25 lbs. Since I am overweight to begin with, my dr says it is better to just gain 15-20 lbs. I will be fine if I don't go over 30 lbs in all honesty. I started my 1st pregnancy at about 185 and my 2nd at 210.
Sorry you are having such a rough time right now. Maybe it is your bodies way of telling you that it needs more than 2200 calories while growing this baby. I know you want to only gain a certain amount, but try not to be too hard on yourself. Just try and relax - you won't be pregnant forever and it should be such a special time. I hate to see you get so upset and just know that you won't be pregnant forever.
Sorry I am not much help - I pretty much eat what I want when I want to at this point.
I am sorry it is such a struggle. I am there with you. I am lucky if I end the day with fewer than 3,000 calories stuffed down my throat.
I have already gained 30 pounds.
It's so hard to watch calories and with all the snow and below zero temps, exercise is out of the question.
Hang in there and take it one day at a time. One bad meal doesn't mean the day is ruined. And it is never to late to eat better. Make sure to get plenty of protein and good fats, and watch the sugar. Beyond that, I wouldn't worry too much about the actual calorie consumption.
ive gained 8 pounds so far and im still in my FIRST trimester! dont beat yourself up about it if you keep thinking about it too much i think youll put the weight on faster! lol
Thanks everyone! I seriously do need to not stress out so much about it. It is so hard at this time of year. Too many goodies and dinners! I did really well at tracking what I ate. I did not starve myself and actually have been completely full all day and only ate 1,725 calories (according to thedailyplate.com) I am a little concerned at not being up to 2,000 at least, but it is after 9 pm here and I really don't want to try to eat that tonight when I will be going to bed shortly. I am going to continue tracking and getting 8 glasses of water in a day (personal goal) and hope that maybe some time this week I may get on the elliptical or do one of my pilate/yoga dvd's. We'll see.
So frustrated! What the #$*@ is wrong with me??
Today I have eaten 850 calories and it is almost 2 pm. So this is good. I work so I won't really be able to eat much from 4-8:30. Good. Right? I swear I need to go to a support group, but this is as close as I get. I need support. Serious help. I need to stick to my dr's orders. I realize I will gain more than what she has said since I am already there, but I can do better from now on. I just need to do it. Why is it so hard to just do it?
