[marny]

I'm an idiot. I know better than to drink and think that my thinking will remain sound. Last night at the 4th of July get together I planned on having one beer. I even brought it with me so that I would have the kind that I like. After the beer, another friend showed up with margaritas. Unfortunately, the beer answered for me and I had a couple margaritas. At this point, the only thing keeping me from climbing into the trays of brownies and FOUR different kinds of ice cream was my abstinence. I knew what my abstinence definition was, and it has become a law written in stone in my heart. Thank God I didn't have to "think" about it.

My booze infested thoughts told me, "It's okay. Just drink your carbs and you'll still be in your food plan." Yeah...right. With a belly full of tequila, I was desperate for something absorbant to swallow and soak it up. Instead I had another burger patty, and suffered the acidic pain of no bun... It didn't feel good.

And to top it off...I said stupid things, laughed too loud, and made a general fool of myself. Oy vey. Will I ever grow up?

[mizz186]

we all make that mistake but you relaize it now and you will move on from it and remember this at the next party...you are only human dont b so hard on yourself!!!

[ellis]

Oh, Marny, I'm sorry... Mizz is right, though... you're only human, and you're never going to be perfect. (sorry to disappoint you, hon. I know we're all striving for it, however... heh heh)
You know you overindulged, and you even had the strength to get a grip on your eating! I think that's huge.

[marny]

Thanks guys. I'm feeling much better about the whole situation. I talked with my therapist and my sponsor about it. I came to some good conclusions.

[WaterWater]

Marny, I am sorry that you had a difficult time, but I am glad that you were able to pick it back up and keep going! You know what they say -- well darn it, I can't remember exactly how it goes, but something along the lines of "Failure is not falling -- it is refusing to get back up once you have fallen"! You got right back up! Yah Marny!

[marny]

My husband keeps asking me to go to concerts with him. Rock concerts just aren't a safe place for me right now. Too many distractions from my program: booze, food, people who are only into looking good, wordly focus etc. So, I told him that, and prompted him to go with a friend. He said okay, but I know he's going to ask me to go to the next one that he hears about. Maybe one day I'll be ready to go--just not now.

[ms.cate]

I know how you feel, I find socialising and staying abstinent very difficult. There's just not that many safe activities at night that don't involve food. Well besides the movies.