What am i going to do. I went back to OA. I met wonderful people there who truly cared and supported me. I really felt the presence of God, and the power of the steps. But my binging is scaring me to death. I am rejoining WW tomorrow. I feel terrified of what I will see when I weigh in, i don't know if this is the right thing at all. I am scared of continuing to binge and I want structure and a sense of control over food and over my body. I am frightened right now. I am scared of continuing to binge. I am scared that this is a mistake. I don't know what to do. This seems like may be only a short term option. But I'll do it if I can feel remotely sane for a few weeks.

danelover, I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I have to be honest with you... it sounds as though you're focusing on the negative. I know how hard this is, but I truly believe that "attitude is everything".
Turn your thoughts around... I'm sure you have much inner strength to draw on.
It's wonderful that you're rejoining WW! That's a positive step. It shows that you're not a quitter. You CAN do this!! Big hugs... Hang in there!!

Danelover, it sounds like you could really benefit from the one on one guidance of a sponsor. They're people who have been through the same things as you, and they've survived, regained their sanity, and been successful. Did you get a phone list at the meeting? Call anyone on it for support. That's what it's there for. I'm still new at this myself, but I can see that it's a group effort thing. You can't do it alone.