[patd]

Well, I hate to post a downer but this is an honest program at least it has to be for me. I've been in this kind of slump around here for at least a couple of weeks. Instead of trying to figure it out anymore I'm just trying to accept it today and post about it.

I'm still doing what I've done from the beginning in the program: Have a sponsor, food plan, attend f2f meetings, telephone meetings, working the steps with my sponsor, reading literature, prayer and meditation so don't know what else I can do. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

I still exercise, which on most days is riding my bike, its an outdoor bike not inside so I'm getting air and sunshine, I take vitamin D, I'm on an antidepressant and have been for quite awhile. I see the doctor regularly.

I'm 66 and maybe this is normal at this age I don't know. Maybe I'm just having a hard time accepting I can't do as much in a day as I've done in the past, maybe I'm comparing myself to others, whatever it is it can leave anytime. Hey! Maybe it's just this thing called "Life"

Thanks for listening.

love in fellowship
patd

[tommy]

patd! Thanks for sharing your not so comfortable spot. I get those times when I think "I am doing this for the rest of my life- is that all there is?"- I know it is one day at a time but the thinking does creep in. Small changes are what helps me along with making myself do a little gratitude list every day- from the heart- not just quickly scribbled. As for the changes, it is mostly getting out with others as I am a total homebody. Made myself go out for an impromptu home tour yesterday (cruise cool Craftsman etc neighborhoods with 2 girlfriends), then an English tea at a cute place, and then walking and window shopping. Wednesday, after declining invites last summer, I am going to an open air concert in the park with two other program ladies (Celtic rock!!!!) Hugs to you and please keep posting.

[rose bud]

Hi patd;

Although you might feel like you're in a slump, with you working your program and with everything that you've listed, you ARE moving forward. You aren't moving backwards, right? That is something to be proud of.

You might not see the benefits of your efforts in grand ways, but the best changes and the most permanent changes happen gradually. You keep doing what you're doing and chances are, in a year, you'll look back and see how far you've come.