Welcome back and I'm glad your here!
It's so hard to start over. In 2005 I tried and tried and kept falling off the wagon. It got to the piont that I decided OA would never work for me and I stoped going. Well, September 2006 I found myself back in OA and this time I have found abstinence and it has stuck. 70 days thanks to my HP and OA.
Keep coming back!