I need to confess, or I will keep living in denial that I have been good for the past 5 days! I don't understand why I do this to myself, I was plateauing for soo long and finally got over it and lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks...anyways, I live away from home, and came home Thursday evening for a long weekend, I knew I'd be partying and drinking, but I told myself its okay as long as I stay within my points and not go crazy, Saturday mornings is my usual weigh in...so I got home thursday, went to wing night at the local pub, only ate like 5 though so thats okay, but ended up sitting around eating left over halloween treats!! WHY? I don't even know, I am not even a fan of chocolate! Then From there it all went down hill, I'd start good during my day, then come evening my friends were asking me to go out for supper and what not, and no, I did not stay on plan, I have done horrible!! I have been borderline binging since I got here, I am almost glad to be leaving tomorrow morning, but I feel like I should lay off carbs as of tomorrow morning, until my weigh-in Saturday to make up for what I have done? I didn't even get any exercise in, and I usually exercise daily! I feel horrible, I feel like a fat pig, and according to my scale, I gained like 10 pounds, which isn't humanly possible, well it is, but I didn't eat that much, plus I am starting my TOM so that makes me hungry and bloated and feel gross. Anyways, I just needed to get that out, because I feel gross, and I find once I fall off the wagon - which I must admit is RARE.... it is SO hard to get back on, and I want to lose 12 lbs from now til Dec 25th. so I really need to jump back on the track. Thank you to anyone who reads this and sends some feed-back, Im frustrated and I know its my own fault, I just don't understand where my determination and will power went??? I'm used to having my own groceries in my own apartment, no temptations once however and here at home, there is everything you can imagine, I think I totally over indulged....Will Power, COME BACK TO ME!!!

I completely understand. It ALWAYS happens to me. It's good to get off your chest. Tomorrow is a new day, get back on track and show that binge who's boss. Kick its ***!

Thank you! Disgruntledone that is exactly what I needed to hear! Thank you!!!!!! I feel better all better, and I will fill you in lol, because if not, well actually, I wouldn't mind a vistitor or two, haha, but no, I'm back on track tomorrow AM!! Thank you as well Dominic!!

Ugg.. know how you feel. I had a whole week of dragging under the wagon.. and boy, did I feel like crap!

Look at this in a positive light. You know how you felt.... like crap. Tomorrow when you leap back onto the wagon, pay attention to how you feel when you eat right. Believe me - that will help you when you feel the need to dip your toe into that water again!

I have been like this for the past 3 weeks, today is day 2 back OP. Don't beat yourself up over it, move past this little bump on the road and get back on track!!! We are here for you

I've been like that the past two days too. I work overnights, so I work from 9pm to 7am...did really well at work...went to the gym after too! (although it wasn't as rigorous as usual), then had to run a few errands before my other job from 9am to 2pm. So...I stopped at the store to pick up a few things. I ate a kingsize rice crispy bar (I was super hungry!)...but that didn't do the trick, so then I had one 150 cal choc chip cookie---so that puts me at around 500 cals, in like 20 min. Then I had to get gas. My tummy was still grumbling. I NEVER eat fast food ...seriously it's been months adn months... well I decided that a McDonalds breakfast bagel sounded pretty dang good. I ate that thing so fast. Then got to my other job...where I spent the rest of the day having intense stomach pains (from the crap food, I'd guess).

Then I came home...instead of going to sleep like I should have after working that many hours...I fought the urge and tried so hard to stay up so that could have a "normal" schedule for my day off ...for those of you that work nights, you understand... normal hours people.... my schedule is sucky ...so I was up from 5pm the previous day until 6:30 pm last night. When I got home I was to tired to binge (and felt so guilty about earlier in the day) that all I ate was a tuna melt (around 200 cals) at about 5.

I woke up today at around 8:30 am... and had some mini binge today too.

Working overnights suck. All I do is work, sleep, and binge

Jenny...just popping in to check the post and thought I would share something that works for me. Years ago I learned about a trick to help me and was reminded of it a few weeks ago...here it is: I love to wear bracelets and I wear one everyday. Whenever I feel my "will power" slipping away, I reach down and touch my bracelet...it reminds me of my goal and to stay focused. This weekend I bought a new bracelet- one where you add beads and for each 5 pounds I loose, I get to add a new bead...as my bracelet grows I get smaller and each time I touch the beads, it reminds me of my goal to fill it up. When I am at goal, it will match an outfit already hanging in my closet.

Sometimes we just need a little reminder...and I think if it is something you can touch, it really drives it home. Find something that you can use to help you stay focused...make it personal. Good luck! We've all been there, and I am sure we will go there again someday...it's all about learning to live with our "addiction" and making smart choices ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Reece the bracelet thing is a really good idea!!! I may have to try that for myself

ooooo.. I love bracelets too but have been too fat to wear one until recently. My husband bought me one for my 50 lb loss... that is an excellent idea! B-day is coming up.. hmmmmmmmmm.. now, how do I hint for that? LOL

Reece, thats a great idea, I like it! Today I am back OP and I feel so much better, its 830 and I still have 6 points left, and I was up at 530, so it has been a long day, but been doing well. Thanks everyone for your input, support, and suggestions!! Hump Day, it is! Have a great rest of the week everyone!!!