ok so breakfast I added an egg, 2 points then lunch I add some beans that I had made the other day for 3 points. maybe for dinner I will add another cup of soup to make it 2 cups of soup 4 points.

It's funny because I am hungry but sometimes I open the fridge and just don't know what to grab. I don't know why I feel like if I eat my points I feel like I've done bad. How can I go from eating millions of calories a day to being afraid to get

It is totally normal! A lot of people feel the same way, the important thing is to recognize it and start working your way out of that train of thought. Just remember, your body needs fuel! Food is not the enemy!