bmi down yay/and a bit of journaling
 

I finally hit bmi 35! Which means I am no longer super obese, or morbidly obese, or severely obese... I am now "just" obese! I have lost about 16 bmi points!

My "real" ultimate goal was to get to a bmi of 30 where pregnancy is safe.. or so they say don't go over 30 on many web pages so that has been my real goal... a safe pregnancy, not being cute or skinny.. i just want to be healthy and lower inflammation. My siggy goal weight is just a dream and motivation to not give up and feel comfortable where I am at as I will binge and screw it all up.

I only have to lose 29 pounds to hit bmi30! It will take 3 months+ IF my body agrees... I can actually do this. i hope... Can't believe I finally got to just obese!

At easter everyone commented. I was going to sneak in keep it low key. My goal was 50 by easter but after some calculations I lowered it to 38. I was down 43.. so I'm proud of that also. They complimented my first 50 but they seemed super taken aback by me with the additional 43. I didn't want to say how much I had lost but it was the first thing they shouted at me :( And I am an eternal.. truthsayer. So oh well... one of them actually gave me their old jeans size 20 and they were way too big! I swear I was at the store not fitting correctly into 24's.. but these were Avenue so were made bigger. Only thing is I have a LOT of knee fat that looks like its staying so its been very difficult to find pants I can wear so I may just sew up the waist on these jeans. However the stretchy waist 20's fit great.

I can feel it... I am so close to being a mommy! Now.. if only I could come up with the IVF money. No one will give me a loan so I am freaking out pretty bad :( Crying daily, hourly.. which is bad for inflammation and ovulation. i heard b6 ups your cervical fluid and luteal pahse so I will go buy some today. I have the money for the testing (super spendy)... so I will just pretend everything is fine for now. A few women have posted my dr turned them down due to their weight. He did NOT turn me down! Man what would he have said 93 pounds ago? :( And they are one of the highest rated in the nation so I'm sure he wouldn't try if he didn't think I had a chance. He actually was blown away when I told him and asked me my secret. Though he did tell me to stay on my diet and keep losing :/ I was expecting him to say well you need to eat this and that for a baby but he was completely ok with this. So say prayers for me... hope that I find this loan! I have to make this happen... have to... my time has run out.

So new goals... I really want to lose 6.5 pounds before I see the dr again. But that's not going to happen. So as close as I can get. It's getting harder.. I'm guessing 2 more pounds by then. Second goal.. same number different reason... 100's!!!!!!!!! wooooo. and officially 100 lost! Third goal.. that 29... must.. get.. to.. bmi 30!!! (I'm sure I will have many mini goals before that to keep me motivated)
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are you currently on metformin?

So much congratulations! Such a mighty accomplishment. :)

Just one little note. You said: "I only have to lose 29 pounds to hit bmi30! It will take 3 months+ IF my body agrees... "

It's not your body's decision. Your body doesn't make decisions about food or exercise. That really hit home for me in the last two years, and it's very empowering!

thank you :) I quit metformin. I was on it for 7 years. I switched to cinnamon instead and my new dr was ok with it (my old one is very against it). My liver was up so I wanted to take a break. However I went from very high BP to low BP and I'm wondering if I should quit the cinnamon too at some point

So I got really sick last night and ended up having my period 5-6 days early :( I'm under a ton of stress. Which means I have to go for my test tomorrow and I'm suddenly very nervous and want to put it off. However I just turned 39 :( I have to push myself.