Pooky! I read your post this morning and have been thinking about it most of the day. (well, in between fighting with dh!) I like the idea of writing a letter to your friend and expressing your feelings. DON'T mail the letter to her, just let all your "stuff" fly on it and then let it go, rip it up, burn it. Alot of times, if I need to rant, I send a good trusted friend a written rant. The act of writing it down, for me is theraputic and the clicking of the "send" button allows me to let it go! (Debkay, has received some doozies!)

Forgiveness, is a whole other issue, one that I struggle with ALOT and takes ALOT of time, at least for me. BUT! Once you can do it, you can be set free. Takes time and is hard.

The other thing I thought about, was from Sooner. She once told me (and I don't think she liked it any better than I did because it is HARD and UNPLEASANT) is to go back and look at what actions or what part you played in the incident. MAN! is THAT YUCKY to do or WHAT?

Huge hugs, Pooky!

I have really REALLY REALLY had it with summer. Now I need the boys to go back to school. I am feeling trapped and I hate that. I can hold on for a few more days right? I feel like I could EASILY become Runaway Maisy!!!!!

later skaters,
peach

Pooky: I posted my self-absorbed post at work without reading what anyone else wrote. I have a suggestion? (I also gave this same advice to Jiff in the WLS thread) Do you have any Instant Messaging programs on your computer? If not download one and make you a buddie list. When you feel like you want to eat, check out your buddy list, see who's online and chat with them. It's hard to stuff food in your mouth when your fingers are busy chatting!!! I have ICQ, MSN and Yahoo IM. I'm on the computer almost every night, and I'll love to chat with you, and I'm sure others in this group would too.

Great Idea, Barb! I'm on MSN instant message!

Hello everyone! Crappy weekend here, crappy day, perfect for my crappy life! I am so fed up with my body, it has betrayed me at this young age and NOBODY knows how to fix it! Grrrrrrrrrrrr:( Okay, pity party over. Thanks for letting me vent!

Pooky, I had one really good true friend ever since 4th grade. We grew up together, did all the girl things together. She was about my size, so there was no jealousy over men between us. As we reached our early 20's, she changed. She had to outdo me on everything, she had to one-up me at every chance. It became a chore to be around her. We grew apart. I see her by chance every now and then, and it's still the same. The questions about my life, who am I married to now? Oooooooooh, I'm NOT married. Then, on and on, from job to house to car to kids. I don't understand what happened between us, but I have to say that we are NOT friends anymore. She was poisoning my life and I didn't need that from anyone, let alone my best friend. Sometimes bad things happen for no apparent reason. I'm sorry it's happened to you. Big hugs to you! You'll do the right thing, I know you will!!

Ya'll have a good night, I'm going to take another dang pill and try not to bite anyone's head off tonight! Dinner is over, so bath and bed are calling my name! Talk to you tomorrow.

Aaah, here I had a big long post to reply to everyone individually and I lost it!

But I still want to say that you guys are the BEST!!! I knew I could have the best answers out there and you guys proved it.

I am tired of feeling miserable and alone and I knew I had to reach out. I'm glad you all gave me a lot to think about. I understand that it's going to be hard for a while, and that my belief in the essential goodness of people has been temporarily shaken but now I know that I'll get over it and move on.

I have already taken a positive step in that direction. I have decided to redecorate my bedroom, but most importantly, to move my office out of the master bedroom enclave and make this space a nursery! It's a real statement of where I want to be and the focus is on my family. I can put my heart and soul into this because I know that the cause is worthwhile instead of people who don't deserve my love and attention. Dh backs me up a 100% since he knows how upsetting and hurtful this time has been for me. I'm hoping that this will fill the hole in my heart and help me to focus my goals where they should be--my family, my baby, my home.

I want each and every one of you to know, that although we have not met in person, you have all shared a part of yourselves with me, and have indeed been better friends with me some some of the people I know in "real life". Thanks for being htere and holding my hand :grouphug:

Pooky, I am glad you are feeling better. Nice decision on the nursery!!

Sherrie, sorry that today is crappy. I hope you have a Wonderful Wednesday!

See, better already. Have you ever read "tuesdays' with morrie" it's a must read.