I actually have been trying to post all day and just finally got here.The days here have been very very relaxing .. and actually fun. It's pretty bad that I have to be away from my hubby to feel relaxed .. then again it could be my medication .. who knows.
Well, things are getting worse with my MIL .. the end is soon coming. I have never meet anyone so afraid of death .. yet afraid to live. She truely must make peace with herself .. but I think that's to late. She does not recognize anyone and is so paranoid when she awakens. They will begin sedating her heavely tomorrow. My hubby is still up there and I think the time away may have made him realize that I do mean something to him .. I will have to see how he is when I go back there this week. I have to admit, I never thought I would see him sitting at his mother's bed side. They didnt speak for more than 7 years .. and only in the past 2 years began to talk. He too will have to make peace with himself for his own actions before he can let her go too.
I feel so out of sorts with this whole inlaw stuff .. I kinda feel like my DH doesnt want me there to give him support.
I dont know its odd how he never seems to feel anything
Guess thats why we both need counselling I'm glad to see that everyone is doing so well .. spring planting .. new jobs .. it is truely the season of new birth and growth. Its the time of year that makes you feel like the earth is alive and breathing .. everything is growing and turning green with wonderful colors in bloom .. kids outside playing and laughing .. kittens & puppies .. lots of people walking about just enjoying their little corner of the universe
Well once again I will be gone for a bit .. I just got back and have to go again .. doctors dont think it will be long now.
By for now
Keep up the wonderful work ladies .. you are all in my thoughts.
Laura



