Sheila- first off:
to the Maintainers Forum!
First off - IMO, you DON'T need to spend another dollar, let alone $300, to LAWL or anyone you don't trust. I read your previous posts and to me it sounds as though the salesperson possibly did what is called a "bait and switch" to get you to enroll, thinking that they would be able to persuade you to re-up once the weeks ended.
If you feel it necessary to spend the money, I would encourage you to spend it on something more useful, such as a gym membership - check out the
YMCA - I see that you're a mom/wife/mom to be - I've never joined the Y but I've heard WONDERFUL things from other folks (both here at 3FC and in 'real life') what a great place it is for families - most even offer *free* or very low cost childcare for kids from 8 weeks to 12 years old while you're working out - how cool is that? (actually I take that back - during my first marriage my stepdaughter attended Y day camp during the summer and had a very good experience, plus the price was very reasonable
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As far as your fears of gaining the weight back - we've ALL gone thru that here in Maintainers - check out some of the threads here and I bet you'll relate
My first piece of advice would be to wean yourself off the bars and subsitute *real* food - maybe save the bars for occasional use - when you don't have time for a meal or snack, you know? (yeah I know...Luna Bars are natural and all that, but IMO they're too close to a candy bar for comfort - trust me, you DON'T want to rely on eating a candy bar or two each day and hope to maintain and continue to lose - my guess is that if you give up the bars and substitute for something like, say, a piece of fruit like an apple along with a protein such as cottage cheese (here's a yummy quick recipe for ya - chop up an apple, mix in some pie spice and Splenda - pop the mixture in the microwave for a couple minutes until it's hot and bubbly - meanwhile get a serving of cottage cheese and add cinnamon and Splenda (if you don't like curds, use a hand blender to puree the cottage cheese); when the apples are nice and hot, blend the cold cottage cheese with the hot apples...voila - healthy HOT APPLE PIE! :yum: ) that you will maintain and probably even LOSE the weight you couldn't lose when you were eating the bars.
SO many resources here...check out the
Maintainer's Library and you'll find the archived posts from a book discussion our Meg ran last year on the EXCELLENT book
Thin for Life by Anne Fletcher. You can get a lot out of reading the threads, but I would highly recommend getting the book - check your local library or Amazon for used copies (I know raising kids takes a lot of $$ so save those pennies!!!)
I know that others will have ideas...glad to see you here, stick around...the water's fine!