Dagmar, I know, I never understand when certain colors go on sale. Are they just "undesirable" and thus not selling well? I buy a bunch of these colors in electronics. Enjoy the iced coffee! Yum.

Allison, glad Chico likes his new toys. Nothing like a little spoiling from Mom when things are different. Glad the portioning is working well for you! In an ideal world I could do this too. In practice, doesn't always happen, but I'm better about it than I used to be. Good for you for getting your snacking under control.

My day started off with a really good cup of iced coffee. I've got to find a faster/better way to strain the coffee when it's finished brewing, but I like the Pioneer Woman method. I'm hoping to shake off this funk (I was in a bad mood all day yesterday) today. I've got book club with the girls tonight, and that always helps brighten my day! I did tell bf last night we need to take a break from the bar scene. He was amenable and mentioned fixing his bike tube so we can go biking together. :)

Hope everyone has a great and slimming week! :bike2:

Still holding at my above goal weight. I had to try 3 pairs of pants yesterday to find one that I could fasten ! I hate it ! I have friends that look like a stick figure and eat anything they want. Anything. They are alway whining, "I just can't gain weight, no matter what I do ". Wanna trade ?
How is Chico this morning ? And Rosie, too. I hope they are both recovering well and adapting.

Becky, I noticed that the posts were climbing up there, too. It seems this thread has filled a niche , I hope we can keep it going.

Allison-- glad Chico is enjoying his new toys too.

My Jozi wasn't feeling at all well this morning. The allergies are horrendous here (my dd is miserable) so I'm thinking that may be it. She was coughing and choking and just wanted to go out and eat grass. Dewey didn't get it, and just ran around her, jumping and barking. I find it a little disconcerting that I mention my doggie feeling ill when my dd also feels crummy!

Busy week again for us. We leave Thursday night to go to Spokane for dd's graduation. It is/will be stressful for many reasons. Thursday night the four of us will be sleeping in dd's one bedroom apartment on the floor or couch. Should be great fun. The two dd's don't get along well so we are always refereeing. Then, my inlaws are due to arrive sometime Friday. Graduation is Sunday (mom's day) and younger dd and I return Monday (by plane). Older dd and dh are going to drive down with dd's cat-- should be interesting-- they're going to try to drive straight through.

My weight is 4 pounds up from where I like to see it. I'd love it to be a little lower before we leave as I may not get much exercise when we're gone.

Hope everyone has a great week!!

When my mother & I went down to Pennsylvania yesterday, to see my aunt and retrieve my chest of drawers, we stopped off at a Kentucky Fried Chicken to get a bucket of chicken. (My aunt loves this chicken & it would be a treat for her.) I was okay with this, because I'd already made my salad for lunch, and it was in a cooler in the car. This was a good salad, no, an excellent salad, a bed of baby spinach with roasted vegetables, steamed lentils, quinoa, and for topping, some plain roasted pecans, some crumbles of goat cheese & a few Craisins, topped with a bit of Shiitake vinaigrette.

Still, the chicken smelled ridiculously good. And the biscuits ... oh, Lord, sometimes it's very hard ... that's all I will say ... No, I didn't eat any. It just isn't an option.

We were in line behind a pack of young girls ordering a bucket of chicken -- slender girls in cutoffs and t-shirts and flipflops, with skinny tanned legs up to there. Yes, they were going to eat that chicken and clearly had eaten it before.

At that moment, Bargoo, believed me, I shared your feelings -- no matter how delicious I knew my salad would be. I thought, "As far as metabolisms go, it's a Calvinist's universe -- there are the damned and the saved -- and I am clearly one of the damned, cause I just can't (and therefore won't) eat the Colonel's recipe."

I have screwy eating for as long as I can remember. Always, taste this, isn't it good, now stop eating you are getting fat

always secretive eating always bad esteem r/t lack of control
poor food choice= bad/ unworthy person

always wanting to be very thin/ taught one can never be too rich or too thin...

binge for me vs. bad choices and too much eating = a crazed compulsive reaching and shoveling almost out of body sensation

people talk about getting an ED. I cannot remember a time that I did not have disordered eating or thoughts about food. maybe age 3 or 4
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back to edit and say that I have a strong awareness and that helps but must stay forever vigilant on every level

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another edit to say yesterday was somewhat out of control resulting in controlled eating of foods I knew would do me no good

post weekend scale blip x 4lbs
will likely take all week to get back down

That's my motto , too but there are times when I just want to say "Screw it".
If I do that, and sometimes do, I pay for it not only weight wise but emotionally, too.

Chico had a pretty good weekend, but he's not feeling so hot today. First he didn't seem interested in eating, but after I handed him once piece of food, he ate it all and came in for his meds and a treat. But he hasn't pooped yet this morning, despite three trips outside. I've got a call into the vet because his bandages have shifted off of the incision and I think he needs to have it redressed. Waiting for a call back to see when he can go in for that. But that is another dilemma. While he's able to get into the car with no problems, getting out is another story. I think it is due to Saturday night when he jumped off the bed and cried out in pain. Last night he slept on the floor with very little coaxing to do so. I think he remembers the pain. And the car, even being much lower than our bed, seemed to evoke that same memory in him. So if I have to take him to the vet, that's two times getting out of the car. And then one more when we go home tonight. Ugh.

Thankfully we don't have a KFC around here! But that doesn't mean the grocery stores don't sell it and I swear they pump the fried chicken smell all over just to sell more of it! I think the last time I had fried chicken I had one piece and it was good and then I felt icky from all the fat. And I really dislike their biscuits--too dry for me. Give me Pillsbury any day!

Allison have you tried Pillsbury Grands ? OMG, I have to ask for heavenly protection when I walk past that display case.

Don't get me started on biscuits ... DH is continually messing with his near-perfect buttermilk biscuit recipe. His last experiement with adding asiago cheese and grated onion almost did me in. :drool:

Becky, that sounds insanely good

Fortunately California is a long way from Michigan that keeps me away when biscuits are baking !

Yeah, Grands are great! I actually bought some last fall for use in a recipe. Prior to that it'd been years since I bought them. And asiago cheese and onion would do me in as well. I can't make biscuits from scratch, they always turn out too dry or crumbly. But I could put the cheese and onion (and maybe some bacon) on the Grands before baking...Yeah, not going to do that.

Yikes! I read through wanting to remind Saef that KFC is nasty! And then there's biscuit porn??? Wooohoooo, ladies! :lol:

Remember: junk food is not a treat.

Your salad sounds great, Saef.

I'm feeling very aware of the fact that good food keeps cravings at bay and junk food amplifies cravings (for me at least).

It's a tough tough road to walk. :hug: to all.

I'm just catching up from Friday...

Saef - I have 'gained' 5-7 pounds of water after a solid workout. I've also discovered that even at my lowest in recent months when I felt great and my tummy looked slim I'm still 6-8 pounds higher than I was a two years ago, and that I credit to muscle. I think it was Meg who gained 8 or 10 pounds when she started weight training?


Oh this is me... I may only eat 500 calories instead of the 1000s that people describe in a binge, but I have the out of control, have to have it, can't make myself stop it feel.

I can't remember a time when I didn't have troubles with food. An old friend from elementary school reconnected with me last year and the first thing she said to me in our 'catch up' email was "Do you still hide food under your bed?" I almost cried. That is what she remembers most about me, and we were friends for 15 years.

Woo! Biscuit porn! And yes a tough road...


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Okay - I had a terrible weekend. I overate on Friday, was set to stay within cals then something went awry and we went out to dinner. Saturday I could have been fine, but I snacked all stupid day and didn't exercise. Sunday we got takeout for lunch and ordered pizza for dinner and I didn't exercise. I laid down on the bed and took a nap instead of running.

We saw the Avengers on Friday. Fabulous movie. While we were in the movie DSS got suspended. Again. For the second time last week. He was suspended Wed and couldn't go back until Fri, suspended Fri and had to stay home today. i stayed with him until after lunch, just took him back to his mom. I have no idea what to do anymore - at this point he is just being deliberately mean. He mirrors behaviors he sees around him, and now he has dived into bullying. I was more angry about that than anything else - he bullied a boy who trusted him and called him friend, because he wanted to be mean. It makes me sick. I don't know what to do anymore.

And if I can't get my weight and exercise back under control I'm going to lose my mind.