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Originally Posted by saef
[Leaning my forehead against my laptop screen so that it touches your post, as I seek to read your mind through the ether.]
Does this help? It feels like it's all about me, and not enough about you. My question for you would be, how do you know when you have taken on too much, and something just has to give? What feelings do you have & what symptoms do you display? When those come on, you should ask less of yourself. That could mean relaxing in other parts of your life, but an easy one to cross off the list would be heavy restriction of one's food or a sort of constant, tension-ridden vigilance regarding your scale.
If you're okay now, try living a little lower for a while. But set an end date for the experiment & be really really honest with yourself when assessing your feelings & working out the tradeoffs.
I think you'll figure it out for yourself quite ably. You have always seemed to me in your posts to have good instincts & a good level of self-awareness.
Oh, boy, you did read my mind. See, part of the problem right now and the reason I'm up 5 from my low weight is that I'm asking waaaay to much of myself and what's giving is the taking care of me part. I haven't gained past my red line, but I'm flirting quite closely with it. With 4 kids and all of their end of the year stuff (2 volley teams, karate, music, therapists, tournaments, homework, boy problems, tech teams, etc), I'm slipping a bit. But, what I found was that I actually like this 5lbs. I feel a little "juicier," so to speak (ew, I know). So, I think that now's the time to rein it in, but not try to get back down to the low weight.
I really like that you said I need to have an end date to the experiment - I don't want to get past the point of no return. Thanks, Saef!