I've had a few things I wanted to get down but wasn't sure where to post. In the forum, in the weekly thread, Operation 5-10 or elsewhere, so thought I'd try to do a post here of my own, hope that's ok.
Firstly on Saturday morning I had a mini meltdown and I'm hoping you're all not going to look at me aghast because I really need to know I'm not alone or totally over the top
During my weight loss journey I adjusted to having small portions of the things I call treat foods, and only occasionally. At Christmas it was hard with all the foods that we only can find here once a year, but on the whole I did great. We bought a Stollen (sp?) which is sort of a sweet bread, dried fruit and marzipan topped with icing sugar. We never ended up opening this until the weekend before last and I had one slice on the Saturday and one on the Sunday and enjoyed every mouthful. There was about half of this stollen left which I wrapped and put away for this last weekend, thinking I could do the same and would be happy I'd had my fill til next Christmas. Friday night DH was working a late shift and that stollen was calling me very loudly, but knowing what I'm like with my old binge tendencies and eating alone I knew it could turn ugly, so told myself no and promised myself to wait and have my share with DH and DD over the weekend. Saturday morning I got up, felt great, was already looking forward to that slice of stollen to come. I came downstairs to find a plate on the side in the kitchen.... icing sugar on that plate..... I told DH I hope he hadn't eaten ALL the stollen because I'd been saving it for us to share over the weekend. He had...
I completely went into meltdown mode! For a start, DH needs to lose weight, like 40lbs, but just like I couldn't lose the weight til I was ready, it seems nothing I can do encourages him to do it either. But he'd eaten approx half of the stollen alone!
I ranted that he was selfish and told him how I'd not eaten any myself the night before. I told him that he should know how much I love stollen and how I'd been looking forward to it this weekend. And then I went upstairs and cried...
I actually felt panic and despair because I knew that I wouldn't be able to get anymore of this stollen til next Christmas!
Now granted, after about half an hour I calmed down and told myself that at least I'd been able to have some the week before, and it was one less temptation to face this weekend, but still, I couldn't believe my extreme reaction to the whole thing, it actually frightened me. After all, it's an item of food!
And before I go off now and hide from the stollen meltdown police I wanted to ask, how do you all post replies on the other threads and not miss anyone out? I see all your posts on the threads and I feel like a really bad 3FC chickie because I don't often reply to others, but I just can't seem to do it. Do you have two windows open and read through the thread in one and forumulate your reply in another so you can reply to everyone in order, or is it just that I really can't multitask? I lose track of who's posts I've read and by the time I get to the end I can't remember who said what and feel all confused!