[AprilValBBW]

Hello Everyone! My name is April Val. I am 23 years old from Northeastern Indiana. I have been struggling with my weight pretty much since I was 18, when my parents split. I was still in school, so I was stuck between the two parents I loved the most. Once I moved in with my mom a year later, I started to lose weight. Then I got a boyfriend who was emotionally abusive. Said nasty things, and always wanted to chat on MY computer with other girls while he was at my moms house. I was up and down from age 18 to age 22. I met my fiance in 2003. I was in between a size 16 and an 18. He made me comfortable unlike most of my boyfriends, so I could eat in front of him. He has given me my confidence back and has helped me with my broken hearts that Ive had over the years. He is the love of my life, and I dont know what I would do without him. Then the summer of 05, my dad got sick and died. I figured I woudl lose weight, but I was wrong. I gained weight. I had to deal with the jealousy of my siblings. They were all mad at me because I has 22 solid years with him. But when things got rough I chose to spend the time with him. I knew he was sick and would end up dying. I took care of him for pratically 5 years on my own. Me being the baby of NINE kids. So there were lots of hard feelings. I have been alone alot in the last year in a half other than my moms kids whom are 3 of the 9, and my Fiance. They have been there for me more than anyone has. My one sister on my dads side is starting to come around. But not before blaming me for things. Things like that is what hurts me and some how encourages me to eat.. So I am hoping with some support from people who really do understand that I will be able to lose the weight I want to lose. I want to get in shape for when I DO decide to have children, And I want to lose weight before I get married. We were supposed to get married August 13, 2005 but my dad died 2 weeks before, so I couldnt. I just havent had the heart yet to even attempt to get married. But I am hoping by 2005 I will be comfortable enough to do so.. Only time will tell. I hope to get the chance to meet lots of people. Thank you for taking ur time to read my story..

[cinnomanbratz]

Well,
I'm not sure if you are still looking for a weight loss buddy but if you are I would love to help. Hi we kinda have opposite problem see what happens with me is I don't eat when something happens but when the problems are resolved I had been starving myself for so long I begin to binge like crazy and eat everything that is in sight. I want someone who will be an encouragement and also someone who I can encourage. On that note don't worry you too will get married, remember its what your father wants he wants you to be happy especially with this amazing guy. But for right now lets work on you how you feel and what you want out of the relationship that hopefully you and me can create. I've been married for two years doesn't seem very long considering I've known my husband since I was five. One thing I've learned is that you don't want to bring yourself into a marriage if you haven't dealt with yourself. I've always had self confidence issues you see I'm shaped different than most people I'm very bottom heavy and even when I do reach my ideal weight I am still going to be different. Along with the rejection I've always felt from most women/girls I just never had that confidence I want and being married didn't exactly help that out especially when I started to gain wieght after my son was born. I will tell you more later...

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