I'm all alone here
 

I'm all alone here. And crying. I have these tremendous mood swings from day to day. Well, not tremendous. Just some days I can pretend I'm ok and other days I can't. Today, I can't.

I'm at my wits end and don't know where to go. Who to talk to. Who can give me support. I really am crying through tears as I write this. I just don't know any more. I don't think I CAN any more. I try to lose weight. I try, and try, and try. And it's not that it's life threatening in an urgent fashion. I'm 5'5 and weigh about 220 pounds. That's a lot. Especially for someone with a small frame like me. But I see people on TV and think what is wrong with me? These people who truly need help, and who find the strength to get fitter. Lose weight. Save their lives. If they can do it, then for crying out loud what's wrong with me?

I am so alone. But this post isn't about that yet. I've never posted on a forum that dealt with overeating. I always thought I could do it myself. But I can't. I hate myself so much. I truly do. I need so much help for so many different reasons. Can someone here please tell me that it's going to be ok? Please? Someone tell me I'm not alone. Please. Someone tell me that I'll get over my horrible binge eating habits. Someone point me in the right direction. God. Please. I'm sorry. This just isn't a good day. I'm tired of binging. I'm tired of not being in control. But I don't have the strength to stop. I truly am all alone. I need support. I am not enough. I don't know what else to say yet.

Please help.

Michael

Oh Michael, you've come to the right place!

I think we've all been where you are, and it DOES get better! Not only will we give you all the support we can, but since we're all losing weight different ways, you can learn all sorts of things and decide what's right for you.

Big big hugs to you. Write it out. Get it out. Ask any and all questions that you want. I promise to help :)

Hi

I'm not yet as successful a dieter as star princess but I just wanted to add another post of support and let you know that people are there for you

Dill

:)

Michael--

I too wanted to post and let you know that you're not alone!

You will find all the support you need here. Any question you have, someone here will have an answer. This site has been a great place for support and encouragement for me and I just know that it will for you too. I hope you keep coming back, we would all love to help you out in any way that we can!

As you browse around, you will see huge successes (such as Starprincess) which can be a great motivation to get going and to keep going. I know it has for me....I'm still working on it, and it can be a struggle at times, but coming here has been great for those moments I feel lost. I've made many friends as you will too!

Just know that you're NOT alone and that we ALL welcome you here!! Come and vent and just let it all out anytime you need!!

Sending big hugs from me too!!

Marti

Hi Micheal --

You've made a great first step by coming to this forum and talking about what's bothering you... You can't do it alone, no one can, that's why we're all here... This place for me has been the best motivator...

If a place like this wonderful forum can't help you. Get real professional help. Don't be shy just do it... Binging is an awful place to be and asking for help is no easy task but we can't do it alone...

Have you read any of Dr. Phil's books... or any self help books... The library is full of interesting healthy books..."Diary of a Fat Housewife" is EXCELLENT, I can't remember the author's name though...It's written so well about how she battled her food :devil:...

Just keep coming back here and we'll help you in any way we can...

Keep in touch...

TTFN :grouphug:

I was almost too scared to come back here today. I was afraid no one would respond. Thank you all. That's all I can say tonight. I'm just drained. It's been a rough autumn, winter, and spring.

Going to bed now. Going to come back tomorrow with, I hope, a clearer head. Do you know what has me scared at the moment? Really scared? I bought Dr. Phil's new book and it hasn't helped me at all. I thought it would. I don't find it motivating. I'm worried that I've just given up.

Is it a drug? It is a drug. I'm an addict. Sometimes I catch myself wishing I were handcuffed to a bed - like an addict. Does that sound hard to do? Extreme? I wish it were that easy. What in me made food a drug?

Michael

Hello again Michael--

Don't ever feel scared to come here, there is always someone here to talk to.

Your post sound so sad...and I really wish that we could help you lift you up. I agree with Lanaii1, that if you can't get the help your looking for here, maybe getting professional help can be a good thing.

Feel free to PM me anytime you just want to talk.....just to let it out. It always helps to have someone to talk to.

Take care and hope to hear more from you.

Marti

Michael

You are not alone!!! Never alone!! You can always come here and get the support you need!! I was at my wits end when I started coming here! I'm just now beginning to regain my self confidence back and it's wonderful!! The wonderful people on these forums have helped me and encouraged me so much!! I do hope you'll stay with us and find the support that you so desperately need :)
If you need to talk you can PM me I know how important it is to have people to talk to about these things!!
Michelle

Michael -

I'm so glad you came back! For most of us, food is comfort and reassurance and in a sense, safety. It's no wonder that so many of us have developed an unhealthy relationship with it when all of our lives it's been used to put us to sleep, stop us from crying, reward us, and just generally make us feel better. It takes work to redefine that ingrained belief system.

But we're here for you. Whenever you want to talk and whatever you want to talk about. Like Marti said, feel free to PM any of us any time you want if you want to talk about something you don't feel like posting.

I hope you're having a good monday :)

Michael--Come back!!

Well now I know I'm not alone. I came here because I feel the same way Michael feels. But not so extreme. But I have been there. I too never post on any forums. I really don't know where to start. I'm 31 years old I have 4 children. I just gave birth to a beautyful baby boy in April. I'm 5'7 276 lbs. And I need to get moving. I've been a big girl all my life and I'm tired. No I'm not depressed and I know after haveing a baby it takes a while to get in shape. But I was already big so I just poured gas on the fire :)Michael I feel your pain and this is the first step, and I'm taking it with you. God bless
K.I.T
Rea

Michael - I just joined 3fc too. I have to say that I have been where you were. But 3fc gave me hope. This IS the place to come for support. Every single person who I have spoken with on here has been such a source of comfort. (Better comfort than I've EVER gotten from a Twinkie or a piece of pizza) Hang in there. Remember that admitting that you can't do this alone is the first step on the way to actually achieving your goal! Please never hesitate to PM me or email me. I wish I could give you a huge hug and tell you that IT WILL GET BETTER. And you are NEVER alone!! The best thing I can tell you - whether you actually are on a plan already - or just here for inspiration - KEEP COMING BACK. We are all here for you.

Come back, come back, Michael!

Michael- I yo yo'd with my weight all my life. Star Princess is right to say it's how we rewarded ourselves, put us to sleep, etc. It may be time to put in a new life tape. I'm glad you found this forum as I have only been here a week and I like it.

StarPrincess- I viewed your profile...WOW! You are an inspiration and quite wise.

Reaferg- I'm from Michigan as well. Tired of gray skies yet?

I appreciate everyone's support no matter who's going through what in their life. Thanks All! ;)

You all are so so wonderful. God, I've been away. I said I would come back, but it was too hard. But now I'm here. I don't know how to take a chance on anyone any more. It's hard for me to believe that anyone can help me any more. Do I need professional help? Probably. But I'm powerless at the moment to do that, and that sounds like an excuse but it's less an excuse than you might think if I filled in all the details but I can't. I can't.

You're outpourings have meant so much to me. I am no better than I was when I initially posted - perhaps worse. But you all ARE here, and I need you, and no, I can't do this alone. I can't do this alone. I can't. But you all are so far away, intangible. Can someone please just say a prayer for me? Please?

I'll try to come back tomorrow. Oh God. Thank you all. I've never been such a wreck ever.

Michael

Jesus it there with you
 

I don't know what your religious beliefs are, and I do not intend to offend, but if you are a christian, Jesus is there with and for you. Now He won't come and perfom a miracle and take away all that excess weight, but He will be there to encourage You. Let me personalize a Scripture for you and write a prayer from that Scripture and hope that helps. Remember you are not alone.
Proverb 16:3
Michael, entrust your works to the Lord, and your plans will succeed.

Prayer
Heavenly Father, I entrust my weight loss to You, because You have promised in YOur Word, that if I do my plans will succeed. Grant me the success YOu have promised in Jesus Name. Amen.

My husband went to a Lightweigh weight loss program. It is based on the Catholic faith, but all faiths are welcomed. Try this. Only eat when you are hungry, I mean stomach growling hungry! Eat only about a clenched fist of food, because that is the size of your stomach when it is shrunk to it's normal size, when tempted to eat unite that temptation to the Cross of Christ as a sacrifice for yourslef, another person or a situation. Try it. WHat have you got to lose, except excess weight. My husband and I will keep you in our prayers.

Just keep coming back, baby. Talk to us. Get to know us. Let us get to know you. We're all here for you.

Big huge hugs to you!

A prayer I wrote hope it helps you
 

I wrote this prayer for my husband and I and would like to share it with you I hope it helps. God Bless you and remember to take things one meal at a time because for some of us it's even too hard to take things a whole day at a time. Some of us are emotional eaters and we use food to self medicate or to cure boredom or to be our friend, or to relieve stress, or to help us get over being lonely or whatever is our need. We turn to food for comfort. So I wrote this prayer to help my husband and I. Michael you may want to consider joining a support group such as Weight Watchers, TOPS, or a christian one like First Place or a catholic one like Lightweigh. You may want to check their websites or call the local churches to see where they may have meetings in your area.

Heavenly Father, I eat and often am not satisfied. Help me to discern the hunger of my soul with the hunger of my body. Help me to eat only when physically hungry and stop when full and satisfied. If I am not satisfied, or if I want to eat when not hungry, help me to discern my need and bring it to You. Heavenly Father, You are the only One who can truly satisfy my soul. Amen.

Michael -

Hi. I just joined about a half hour ago, and I wanted you to know that I know where you are coming from. I have days where I feel completely out of control and it seems like I just can't stop myself from eating. I need to lose 150 lbs, so I have a VERY long road ahead of me. Please come back and talk some more. I haven't met anyone yet (being a member for 30 minutes at 1AM will do that!) but just from reading some of the posts I feel like the people here will help me. Remember that it is a daily process, and every day gives us a new chance to try. If you have a bad day, leave it behind you and try again the next day. Don't give up hope.

GwenDL