[Addiction]

Ok, so I am hoping that by posting on a forum like this that maybe it will help me , like if I can start typing maybe I won't be snacking . My weight has gotten crazy out of control I am 210 lbs I am at the point where I hate myself , I eat until I feel sick, my body hurts and I just can't stop it seems . So here we go can't stop trying , right? No one knows how much I snack and how much I hate myself at the moment. I would like to keep it this way I would just rather fix the problem now before I start emotionally breaking down completely .....and I feel that is just around the corner . I have no will power it turns out lol I never dreamed I could get this big but here I am . So I am hoping this online journal thing will help. Night is my problem I just sit down and eat like an entire bag of cookies I feel sick after and hate myself and the whole time I tell myself "no ,stop it !" but then I just continue on my merry munching way . I snack all night long till like 1am . Why do I do this? Why can't I stop? I am not dealing with any emotional baggage . I have a very happy life and am not depressed from anything but my weight , so why can't I get a hold of this!!! It's so hard and I am so upset , I just think about it all day now and how I need to lose like 70 pounds before I will feel comfortable again, the road seems so long and impossible at this point so I always end up giving up before I even start . Ok hopefully this time it sticks ! Have to try at least , so tomorrow is a new day ,

[olivia1228]

Originally Posted by Addiction

Ok, so I am hoping that by posting on a forum like this that maybe it will help me , like if I can start typing maybe I won't be snacking . My weight has gotten crazy out of control I am 210 lbs I am at the point where I hate myself , I eat until I feel sick, my body hurts and I just can't stop it seems . So here we go can't stop trying , right? No one knows how much I snack and how much I hate myself at the moment. I would like to keep it this way I would just rather fix the problem now before I start emotionally breaking down completely .....and I feel that is just around the corner . I have no will power it turns out lol I never dreamed I could get this big but here I am . So I am hoping this online journal thing will help. Night is my problem I just sit down and eat like an entire bag of cookies I feel sick after and hate myself and the whole time I tell myself "no ,stop it !" but then I just continue on my merry munching way . I snack all night long till like 1am . Why do I do this? Why can't I stop? I am not dealing with any emotional baggage . I have a very happy life and am not depressed from anything but my weight , so why can't I get a hold of this!!! It's so hard and I am so upset , I just think about it all day now and how I need to lose like 70 pounds before I will feel comfortable again, the road seems so long and impossible at this point so I always end up giving up before I even start . Ok hopefully this time it sticks ! Have to try at least , so tomorrow is a new day ,

Maybe we can support each other I am exactly like you and I am once again committing to doing this . I am going to go to the store and get my self on track again. I feel so hopeless too but I want to change this.

[theox]

Hi Addiction, welcome to 3FC!

Willpower is overrated. FWIW, I've found trying to put good structures in place, educating myself about good choices, and then making those choices as they have to be made more effective.

Good luck!

[thinwhiteduchess]

Hi Addiction, I think you will find that a place like this helps you stay on track. The forum is a great panic button--before you feel like doing anything rash, poke around here a bit, read some inspiring progress stories, and remember what you really want.

The process happens different for all of us, but at the very least, should you need encouragement, reach out!