If at 1st (or 2nd, or 100th) you don't succeed ...
Hello - I'm here because I've been struggling with eating, exercising, and self-care more than I really want to think about over the past 5 years since my older son was born. My younger son is now 6 months old, and I'm ready to embrace try try again.
I'm 41, and lost a lot of weight in my late teens / early 20s. I had gained a lot of weight when I was 15/16 (80 lbs - from 130 to 210) due to anxiety and depression - I was a compulsive overeater. In my 20s, I really embraced exercise and maintained a weight between 145 - 160 until my early 30s. I was very active, though my eating and drinking would fluctuate, so I often felt that I wasn't in ideal shape (for me). When I got pregnant with my ist son, I was 175, which I thought was so high! Then I wavered between 195 and 205 after his birth, them my weight crept up to 220/225. During my second pregnancy, I gained at most 15 lbs, and lost it - now I am wavering between 220-224.
But I feel OLD. My body is struggling under this weight - my feet hurt! I have been overcompensating with my boredom, a lack of romance, and the emotional exertion of parenting with lots of wine and too much food!
But I also know that I want to be energetic again, and run races, and bike, and hike with my boys.
I wish that the weight would magically and quickly disappear - but I know that I need to count calories, and eat good food. Why does this feel so hard????
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