Aloha.. well.... here I am trying to get back to my old self... AGAIN. I am so beyond tired of going through this roller coaster over and over again. I'd like to say that this will be my last battle, but i don't trust that will be true.
I love to be active, but I have had several medical issues and injuries over the past few years.. and coming up to the big 5-0 I started gaining weight back again.. But this time I try to fight it off..and nothing is happening. I am desperate. The extra weight makes me feel worthless and it adds to my chronic pain.
I LOVE food.. especially if its not good for me and I use it as a crutch.
Example.. today I saw myself in the dressing room mirror. Self loathing immediately followed.. and now eating bowls full of cereal.
pity party for 1 tonight.. Tomorrow is another day... right?


jaedid! You are not alone on that roller coaster! Many of us here have been through it. In my late 40's (I'm 54 now) I felt the exact same way as you, but I've jumped back on a couple of times since then. This time I feel like I have a much better understanding of how my body operates and I definitely have more determination! And a dressing room mirror is enough to make almost any of us want to drown ourselves in cereal, lol!
Just take this one step at a time so you don't become overwhelmed or burn yourself out quickly. First decide what diet plan you want to use (counting calories, going low carb, eating whole foods, doing Weight Watchers or some other sponsored weight loss plan, etc.) Once you have that down and feel comfortable with the plan you've chosen (my plan made ALL the difference for me! I finally found one well-suited to me), then you can start adding in some exercise. You mentioned medical issues. Just do what you can. Weight loss is 80% diet and 20% exercise, so you can do this! People here will help you! Good luck!
Guess I will be busy reading up! MauiKai: So happy to see another kama'aina
And, UncleRodge, thank you for the hope! I really needed that right now 