Hi everyone,
I've been lurking here for a little while, but I've finally mustered up the confidence to post and introduce myself.
I'm absolutely desperate to lose some weight, as I'm just so fed up with myself! I'd been gradually gaining weight since my teens, but when my first child was born 3 years ago she had some health problems and I struggled to cope, and ate for comfort and escapism. My weight rocketed up, with me in total denial. It wasn't until I saw a particularly unflattering photo of myself that I even seemed to realise what had happened! I'd fallen into a horrible pattern of bingeing and not taking very good care of myself, and didn't feel that I had any time or energy to change anything.
I joined weightwatchers and did lose 2 stones, but I regained quite a lot of it whilst pregnant with my second child, who is now 6 months old. Unfortunately my second baby also had some issues and once again I've been massively over-eating to try and feel better. You would really think I'd know that it doesn't work by now.
Sometimes it almost feels like my bingeing is about self harm and disliking myself, and being overweight is like having a cloak of invisibility to hide in.
Anyway, I've decided I've really had enough now. I need to take better care of myself or else my family will suffer, and I desperately want to be healthy for them. And I know it's vain but I also really want to look better and wear some nice clothes!
I'm doing weightwatchers again as it worked well for me previously. I've also started a couch to 5k running program - it's still very early days but I'm enjoying it (I've never really exercised before).
Sorry, I didn't mean to waffle on when I started writing this! I'm joining here for support and accountability, and hopefully to start this journey for the last time.
Xx

EnolaAlone! I'm so sorry to hear your babies had health issues, but you are so right: You need to be healthy for them! I'm so glad you finally joined our community. You'll find lots of support here! Be sure to visit the WW forum, where you can discuss your WW journey with others on the same plan. And great job starting the couch to 5k program! You can do this! Good luck!
