I don't understand how I have gotten to this point. Well I do. I guess. I just can't believe that I have. I must acknowledge it though. It's time to get serious. I have been told that while i have risks, I have not fallen into diabetes, cholesterol, etc. My blood count is so low though. This is being affected by polyps that cannot be removed until I lose weight. The procedure would put me at risk of too many complication. I was told to not even think about pregnancy as it would be a disease on top of this disease.
I want to enjoy being center stage and not hide or cry bc I feel like an ogre. I want to choose my wedding dress instead of just being draped with fabric that fits. I want to be able to sing without ppl judging the body it comes from.
I know my thoughts are scattered, but these are on going thoughts in my mind. I have joined this forum in hopes to have some direction.
I managed to lose 30 lbs by myself, but that went the opposite direction when i had surgery for gallbladder removal. I know I can do it again and go further, but I want a healthier way to approach it. maybe you lovely ppl can help?
excited to be part of the forum!
it's time to get serious.
good luck on your journey!
