Signed up after reading forums for a couple weeks..
I figured after 2 weeks of finding some solace in this place, and seeing that other people go through the same crazy thought processes I do every so often, I may as well become a member so I can input every once in a while. I'm 27, I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. My highest weight was 262, when I was 23, and I decided something needed to be done. I spent 8 months at weight watchers doing really well, keeping it mostly a secret besides from my mom whom I tell everything, and my other half at the time who was extremely supportive. I've always lived alone so making food decisions was very easy. I left WW and continued to do very well on my own, getting down to 174 at my very lowest. I worked my butt off (literally) because I was going on my first vacation that required a bathing suit, and after all my hard work, I wasn't going to accept anything less than walking around in a 2 piece. I barely wore anything else the entire time, it was glorious. That was in March of 2012, probably the happiest I've ever been with myself. Since then however, it has been a steady stream of slips and falls and when I went to Mexico last december for christmas I was 194. Not looking large because I had discovered that I absolutely love the olympic style weight-lifting and had a trainer. So a few pounds heavier than I would have liked the scale to say, but comfortable in a bathing suit, and muscles to boot I survived christmas vacation. Since then I have moved in with my boyfriend (whom I met on vacation and fell almost instantly in love with) and was going to try not to weigh myself every single day to rely on a number to verify my happiness, and just simply "be good about eating"...Fast forward two months, I got on someone elses scale for fun?! Weighing in at a whopping 223. The heaviest I've been in 4 years, and the most I've hidden from cameras in my entire life. I hate to think that all of my hard work is gone but it pretty much has. So, I'm here for group support because it has always helped me to see other people succeed and have input from other people. I like working out alright, but food is my major issue. Hiding from it is not an option as I'm a chef and I literally cook all night long. I'm really good during the day, I start work at 3pm and suddenly I forget that I ate a healthy meal before I started and eat every french fry and sample the soup de jour without hesitation.I'm here for help.
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