Last time I was a member, I lost 80 pounds! (LONG)
Hello again, chicks.
In late 2006 and into 2008, I lost 80 pounds. I was a pretty much a healthy mid 20-something that had just moved back to my homeland after moving 1500 miles for a bad relationship and all of my early 20s. I wanted to show my ex (who had gotten seriously into weightlifting and dieting and lost mega weight himself) that I was something he didn't want to forget. In fact, that was the fuel to my fire. I worked out 2 hours a day and tracked my calories. During which, my body went haywire. My thick hair started falling out and what I had left, started standing up. My eyebrows, eyelashes and nose hair fell out also. I turned pale as a ghost.
Not having insurance, I only guessed it was my thyroid, but when I did go to the doctor, he said I was anemic and my thyroid was in normal limits. I have had PCOS out of high school with almost constant heavy bleeding, but I also had every symptom of hypothyroidism. But having gone from 260 pounds down to 199, I felt great. And instead of going back to my ex, who I had no contact with for those almost 2 years, I went on dating website and did meet my current fiancé.
My fiancé and I worked out together and commuted back and forth to see each once a week, one of us would drive the 2.5 hours one-way to see the other. During that time, my ex saw the picture of me and my now fiancé on Facebook and all but begged me back. I said no. And my current and I had a fantastic courtship and have now been together going on 6 years. In that time, (a year into our relationship the driving and working out stopped. We moved in together) we have both gained back all our weight plus some. Now with a beautiful ring on my finger, I have no urge to wedding plan.
The weight has kept me down. So down, I am embarrassed to leave my house unless I go to work, and even then, I'm bullied, scared and ashamed.
I am 31. I don't know what has happened to my body - since my hair, eyelashes and eyebrows still are so thin. I feel like I want to run and hide from everyone - even family.
I eat fast food almost daily, something I never did 4 years ago. I should be happy, but I'm not. And I can find no motivation to change my situation again.
When I was working out and couldn't find the motivation that day, so many years ago it seems, I would come to 3 fat chicks and read and look at photos. It helped me so much, I am hoping to have the same luck.
Thank you for reading this --- : )
Last edited by katertot_hotdish; 03-16-2014 at 10:57 AM.
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