Hellos and why I am here
Good morning everyone,
So I found this message board almost by accident, and thought I'd pop in and introduce myself. I personally find it inspiring to read about other's journeys, and wish to also share my story.
I am a 36 year old woman, have 2 kids (10 and 4), a great husband and work in the crazy world of real estate.
From about the 5th grade onward, I was always 10-20 pounds heavier than the ''normal'' kids. Being heavier than everyone else stuck with me, all through university. I was never a huge kid, nor was I ever considered ''hot''. This always bothered me. A lot.
When I reached 21, I went on a crazy diet (500 cals a day) - under the supervision of a real doctor if such a thing is possible (!). Although crazy, if I think back on my life, the happiest I recall being is exactly during that period, where I was at my thinnest. At that point I was 115 pounds. I felt amazing, had great confidence, wasn't considered ''chubby'', felt smoking hot, didn't avoid mirrors, enjoyed shopping for clothes, felt more confident in the presence of men, didn't mind being photographed, etc.
I was able to maintain my weight until I got pregnant with my first child. Then the chubbiness came back. I was able to get down to the 130's with huge effort....Then had my second child and got stuck in the 150's, where I am now.
I am now dedicated to losing this weight. I want to feel as fab as I did at my thinnest. As superficial as it might sound, my phychological well-being is directly linked to my weight. When overweight, I feel EXACTLY the way I did back in elementary school, when I didn't get picked in phys ed for example. I feel rejected, as if I'm a second class citizen. I know a lot of it is in my head though, because my friends are my friends. But, I also know that the perception of others is skewed when someone is overweight.
All this to say that I now want back my thinner body, and will not deviate from my goal!
I hope to continue to share with you, as I believe a strong support system is needed in order to stay focused.
Have a great day everyone!
MC
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