[Eddie85]

Hey I'm not sure if this website was strictly for woman lol. But I've been searching for a website where I can just talk to people about weight loss issues and depression stemming from it. I came across this one and browsed a couple of topics and decided to sign up. I just feel like I need help from people who might understand me a little better. I have the greatest friend and she is so supportive but I feel like its hard for her or other people to relate when they haven't had a problem with there weight. Soooo lol... my name is Eddie as you can see from my user name. I am 27 years old, I have actually lost a lot of weight already. I use to weight 473lbs, and I got down to 270 and was maintaining around 275-280 for about a year. Well in the past 3-4 months I have put on 40-50lbs. And I have been so depressed about it. I distance myself from people sometimes because I'm ashamed. And that makes me even more depressed. I was on a high when I lost all that weight, everywhere I went everyone was telling me how great I look. At work I got compliments all the time. I was really feeling good about myself and I had so much energy. I was even more proud that I did it on my own. I still had a lot of work to do but I was certainly getting there. Well now its like I cantget that motivation back and I really don't understand why. I keep restarting my diet and if I don't get the results right away that I was getting before I will get depressed. Then when that happens I eat horrible and gain even more weight. Its been this bad cycle for months now and I just keep putting on weight. I am currently 325 and I feel just as miserable as I did when I was 473. I feel like I get the looks I use to get when I was that big. Its because I know people were so focused on me when I was doing good, asking me questions all the time about my diet. And now that I'm doing bad I am all insecure and feel like people are staring at me thinking wow he is putting back on the weight. But okay lol sorry for the long introduction that turned into my miserable rant. But that's where I'm at right now and I just hope being a part of this message board I can somehow find that strength again to keep pushing.

[ikesgirl80]

Welcome Eddie! We have all been there, which is why we are all here! You came to the right place! My highest weight was 350 (at 5'8"), so I know how it feels to "feel the stares". Do you have a plan in place? For diet and exercise? Did you look at what was successful before and keep that? Did you figure out what derailed you and change/fix that? If you haven't, the people here are really good about dissecting things that stump me!

Oh, and someone will be by to make a comment about a rooster in the hen house!

[penmage]

Welcome!

[PatLib]

Just keep doing it, as someone who has depression issues I can tell you that exercising totally helps but it takes awhile. I feel like it took about two months before the endorphins kicked in and helped my mood.

[Tibbits2u]

hey neighbor *waves* welcome to 3fc ! I can relate to what your saying ..regains totally suck ! i've lost hundreds of pounds in my life only to regain it, after a regain i would avoid everyone. i would think that they were judging me for regaining. in truth i was actually judging me ..if that makes any sense. if losing weight was easy we would all be thin, sadly for most of us its a lifelong battle ! your friends will love you no matter what weight you are, life is far to short to hide yourself away ! get up dust yourself off and get out there !

[tapifish]

Hi Eddie,
I can totally identify with what ur saying my highest weight was 290 and on a 5'2 frame that's enormous I got to a point where I hated to even look in the mirror and that's when I decided(I was 18 then. Now 23) I had to take control of my life and started making healthier choices and once I did I saw changes begin to happen the weight just fell off and I got down to 220. I felt amazing and just like u all the compliments were comin my way. Then I begin nursing school and gained 30 lbs. But after I finished I easily got that off and eventually was down to 203. But then life happened and I was depressed, lonely, and just stuck in a rut and then came the binging cycle. I gained up to 220 which only made me more depressed. But I had to take control once again of my life and since last week I've lost 5 lbs. There is a point to the rambling..I swear. Life happens. It's gonna knock us down, but we have to make the choice to get back up and keep fighting. Also I'm new to this site too. Welcome Eddie and I know you can do it!

[Mozzy]

Welcome and good luck on your journey!!