Hi,
So I have been struggling with this for a loong time, but it has never been this bad. I was actually always the girl with a ton of curves but no muscle tone; I got away with it because my stomach was incredibly flat and my cheekbones are so defined (made my face seem small). Basically, I looked GREAT in a 12/14.
Soo....a few gym memberships, WW registration fees, bouts with bulimia, drowning my sorrows in (high calorie!) cocktails, I finally realize...
I have a job interview. Time to pull out the dressy clothes.
sz 14...not a chance. I'm not even going to try those on.
sz 16...what?!? okay whatevs, so I pull out the
sz 18... Shut the front door. I can't even get these *********ers up my le!
sz 20. I can't button them. This is the biggest I have. In fact, I bought these by accident when I grabbed the wrong size and laughed when I got them home and they fell off of my body. Threw them in the back of the closet.
My starting weight (Sunday)....301.
I cried and felt sad for myself and ate.
Then Monday, I saw this documentary about this lady who just hoped and prayed and ate and get weight then became bedridden and then she died (long story short).
I HAVE NEVER TASTED ANYTHING GOOD ENOUGH TO DIE FOR. NEVER
I'm super sociable but now it feels awkward cause instead of the flirty, curvy girl, I think I look like THE FAT WOMAN WHO IS TRYING TOO HARD.
But it's still me, I just have a few extra layers to get rid of.
I would love to have a weight losss buddy, age doesn't matter (I'm 26) but I think we should have a similar amount of weight to lose.
I am now ready for questions and comments (lol).
I'm really happy to be here!
Hope to get to know you all well.



It looks like we are pretty similarly sized! It's nice to find people at the same kind of stage. I'm a couple years older than you
to you both! I hope that you both find a way/plan of eating that helps you get healthy and fit