Back in the Saddle
Logging in today my profile informed me that I last visited on December 6, 2011 - I suppose making that when I last tried to get back 'on the wagon' which I'm sad to say I have just simply been off of for a long time.... well at least on and off of with zero actual weight loss progress. I've been hitting the gym regularly but not optimizing my work outs and my diet has been portion-out-of-control or full of excuses for a long time. A few years back I lost a significant amount of weight and being here helped me - through a series of life changes that tend to happen and my own mental fear I lost sight of where I was going and went back to where I came from. Now years later I find myself back to a place where the only thing holding me back is my weight. I'm in a wonderful loving relationship and we have survived the first year of living together successfully. I'm at a great place in my career, I'm nearing complete financial stability more and more every day. I finally feel like I can move on from those life obstacles that have pulled me back over and over throughout the years. I am happy.
So here I am now, happy but still tipping and maintaining the scales again at 243lbs...not my highest weight but nothing to be proud of. The only way to move forward and accomplish my goals is to admit that I haven't been giving it my 120% for a long time, accept it, and move on to a new page where today I will not eat office chocolate, skip the gym, have pasta for dinner or any other number of bad things. I will drink my water and green tea, I will eat the portioned meals I brought to work, I will take a 30 minute lunch time walk. I will lose 100lbs and I'm re-starting today. I know I can't do it alone so I'm looking forward to getting to know the people on the boards that helped me so many years ago.
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