Welcome, Gobo! I know exactly how you feel when you say you're tired of feeling bad for yourself. I've been there (and still am on certain days) for too long now myself. It's hard since I remember loving to go out and let people see me. I stopped going out, I stopped wearing anything nice (I live in sweats at home and don't really take pride in my office suits anymore), stopped using make up and doing my hair... I just stopped being me. I stopped feeling pretty. I'd eat to feel better, feel horrible for eating, then eat some more. Years later and here I am, at my heaviest ever, basically hiding out indoors.
But even though I still feel self conscious and unsure of myself, I'm finding the more I eat right and exercise, the better I feel. The girls here also really help that out. Everyone here is very supporting and motivating. I come here to read their stories and give and get support. I've got a long ways to go before I hit my goal, but this is the first time in my life I think, not only can I accomplish this, I really feel like this will be the last time I have to make this hard journey.
I know you're sick of this---we all are. And we're glad you're here. You can do this!!! Chime in on any threads you find interesting; I really think the more you involve yourself, the more you'll commit to this lifestyle change. Good luck and I look forward to going on this journey with you!!
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