I have been on this weight loss ride for over 3 years now. I've cried, disappointed myself, and gave up too many times to count. Every time I think it's going to work, my past failures have been right there in the back of my mind reminding me that I don't have what it takes to do this.

I read something tonight that hit me. I would never treat a friend the way I treat myself. I have heard this before, but tonight it really hit home. My past failures do not define me. My fat does not define me. My thoughts, my caring, and my heart constitute who I am. This does not mean I am through with this weight loss journey...it means I can start again fresh. I tried 10's of times to quit smoking before it stuck. And I accepted quitting smoking was hard. LOSING WEIGHT is hard too and I forgive myself for my supposed
"failings" at it. Tomorrow I am going to stick with my method of weight loss. I will get discouraged. I will get angry when I want something I can't have, but I can do it because there is no reason now that I can't. I forgive myself of my past.

While my fat doesn't define me, it's painful, hard to breathe, and so hard to really look/feel nice about myself. And I don't WANT that anymore. My plan is to be here every day to remind myself of my goal. This has to be at the front of my mind.

Good luck Sunray!!!! For me once i decided to do it, the weight loss was easier than the smoking. Still haven't kicked that one.

It sounds like you are finally really ready to do it. Just go with your method and stick with it.

WOW Borgie! Amazing job! I can't wait until I am 19 from goal! ;-)

its been a long journey for most of us. dont give up!!

Good luck. Stay positive. I'm reading Dr. Phil one of the things he says is to stay positive and say to yourself " i dont have to lose weight " instead of negating things like I have to loes weight now and I'm a terrible person...

I can relate to your message in so many ways, as though I had written it

Thank You Julia!

Jinee I love that! I don't have to lose weight! I can choose pizza, that donut I know management is bringing in tomorrow morning! It's all up to me! ;-)

Inkleberry75 maybe we can do this together!

Carbie, thank you!

Today went well. Of course I am still feeling strong from feeling SO bad last night. Tomorrow morning I will say no to the donut and since I'm leaving work early tomorrow I am going to get a salad. Weekends suck and they are usually the time I will choose the bad stuff. I'm not doing it this weekend.

Just took my BEFORE photos. Even the behind.

Hi Sunray! Good luck! WE CAN DO THIS!