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Hi everyone. I'm new to this site but not to the weight loss journey. This is about my 5th genuine attempt and hopefully my last. I'm a married working mom to an 8 year old little girl and stepmom to an almost 19 year old stepson and a 17 year old stepdaughter. The girl lives with her mom and the boy just left yesterday morning for the marines. I have been doing P90x for almost 90 days now and I go to that website for exercise support but when it comes to eating healthy, it doesn't serve my needs because their diet plan isn't for me. I needed a new place to go where I could be with people who understand the struggles and after looking over this site today, I think this is a good place to call home.
I don't know if you have seen the infomercials for P90x (they now have Insanity commercials) but its a 90 day program that you can do in 'rounds.' I am about to finish up my first round on Saturday and then will start with the second round on October 1. During the first round, I focused only on exercise and my eating was out of control and atrocious. Thankfully from doing the exercises, I didn't gain a single pound but after working out 5 days a week for the last 13 weeks, I also didn't lose a pound. I did become stronger and I am able to do things that I wasn't able to do when I started but by not focusing on the diet, I still was not headed in the direction I wanted to be, until yesterday.
As I said earlier, my stepson went into the marines yesterday. I suggested that we all give up something while he was gone so we would be in solidarity with him. I was going to give up pizza but my husband decided to give up junk food and ordering out. Its only about hour 31 and I'm already miserable. Now I have to say that it isn't so much that I am craving anything. I'm not. Its the typical "I can't have it so now I want it" mentality that I think trips me up so many times.
I come from a family addicted to a variety of things - work, alcohol, drugs, and food. Funny how addiction can never be somewhat healthy - like being addicted to working or being addicted to healthy eating. It's always just really bad. I also believe I'm an emotional eater - eat when I'm bored, when I'm mad, etc. Yay me! Despite these problems, what I do have is this strange ability to just stop. When I gave up cigarettes, I just stopped. When I gave up soda, I just stopped. In April, on a bet with my brother, I gave up candy and chips. Since June, I added cookies. I don't have a craving for any of them and I can look at them and not thing twice. I really really hope that is what happens with the no junk food eating and no ordering out. I think my biggest problem, though, will be finding interesting food to eat instead of just eating a piece of fruit or just eating some carrot sticks. I like them, but they get boring.
Sorry to go on like this. I am a talker/writer once I get started. I look forward to meeting everyone and supporting everyone.
Have a great day.
Michele
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