Since this is an intro... let's reveal embarrassing details...
first, english isn't my first language so sorry for my mistakes and misshaped sentences, I'll try my best!
I have suffered from hyperphagia for 4 years now which made me gain a lot of weight. I have been quite ok for a year and a half, when I had my second son but since two years, it's not that easy to control the urges and the binging...
I will be ok for a month, lose weight relatively rapidly and then it will get worse again...
I was 148 pounds before all this started and now I'm 206 in date of this morning... When I was 9 months pregnant with my second one, I was 180... you see how exasperating this is getting...
I have done a lot of short lived diets and then it would get out of control again. I was 215.8 at the beginning of july and lost 12 pounds in a month and then I started the same stupid pattern again but I managed not to take it all back, "only" three pounds...
So yeah, it's all or nothing with me and, when I was 148, I was on another forum and people would always come to me for advice and I saw how that helped them and myself too... but now, I'm too ashamed to go back there for support and I really hope you will accept me here.\
My goal is to go back to my "before" weight of 148 and add another 9 pounds to that... Basically, I just want to get under 140 so 139 would be amazing for me...
counting calories and checking the carbs... training too. Obviously, I can't run my 5k each day like before but that's another of my goals... to get back to that...
oh and I'm 27, FTM, two kids and I'm doing a doctorate in literature. Here you go...
Aw, you don't don't have to feel ashamed! It's okay to make mistakes every now and then, that's what humans do. It's good that you've started to try again, and as long as you don't give up, then you'll reach your goal! I bet the people at your other forum would be willing to help you out too if you asked!
That's really cool to be going for a doctorate in Literature, and having two kids! I'm planning on double-majoring in Japanese and Physics.
What is your first language?
thank you! phyisics and japanese, that sounds complicated :P My doctorate is in creation so basically, I write books! I speak french usually btw
it's not just a mistakes, I haven't been there in two years and it's considered a illness, just like anorexia for example, I don't feel comfortable talking about it with people that know me personnally, I've met most of the people on that forum since it's a french one and we all lived relatively close. But anyway, it's in the past, it will probably come back but now that I feel ok, I should take advantage of it to gain some self confidence back!
I like writing, but I can never stick with writing a story. That's really awesome! Whoa, so you're in France? Way. Cool. I'm in America, where probably a lot of the people here are at. I can't wait to be bilingual!
Oh wow, you've met most of them? The closest I've ever gotten to a Internet friend was friending him on Facebook. We might meet one day because we're in the same state, but it's still pretty far away. But anyway, yeah, I see how your situation is different now. It'll be okay though, it'll just take time.
I have books idea in my head all the time, I should get treated for this :P seriously, though, I'm in Quebec, the french part of Canada! And since it's not a big country, we had meetings and I met quite a few people from the forum, about 50, probably more.
I see you lost 24 pounds, that's really great, congrats!
My creativity usually goes into art and stuff, but ever since I inconveniently fell in love my creativity's been stumped.
Ohhh I see. Wow, 50 people? At least? Man, there's no way I'm that social, lol.
Aw, that was from a long time ago though. WiiFit helped me lose 10, and then later I was able to drop ten more, and now I'm here, because dropping weight is so difficult. I can maintain just fine, but losing is a whole other story. Thank you though. :3
still here and alive, I've just been really busy! I am going on a trip in less than two weeks and i wanted to start a protein diet but I guess I better wait until I get back since I won't be able to cook at all during the trip (we are backpacking so... no stove, no fridge, not even a bed :P ) but anyway, I'm making small changes here and there...
lost 1,6 pounds so far in 10 days.
creativity is never lost! it's just sleeping and waiting the right moment to wake up!
Ohhhhh! That sounds fun! I've never been on a trip like that, my family isn't into that kinda stuff. I hope I'll get to go with a friend of mine one day though.
Yay! I've lost a little bit too!
Oh, I sure hope so. All I can think about is the one I love. I've thought about picking watercoloring back up, since I haven't done it in awhile, but my life's also kinda up in the air at the moment. I'll wait until I can get a job.
We should move to private messaging if we're gonna continue to converse like this, but I can't figure out how it works...
ahah me neither! just had a quick look but it's so different from the other forum i used that I'm lost :P
backpacking is so amazing! went in england last march for 3 weeks, we did quite a few cities and saw some shows (I was with a friend from germany), it's really tiring but trips aren't to relax in my opinion, I can do that in my bed (mostly ahah)
Apparently you can't send/receive pms until you have 20 posts and have been for 20 days, like the signature thing... I can send them now though.
Anyway wow, so cool! My Physics teacher last year told me and this other girl while we were coming home from a robotics competition about the best place to camp out if we were ever to find ourselves in a homeless-position. I don't think he was ever homeless... he mentioned having cycled for long periods of time, having not eaten for 40 hours straight at one point. Since his passion is biking, he did like a journey, just his bike and whatever he could bring along. Pretty awesome, I wouldn't mind doing something like that. Kinda need to get a bike first and practice!
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It's okay to make mistakes every now and then, that's what humans do. It's good that you've started to try again, and as long as you don't give up, then you'll reach your goal! I bet the people at your other forum would be willing to help you out too if you asked! 
to both of you
