Like everyone else here, I am in need of change
The titles may all seem the same, as do the desires. We all come here because we need support, we need to change, we need guidence.
Like most others, I am no virgin to the diet world. For years I have lost weight, gained weight, and most recently struggled. I am one of the worst kind of dieters, the know-it-all. The been there done that girl. I tried slim fast, weight watchers, low fat, low carb, nutrisystem, cabbage soup, colon clense, the best one, the Tomorrow Diet or better known as the Yo-yo diet.
I can tell you the grams of fat in foods, and the carbs and the calories. I am a self proclaimed dietician don't you know and here I sit, lost beyond repair, damaged, and broken. I weigh 261 pounds and am 36, almost 37.
My recent trends or focus have been on low fat and low carb. Low carb worked for me a little. I felt more energetic, crisp mind set, the water loss was great since I swell up like a balloon. The diet itself destroyed my taste for many meats. Atkins was the focus, and eating fats was a good thing but for me, it tore my insides up. After two months, the thought of a meal made me want to gag. My mother did it for almost a year and lost 87 pounds. Her hair began to fall out so she took biotin- she then began to play the yo yo game and the weight is creeping back as her eating habbits are too.
My struggle is blood sugar and obsessing over fat grams and calories. I sabotage my own goals day to day. I don't want to focus on any ONE diet, I want to just eat healthy and feel good. If I could just stop getting in my own way, stop thinking about diets all of the time, I would be in a better place. Currently I don't even know who I am any more. I am deeply depressed, introverted and wish to just disappear so others can't see me.
I just need support, guidence, and advise ...
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