Writer working at home needs buddies
 

Hello everyone!

I have had life-long eating issues, including anorexia and binge eating, from emotional abuse. I went through a binge eating program and seem to be binging less. Most of my adult life I have been of average weight, but two or three years ago some traumatic things happened (which are now over) and now I weigh 190, the most I have ever weighed. Just to keep things interesting, I also have fibromyalgia and have had three shoulder surgeries.

I feel like a whale and am really ashamed to have people see me, especially those whom I have not seen since my skinnier days. I went to my brother's wedding, which was very hard. Seeing myself naked is hard. I have kept gaining and how have clothes at every 10 pound mark between 140 and 190.
I went through a pain management program and was exercising quite heavily until my shoulder surgery and healing, which took a year and a half. I routinely exercise at least three times a week. But that's not really a weight loss thing.

I have a great husband and since I work for myself, plenty of time to work on this. My downfalls are not taking the time (fibro makes me exhausted) to prepare meals. I eat pretty healthy; just more than I should. I have to be sugar free or I binge.

Enough about be. I'd like to learn more about all of you. I look forward to support in this forum.

Hello! Welcome to the community!

It is a terrible feeling to not be able to love your body, or when you feel like you are falling short of your potential. I hope that your journey will lead you to feel proud of yourself in your own skin, just the same as I hope my journey does for me.

You said in your title that you are a writer, what sort of writing do you do? I ask because I'm a writer myself, and it's always nice to meet writing buddies, especially ones who have similar personal goals!

-Jade

I write self help books. Ha ha ha. I am also into science fiction. I am writing a Trek short story now.

That's awesome! I'm only recently getting into more science-fiction, but it's an incredible genre.